Best My Child Poems
like visitors from outer space
they came with tears, and lined the sidewalk
long in face, and arms embracing
some (I have no inkling) who
they were or why they felt compelled to come
dozens came with casseroles
a few with flowers, wads of tissues
tender words of helpless mutterings
many acts of generous offerings
don't get me wrong, I watched the suffering
expressed in words or acts of kindness
I watched it all, and felt the love
did not dismiss the warm compassion
returned it all, with pure compliance
a thankful heart, a swollen throat
I hugged these strangers at the door
to comfort them, who shed their tears
upon my shoulder, offered them
a place to share their sympathies
a place to spend their mercy, pure
but, this was my child who loved and lost
impossible........I can't express it
protected from the very start, by
loving hands, her dad's and mine,
we watched her grow, and let her go
she grew from the vine ....into a rose
but life composed a tragedy, with goals
beyond our reach...beyond belief
beyond our wildest dreams
and left her with a loss beyond control
like visitors from outer space, we watch
as others come, and others go
they blow into their tissue wads
and empty the boxes one by one
and cry with us, and then they all go home...
do we cry........? Oh no, not yet...
instead we smile a grateful smile
and thank them kindly for the while
and for the ways they share their love
but we can't cry into our own clenched wad
of tissue from the tissue box
she needs us to be strong, somehow
and so that is the way it is, we vow...to hold back all the tears for now
for, this was my child who loved and lost
impossible........I can't express it
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4/12/13
Little wishes on great big stars.
Daughter, I make a wishes for you.
Keep on growing and keep on smiling.
And I'll keep loving all that you do.
Little dreamers wishing big things.
The world is your stage to display.
You can sing and you can dance.
Enjoy all that comes your way.
Little hopes in a great big world.
Nothing can stop your free spirit.
Make some noise, play a beat.
It's beautiful music when I hear it.
Little kisses from my now big girl,
You're growing up so fast it seems.
Pretty soon you'll leave the nest
And fly after all of your dreams.
Little girl I love you,
And I love you even more.
Because I made a wish once,
And you're what I wished for.
Written April 09, 2014
My heart is full of unbounded love
Bleeding sacrifice and pain
Spilling over with devotion
pouring down like monsoon rain
With the vastness of the ocean
It beats out a warning cry
To ward of evil spirits
keep you safe till you can fly
I wish upon so many stars
To keep you safe my girl
I hold you close secure and warm
like an oyster holds a pearl
I dreamt a thousand dreams for you
I prayed so many times
I Told you tales of kings and queens
And endless nursery rhymes
I wrapped my heart around you
Gave you all that I posses
Now these lips strive not to nag you
when you make an awful mess
Your little hands and tiny feet
I remember them so well
I picked you up and kissed your knees
when time again you fell
Too fragile for this earth plain
So beautiful and pure
But while you’re here I’ll guide you
Hold your hand when you’re unsure
You’re not alone my darling
And even when I moan
Know I’ll love you till my one last breath
And I’ll always be your home
Where cradled canyons sing
Of ebony wood in the forest
There lies a gurgling spring
Where cockcrows sing their chorus
To the melody of singsong birds
There I’ve concealed my sensuous words
Filled with befitted signs
The saccharine whiff of my designs
Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found
Where the fogs of night are fountains
Spills of glistened moon ignite
By distant silhouette mountains
We dance with passion of fight
Entwining ancient stance
Mingling hand in hand we dance
Till the mountains smile on high
Near and far we spring
To pursue the realest of dreams
While the world cries at its seams
Anxious in trouble to cling
Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found
To where the ridges merry make
From the beaks of wooden bright
In sparkly pools the ghouls awake
That scarce to stir our night
We watch for seekers down under
Muttering secrets in their soul
We bid them lucks of shivers
Dipping gently in
From reeds that hide a tear of a foal
Under the gentle rivers
Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found
Far away she shall ever churn
The taciturn eyed
She’ll listen no more to turn
To the working mills beside
Or the scrubbing of the barn
May peace weave in her song
She shall wave in the yarn
To a haven known as Belong
Come to me my mortal youth
To the wild realm of your truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only your tears be found
For she comes, the mortal youth
To the wild realm of her truth
Where nymphs and gnomes abound
For the earth is filled with weeping
And only her tears be found
An angel gave wings to you so you can fly
Never will life pass you by
Toward the sky you will guide
Hovering above the world so high
On a cloud you sit as other's sigh
Never will you fall from the sky
Your angels taught you how to fly
“When I Get To Heaven”
As I walked to her bedroom door, I paused to wipe a tear.
I had to stay strong, God would take her soon, this
child that I loved so.
