To Love My Only Daughter

To Love My Only Daughter By: Aidan Gilbert I wanted to be the best father To love my only daughter But a cold war struck my blind eyes Left my love inside in a knotted tie This war slowly kills And I don’t have a will A will to fight against it Because of that my daughter took the biggest hit She was only six And my life I couldn’t fix I remember On a cold November I took her to her ballet class And when she was backstage I snuck out to my car and hidden alcohol stash I would come back and see her dance See her on that stage prance See looked at me with a huge smile and those big brown eyes I had to step outside and cry Her in her beautiful pink tutu I’ll never love her like she wants me too Lilly Always said when I’m drunk I’m acting silly If only she knew I won’t be there when the sky is blue Or new Only when the sky is grey With this alcohol addiction I won’t change my way And the worst of it is you can’t take the sting out of my heart Because sadly I don’t regret anything from the start What kind of man am I To let my only daughter later cry Because later she will see The man I chose to be After her ballet class I took her home But in that car my drunk mind started to roam It all happened so fast It happened in a flash I passed that red light My mind was having flashes of us once flying a kite Then we hit the semi truck… We didn’t have the time to duck I remember in that hospital room I woke up too soon My shame was hard to hide I had lost all of my pride I knew I might never see my daughter again I knew I probably didn’t win I looked over at my wife Drained from her was life She was shaking Waiting to see if her daughter would be waking From that day what I remember best The doctor came in depressed He said Lilly did die I started to cry… I knew I would never be to tell her I love her again or say goodbye