Best Caught Me Off Guard Poems
My world changed so fast
that it caught me off guard.
I never thought I would see,
the hate and pervasive bigotry
that exists in the world today.
And then, the internet came along
and shrunk the world to fit in your phone;
opening doors that were once closed.
But, at the same time
supplied every kook, grifter, charlatan, and conspirator
festering on the fringes of society, a bully pulpit;
to cater to a select audience of like-minded trolls.
Corruption, fear-mongering, peddling lies
and alternative truths,
are entrenched in our government,
entertainment, and news.
World War Three, which was once unthinkable,
is gaining favorability with the masses;
fueled by cultist propaganda and doomsday bravado
that spreads like a virus on social media platforms.
We are polluting the land, poisoning the oceans,
and brainwashing the minds of our youth;
without any regard for the truth.
I remember a time when people didn't lock their doors:
neighbors greeted one another with smiles and waves.
But today, I fear that we've been caught in the worldwide web
of a technological spider's electronic threads,
and sooner or later, we will be eaten.
When asked "Where is it your from?"
It caught me off guard, I stop to think
Of a beat up record whose song
When sung makes your heart sink
I have been a fool again I see
sad i don't belong anywhere
Thinking here I shouldn't be
doesn't matter if life is unfair
"Wow I haven't learned a thing"
Emotionless sharply I inhale
chest feels so tight it stings
again I am just an epic fail
To not stay long is that wrong
avoiding feelings I now feel
Now I have got to stay strong
The pain I must try to conceal
"Nowhere" I say avoiding your stare
"Never stayed long in any place!"
Stating truthful I couldnt dare
After a dream I'll not catch but
always chase
The depth of our love has an infinite range,
as I reminisce on the day that we met.
I will always remember your deepest voice,
a mellifluous sound I will never forget.
You caught me off guard, while working my flight.
In a three piece suit, a tall Adonis you were,
as you bowed your head to enter the door,
I had no idea what next would occur.
When I served you white wine, I asked if you sing.
You smiled and replied “only in the shower”.
It was late at night, and the flight was long. . .
You came to the bar and we spoke for an hour.
You shared with me your love of surfing the waves,
and working at the shipyard at Pearl Harbor.
We both felt the chemistry of love’s sparks fly,
and I could barely contain my joyful ardor.
The drone of the engines made it hard to hear
so we spoke with a nearness that captured delight.
Your scent took my breath in a heavenly way,
and we hated to see the end of our flight.
You took my hotel number and promised to call.
You kept that promise when home you returned.
Soon our whirlwind romance began to aspire.
In my heart, in my thoughts, that flame always burned.
It was not long until this isle I called home,
and I have never regretted a moment with you.
Life with you quite a challenge, but oh. . . so divine.
You still make sparks fly in sweet things that you do!
8-28-16
*Note: We have been married for 34 years now
* Many years now since this very talented, very HUMAN guy left us … those holes never fill, and he is sorely missed. (This is a form I invented called “Tredicum Plus”. *
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my brother ...
you caught me off guard -
of all those who struggle like we do
in darkness, with the
hideous demons that lurk
I was sure the victory was yours -
that the knight was astride
his steed, steadied -
armor shining bright in the sun
sword and shield, sharp and enduring ...
but alas, it seems the
devil wants the final
fiendish word …
long did I look to you
for strength ...
a flicker of light to guide
me through the murk -
the fog of pain and error and
fallibility that so often
gathers for those of us who
feel too deeply -
who see sensitivity as
more of a curse than a gift …
you understood that path quite well -
walked it many times
as I have …
you knew the beasts
that scratch at our ankles -
those shadowy minions that seek
to rake us into hell with every
step we take in redemption's course
but your light shined so bright!
you held it high and
proud for so long that I took
it for granted - depended on it …
and now that light is snuffed
the black is all the
more oppressive - all the
more glaringly heavy and deep ...
… and empty …
now the path
is twisted, obscured ...
and without the welcome of
your glowing spirit
it will henceforth be cluttered with
ambiguity and question -
each further step, taken in
hesitation and doubt …
tragedy, pain, sorrow, regret
their names matter not -
they wreak the same horrid havoc
and those ragged, merciless monsters
have claimed you …
aye, the sun will rise a wee bit
colder on the morrow, and life’s flavor
is now tinged with bitterness …
still, you left behind a torch of humble exuberance and vitality
and those of us who know the
treacherous paths of life -
those darkened 'parts unknown' -
will hold it high in your memory
and give the devil all he can handle ...
of your mischievous smile
your twinkling eye
and your fierce, fiery heart …
Rest In Peace, Tony.
Thought I'd experienced love, and all the different shades,
Then you came along, and we found another way.
You caught me off guard, I didn't see it coming,
Did you?....
Sometimes I wonder if you hoped for all this,
Or if you got caught in your own trap?