Dawn was breaking as I stood at her door, frozen in
time. I gazed upon this child, hoping this moment
would never end.
As she lay there quietly, my emotions overwhelmed me,
this beautiful child of only six, she didn’t understand life, death, Heaven. eternal life.
I wanted her to stay, I wanted to take her place.
I wanted to pretend nothing was wrong ….going back in my mind, to before she was sick, and remembering, wishing, hoping..and yet knowing I had to let God take her home.
As I started to walk in her room, I stopped, as I saw her tiny hands fold
in prayer.
Her voice, so soft, so quiet she began to pray.
“Jesus, when I get to Heaven, will Mommy and Daddy
be there, will they be happy to see me, and will they
hug me when I get there, will my puppy be there and
will my toys be there too, will there be music, and do I get to see Grandma and Grandpa again and oh I almost forgot to ask, will everybody love each other, thank you, Jesus, Amen”
Tears streaming down ….
I walked to her bedside, and held her close as she smiled and closed her eyes.
"Vicissitudes into Light"
You are another world
away from me
stretching far from
his insanity
Diving into a new
Light
Dimensions that
are the truest You
From the dark deep
Ocean of sinking blue
Reach on the wave
in my wake
I gift to You
You are stronger
than all of his
bluest blues
broken egg shells
ladders in stockings
hyena in the corner little
Jack now crying
in his new freedom zoo
no ladder required
transparent
You have grown
wings to fly
Open Sky
for You
Little sister
Vicissitudes into Light
Open Sky
for You
Into day
Escape dark night
(LadyLabyrinth/2019)
gvlm
https://youtu.be/mYbZw04ba78
bjork: tabula raisa
If I could deliver myself to you
on a silver blanket
that is prancing upon a lofty cloud
with wine and cheese and all that you please
and NYC nights and summer lights
that will be my gift
If I could comfort the pain
that stretches through your thoughts
and holds your hands heavy
to your head
that will be my wish
If you lack the guidance and strength
in sheer loneliness
to make right decisions
my strength and any wisdom
that I have encountered
will be your wings of flight
The moment that you face inequity
injustice
raw hatred
of what I created you to be
I will be your warrior
If at the moment of sheer question
of our Universe
of our God
overwhelms your very being
Unable to take any more
Lie still
I will go in your place
You are a princess in my heart,
and I care for you so much.
I love the fondness in your eyes,
and your tender little touch.
I looked at you when you were born,
and knew then straight away,
that I would be fore ever here
to watch you grow and play.
You bring to me a heart of joy,
and memories so great,
and a powerful sense of fatherhood
that no one can debate.
I watch you sleep and dream of things
that I can only wonder.
That innocent look upon your face
just makes my heart grow fonder.
I see you run and jump and shout
and calling out my name.
No love that I have ever known
could ever feel the same.
No suffering or tragedy
nor deeply seated pain
could ever over shadow
the bond that we retain.
And so my little princess
before you go to sleep,
Remember I am your daddy,
and I am yours to keep.
(For Victoria from Dad)
You grow so fast, already showing glimpse of awesome creativity
and transform discoveries from the industrious nature of your observations
so squat at my feet and raise your attentive head up high
to be equipped for this compulsory journey oh sweet creature of my seed.
My hands of your molding and chastisement
are already the processing engine of your refinement
my strong willed mind and love soaked heart
complete the stages as you hold steadfast
to the train I’ve prepared for you
Listen attentively as I perform this segment of my duties
and lets take a tour round the routes of wisdom
and gallivant the landscape of experience
while I pedal your feet and smoothen your soles
Seasoned flavored virtues are an armour through which
life’s shots are overcomed
and a colourful behaviour becomes a saviour in times of need
Labor not your whole life in chasing vapour
for out of vigour, flour is made from wheat,
Bread from flour, but all for a time of enjoyment and satisfaction
Guilty syndrome is exhibited when a person answers unasked questions
and don’t force out jokes from your head
or else people will think your sense of humor is on a life support
Sunset is no accuse for the clock to stop running ad infinitum
thus, an excuse is like a punctured umbrella
it’ll still not stop the invasion of raindrops
Your natural desires are borderless, but your ability
to strongly control them is what makes you distinct
from other species in the animal kingdom
Love has no prefix, suffix or adjective
it is what it is and as powerful as
causing natural instincts to be abdicated in favour of kindness
just for the carnivore to embrace abstinence.
He who begins a tale becomes its reference
don’t say what you cannot defend in court
rumour is a bad odour which spreads beyond the neighbourhood
and puts a noisy siren on your personality
Bad companionship will lead you to the garbage
and corrupt friends will join others
to marvel at the immortality of your adopted stupidity
Wash your face every morning with these words
and take your every meal with these lines
then would they be spices
to which your life is preserved.
