Helpless

I feel helpless I dont know where to start, you are one of my four beating hearts, the second beauty I brought into this world, I can only watch from a distance, from the barrier you set to others, I feel the need to wonder because I feel helpless, its fear that sets my weakness for you , a fear that has hit like a tidal wave I feel helpless, you seem so alone and I dont know why, I watch you ....emoitionless and I just want to cry I feel helpless, it's a world of mental illness I could never understand, it's a weakness always judged even at my own hand, But now I see you suffer harder and harder days, with no way of hepling I feel helpless, My second born daughter so beautiful and strong, for all you go through and your days still go on, you wake day by day and you hold ur hands high, to the reason you stay in this world, I can only be glad you think of me that way because I feel helpless.