Tissue Box

like visitors from outer space
they came with tears, and lined the sidewalk
long in face, and arms embracing
some (I have no inkling) who
they were or why they felt compelled to come 

dozens came with casseroles
a few with flowers, wads of tissues
tender words of helpless mutterings
many acts of generous offerings

don't get me wrong, I watched the suffering
expressed in words or acts of kindness
I watched it all, and felt the love
did not dismiss the warm compassion
returned it all, with pure compliance
a thankful heart, a swollen throat

I hugged these strangers at the door
to comfort them, who shed their tears
upon my shoulder, offered them
a place to share their sympathies
a place to spend their mercy, pure

                but, this was my child who loved and lost
                impossible........I can't express it

protected from the very start, by
loving hands, her dad's and mine, 
we watched her grow, and let her go
she grew from the vine ....into a rose
but life composed a tragedy, with goals
beyond our reach...beyond belief
beyond our wildest dreams
and left her with a loss beyond control

like visitors from outer space, we watch
as others come, and others go
they blow into their tissue wads
and empty the boxes one by one
and cry with us,  and then they all go home...

do we cry........?  Oh no, not yet...
instead we smile a grateful smile
and thank them kindly for the while
and for the ways they share their love
but we can't cry into our own clenched wad
of tissue from the tissue box
she needs us to be strong, somehow
and so that is the way it is, we vow...to hold back all the tears for now


                for, this was my child who loved and lost
                impossible........I can't express it
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4/12/13
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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De Burca Avatar
July 18, 2016 at 9:11 AM
Such a sad and terrible loss to bare. You have expressed such suffering in such a dignified and beautifully poetic way. Congrats on your win.
Merryman Avatar
July 17, 2016 at 8:31 PM
Carrie this is heart wrenching! You have a wonderful gift of expression through your poetry that draws the reader in. Congrats on your win! Blessings!
Devnath  Avatar
July 16, 2016 at 2:19 PM
A heartbreaking and heart touching poem read from you. Congratulation my lovely smiling friend. Loved always, bl
A  Avatar
July 16, 2016 at 1:24 AM
Carrie, Lovely win. WUV **SKAT**
A   Avatar
July 16, 2016 at 1:02 AM
Carrie, it's an honor to have one of your lovely poems make my top list. Congratulations on your win. Stop by and enjoy my blog "The Perils of Getting Old" if you'd like. Always & Forever ~LINDA~
A   Avatar
July 7, 2013 at 10:27 AM
A great poem of lost emotions.... ;-) CONGRATULATIONS!!! With your awesome winning write. Take Care * Linda
Dietrich Avatar
July 4, 2013 at 9:49 AM
OH MY , sad indeed, Dear Carrie and a very well deserved win. Congratulations
Anglesey Avatar
July 3, 2013 at 6:48 AM
Carrie, a stunning and compelling write. You are flawless in expressing the suffering , while keeping vigilant in the darkest hour. So many layers of feeling here... wow
Posey Avatar
July 3, 2013 at 5:35 AM
If there is victory under circumstances such as these, You have surely claimed it. Condolences and Congratulations, dearest Carrie, You could well be the poster child for courage..... Jake
Guzzi Avatar
July 3, 2013 at 5:05 AM
Wonderful to re-read, would you write of how she has fared since then? Congrad's on your win. Light & Love
Johnson Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 7:52 PM
I am so sorry for this loss, but you told the story so well. Love, Joyce.
Gorelick Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 7:17 AM
Heart wrenching poem..Im so sorry. congrats on your poem being a big winner..sorry for the reason you wrote it. BG
Gildersleeve Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 6:10 AM
Carrie I'm so sorry for you and your family's loss. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. You have expressed your heartache excellently. Congratulations on your win. Hugs, Connie
Ryerson Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 2:04 AM
Oh yes Carrie...I remember this heartbreaker and it is going directly to my favs...Please give your daughter my love and best wishes...I'm sure you will be seeing her this weekend...The last words of this gem say 'I can't express it'...Well, I think you have expressed it with true grace and elegance - Tim
Bauer Avatar
July 2, 2013 at 1:22 AM
this is one of the most touching poems i've read on this site (or anywhere else). you've expressed this heartache in an amazing way and i am so sorry for your loss. it so deserves a win in any contest...
A  Avatar
July 1, 2013 at 9:39 PM
Carrie, a great winning poem, in Nathan's (dark, lost, broken emotions) contest. :-) SKAT
D. Avatar
July 1, 2013 at 9:19 PM
thanks for the comment. congrats ' NATE
Colasurdo Avatar
April 22, 2013 at 8:31 PM
WOW! Carrie I am so so sorry for your loss. You have penned this painful scene so perfectly. This! is your way of "Expressing it" and also through tears that will and should come if they havent already as they are our release of the pain. cont...
Colasurdo Avatar
April 22, 2013 at 8:31 PM
Congratulations on your well deserved win and thanks for stopping by my Grief poem and leave such warm words for me. Yes I have lost my beautiful wife and soulmate to Cancer at the age of 46, almost 11 months ago. She was my world as we have no kids. I wear my heart on my sleeve and on the page...Bless you on your journey Big Hugs
Kovacs Avatar
April 20, 2013 at 7:09 AM
This is absolutely beautiful. I love the perspective and use of the tissue box as a focal point. Awesome poem. Congrats.
Zerbst Avatar
April 19, 2013 at 9:46 AM
I see you got your medal! Shiny gold too. Nice going! Did you get out the tissue box when Craig broke the news?
Bateson Avatar
April 19, 2013 at 5:44 AM
I feel the pain and the love. Beautiful and congrats to you.
Oyewole Avatar
April 19, 2013 at 2:11 AM
Congrats Carrie on your win. Bravo!~A.O
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 18, 2013 at 11:29 PM
An expression of true love in holding it all together for the love of your child. Your honesty of the human spirit in comforting others holds such truth in the way it really is. Brava on your wonderful well deserved win! I am sorry for your family's loss. Blessings Carrie
A   Avatar
April 18, 2013 at 7:28 PM
Carrie, Congratulations in Craig's "Empty Tissue Box " contest;-) always~ PD
Lamoureux Avatar
April 18, 2013 at 4:46 PM
congratulations on this moving piece.
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