What would we do without Cuddles
They help us to get out of muddles
When we're feelin' down, they replace a frown
And they fill us so full of Love Bubbles
Beethoven, Sparkles and Lulu
Far greater than anything Tragic
Eeyore, T-T-Tigger and Pooh
In Dreams that are filled full of Magic
Angels are made for believin'
Even if we've never seen them
They mind us at night, when we shut our eyes tight
And they help the Dream Fairies to Weave them
I feel helpless I dont know where to start,
you are one of my four beating hearts,
the second beauty I brought into this world,
I can only watch from a distance,
from the barrier you set to others,
I feel the need to wonder because I feel helpless,
its fear that sets my weakness for you ,
a fear that has hit like a tidal wave I feel helpless,
you seem so alone and I dont know why,
I watch you ....emoitionless and I just want to cry I feel helpless,
it's a world of mental illness I could never understand,
it's a weakness always judged even at my own hand,
But now I see you suffer harder and harder days,
with no way of hepling I feel helpless,
My second born daughter so beautiful and strong,
for all you go through and your days still go on,
you wake day by day and you hold ur hands high,
to the reason you stay in this world,
I can only be glad you think of me that way because I feel helpless.
To Love My Only Daughter
By: Aidan Gilbert
I wanted to be the best father
To love my only daughter
But a cold war struck my blind eyes
Left my love inside in a knotted tie
This war slowly kills
And I don’t have a will
A will to fight against it
Because of that my daughter took the biggest hit
She was only six
And my life I couldn’t fix
I remember
On a cold November
I took her to her ballet class
And when she was backstage I snuck out to my car and hidden alcohol stash
I would come back and see her dance
See her on that stage prance
See looked at me with a huge smile and those big brown eyes
I had to step outside and cry
Her in her beautiful pink tutu
I’ll never love her like she wants me too
Lilly
Always said when I’m drunk I’m acting silly
If only she knew I won’t be there when the sky is blue
Or new
Only when the sky is grey
With this alcohol addiction I won’t change my way
And the worst of it is you can’t take the sting out of my heart
Because sadly I don’t regret anything from the start
What kind of man am I
To let my only daughter later cry
Because later she will see
The man I chose to be
After her ballet class I took her home
But in that car my drunk mind started to roam
It all happened so fast
It happened in a flash
I passed that red light
My mind was having flashes of us once flying a kite
Then we hit the semi truck…
We didn’t have the time to duck
I remember in that hospital room
I woke up too soon
My shame was hard to hide
I had lost all of my pride
I knew I might never see my daughter again
I knew I probably didn’t win
I looked over at my wife
Drained from her was life
She was shaking
Waiting to see if her daughter would be waking
From that day what I remember best
The doctor came in depressed
He said Lilly did die
I started to cry…
I knew I would never be to tell her I love her again or say goodbye
Pregnant once more, a surprise she would be. I was carrying a baby, dependent on me. Since I already had Shelby, no fear did I feel. Just excitement and doubt that this could be real. It wasn't an easy pregnancy still, the doctors we're worried that I'd get quite ill.
She was so strong as she moved inside of me. Every hiccup and kick, filled me with glee. At the end there was worry as her movements grew less, the doctor decided that induction was best. All at once I was filled with fear, my eyes overflowed as they started to tear. My
heart beat strong and knew she'd be fine. Nothing could take, this baby of mine. Labor was hard, the pain quite intense, but didn't last long for that I was blessed. There was no pushing, from me she came fast. Couldn't wait to be born and meet me at last. When finally I held her, it was plain to see. God sent an angel, down to me.
Heart & Soul
What a wonderful thing to behold!
Have you ever seen one quite so cute?
Never ever wanna let you go..
dressed in a brand new birthday suit.
How nicely you plucked heart strings..
that day you flew into life,
on two sun-kissed shining wings.
All your charms,
sent my heart straight to Mars,
the day you fell asleep..
right here in my arms..
Oh Heart & Soul..
Not yet even one day old,
left me feelin' ten feet tall..
so precious a tale be told..
pink bottom and all!
Went to shop for ribbons and bows,
said the angels.. we don't have any of those..
how 'bout ten fingers and toes?
The day you took my heart & soul,
was oh so nice, yes all sugar and spice,
so glad your mom brought you home..
would a kept you at twice the price.
Under lightning streaked flashing glow..
the night a duet sought to become a sweet trio.
Please tell your mom she's still the best,
no better nine month gift was I ever blessed.