CayCay Godwin Poet Elegiac Lyric

Not My Child

Dedicated to Kyle, My Darling Son
A kaleidoscope’s blossoms are not as awesome
as my child at every turn; watching his silences – 
I burn, watching his movements – I yearn.  
I learn love's wonderment watching him discern.  
Toddler-boy loves me content with innocence and joy.

I shout for time to slow its capture of my boy.
Give me endless days and countless ways
to watch my miracle grow.  Sunshine, moon glow,
build him a perfect rainbow so that he may know
the wonder of the love I try so hard to show.

Loyal, gentle pets
give love deep set
and when they die
I full pay grief's debt.  

Friends are the prose
inspiring my rhymes.
Each would be missed
by this heart of mine.

When parents and siblings
expel their final breath,
I will mourn them
until my own day of death.

If my husband
should before me die,
my soul would cry
float adrift and dry.

But should my babe at any age
pass first in death’s grasp,
defeat would set a fatal stage
for my heart's final crash.

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Susan Ashley December 9, 2017 at 3:54 PM CayCay, when I read your captivating poem, I had to linger with its poignancy for awhile. To absorb your beautiful thoughts expressed and let the emotional feelings of your write settle, and the feelings evoked by your words settled in my heart as your tender and moving poem made a home there. I especially feel, with my whole being, your last stanza. A heartfelt and gripping write dear friend. Warmest wishes ~Susan CayCay Godwin December 10, 2017 at 10:52 AM I tried very hard to capture complex and deep emotions with a brevity write that would deliver them completely. For myself, I succeeded and by your words, I rest assured that I succeeded for other maternal hearts, as well. Thank you, for this is a personal write and I thrill knowing it read that way, and also sits that way for you. Thank you for reading my Kyle poems, and mostly for the genuine reactions you have shared. You warm my heart, Susan. PLEASE be sure to list your personal ones for me, I would so enjoy spending time with them. Love ... CayCay

Skat A June 21, 2016 at 12:55 AM CAYCAY, NICE FAV WIN.... SKAT

James Inman May 2, 2016 at 7:21 AM A beautiful, sentimental write CayCay. It touched me.

Balveen Cheema May 2, 2016 at 5:33 AM Congrats for being Andrea's New Fave! CayCay, this is so sad and poignant!

Eve Roper May 1, 2016 at 10:46 AM CayCay, beautiful verse congratulations on your win! Hugs Eve

Andrea Dietrich May 1, 2016 at 9:02 AM wow, Caycay, you wrote this a long time ago, even before I think we became friends. I had no clue you had entered my contest, so I am very pleased this poem belonged to such a sweet lady!! This is sheer poignancy! Congrats and a fave.

Joan Donnelly Ellis October 1, 2015 at 12:36 AM so heart felt and beautiful CayCay Godwin October 1, 2015 at 12:57 AM It was a heart felt write - thought of my son. You are so sweet to read and comment as you have. I don't know that anyone has ever read as many of my poems as you. That is probably the greatest compliment and validation of all. Thank you, Joan - CayCay

Miraj Raha September 25, 2015 at 12:49 PM This was very poignant and intense,the feeling a sibling's passing away is the greatest fear and greatest pain,an alternate reality to the essence of a mother. CayCay Godwin September 25, 2015 at 7:40 PM Truth can be intense, huh? I sure appreciate the time you've spent with me. Would love your opinion on some of my first posts - they tend to get overlooked. I value and appreciate not only your talent, but your opinions. Thank you, Miraj ... CayCay

Robert Johnson September 22, 2015 at 9:54 AM The connection between a mother and child is possibly the strongest bond on earth. You have expressed that very intensely. CayCay Godwin September 23, 2015 at 5:24 AM I love your picture - very cute. Thank you, Robert, for commenting - I am glad you found it intense ... CayCay

Afolabi Muideen September 22, 2015 at 7:01 AM What an emotive write here. I love the flow of your write it's eloquent and beautiful.....a very sad piece constructed with passion of love.......A.M. CayCay Godwin September 23, 2015 at 5:26 AM Hi, Afolabi, you are right - I did write it with passion and love thinking of my son. I am so glad you commented on my heartfelt poem, thank you ... CayCay

Michael Tor September 21, 2015 at 4:05 PM Such a touching write CayCay full of love and emotion. CayCay Godwin September 23, 2015 at 5:26 AM Thank you, Michael for both reading and commenting. I appreciate it very much ... CayCay

Mark Woods September 21, 2015 at 1:19 PM Haunting and poignant, very well penned. Top shelf once again CayCay Godwin September 21, 2015 at 1:24 PM Thank you so much, Mark. I'm so glad you felt the poem ... CayCay

Wilfred Aniagyei September 21, 2015 at 1:16 PM Oooohw! CayCay, this is soo beautiful..... The sincerity flows in every word! Well done, loved this!!! CayCay Godwin September 21, 2015 at 1:27 PM Wilfred, you are wonderful to respond with so much emotion of your own. Thank you very much ... CayCay

Eileen Manassian September 21, 2015 at 12:50 PM My 20 year is the world to me....I get choked up thinking something could ever happen to her. You write echoes my sentiments and heart. You write with feelings and depth. Lovely CayCay Godwin September 21, 2015 at 1:29 PM I was sure any healthy parent could relate to my emotions and your comments confirm that. Thank you so much for taking the time to talk to me ... CayCay

Nette Onclaud September 21, 2015 at 12:25 PM such a grating, emotive piece, caycay... this mists my eyes and all the deaths i have gone through... greeat job!..huggs CayCay Godwin September 21, 2015 at 12:28 PM Hi, Nette - thank you so much for commenting. The poem took you where it was meant to, now get your smile back. Everything is okay today, right? CayCay