Did you really think, you'd fall in love this way?
Or were you already?....
When we shared those special moments,
And you opened your heart to me.
Thats when you grabbed my soul,
Held me captivated...
You own this heart of mine,
Your name's engraved inside.
I'll carry you with me forever,
You know that don't you?...
Yesterday I was on such a high
Today I just want to sit and cry
Why did I say that cutting word?
Forgive me please I’m just a bird
Sometimes we misinterpret what’s been said
We get it wrong it’s all in our head
Saying sorry is really really hard
What was said caught me off guard
You’ve been really good to me
Helping to set my spirit free
Good times I hope we can still share
I write these words because I care
Jan Allison
7th May 2014
Somewhere you are sitting
Unaware of how I feel
Then again maybe you know
How I wish that you'd reveal
Every now and then
I like to close my eyes
Pretend that you're with me
The dreams I fantasize
Honestly I wish you knew
The things inside my heart
Everytime I think of you
I wish we weren't apart
Never did I think
That I would fall for you so hard
Can't control the way I feel
It all caught me off guard!
Pat my back for a while
Even your smile lifts my world
My troubles, they all fly away
Fly in whites in the blue sky
The paddy field is busy
The wind just love to slap my face
That is all I can say
It was a long time ago
You are on my bed
Lying alone, but of course, with clothes on
Started to sing along with the voices on the radio
Ah, it's still morning
Your shy demeanor caught me off guard
Sometimes wild, sometimes sensitive
You should know
I'm not talking about what you're thinking
Your warmth has reached me
It feels so unreal
But it did happen
A long time ago
I always knew that love would come find me someday
But never did I know that it would be you who was headed my way
You caught me off guard and took me by surprise
But you simply captivated me, the same way you do when I look into your eyes
It's true that every good and perfect gift is from above
You were presented to me as a beautifully packaged gift full of humour, talent, intelligence, beauty and love
"It isn't finding the perfect person but learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
We all have our flaws but when I view you through my eyes, perfection is all I see
From when you laugh to when you're upset, I still love the little things you do
Especially hearing you laugh and seeing your nose wrinkle the same way mine does too
Coming into this relationship has been hard at times but we've made it through
I know as long as we're on this journey together, there's nothing that we can't do.
Sometimes I wonder if what we have is too good to be true
Too scared to get my heart broken and scared of the thought of losing you
But in the end, I trust in the author and perfecta of what I believe
Because what we ask for in Him, we in return shall receive
"Where your treasure is, your heart will be also" is how the saying goes
I may not know what tomorrow may bring, for God is the only one who knows
The one thing I do know is that you are my one and only
A treasure in my heart that I want to devote my whole life to completely
I know I don't need to prove my feelings to know they're true
Because what I've known in my past, doesn't come close to the experience I've shared with you
I've had the experience of being in relationships before
However, this is the first time I've been truly happy... I couldn't ask for anything more
It's an honour to know that I am yours, as you are mine
And I trust God bought us together in His beautiful time
For now, I'll be waiting patiently for that day when we'll be together
That precious moment in time when I'll say, "it's you that I want to be with forever"
God makes everything beautiful, precious and new
Just as beautiful and precious as the day will be….. when I look into your eyes and say, "I Do"
Your black hair shimmered
I knew not the reason
I watched it every little season
My heart and head simmered
Your shapely body twinkled
As if never would it be wrinkled
Yet it had a little lesion
Which never ever rankled
You were my heart`s queen
Those organs of sight
Just witty and bright
They caught me off guard
An angel is all l had seen
I zoomed heavenward!
I went down to the Caribbean Sea,
An island paradise ahead of me.
I meant to go for just another lay,
So I went and got myself smashed that day.
I saw he standing there, with coal black eyes,
And long dark hair, that didn’t disguise,
The curves she had, caught me off guard
She was the finest thing down in that bar.
As I drew up near, my ride began
I should’ve feared that Creole woman.
What was in store, I did not know.
She waved me one, so I had to go.
She gave me love, oh yes, so much,
A helpless fool at her tender touch.
A night gone by, the best I ever had,
The kind of lover who drove men mad.
As morning came, I thanked sweet God,
But she was gone, and I was robbed.
I stumbled out onto the sand
I cursed her name, Creole woman.
My passport she left, that one small gift,
The cops said she’d given the many the shift.
The tropical waves lost their attraction,
I hopped a plane, got back to Jackson.
It started soon, the identity thieving.
Had to fight every step, the stress unceasing.
A lesson learned, but which still does vex,
The things that woman can do with sex.
Next time I vacation in Japan,
Far as I can get from Creole woman.
You thought you had a hold on me?
You thought right, you did have a hold on me
You thought letting you go would break me?
You thought right, it did break me
You made me miserable
It was always about you, you self-centred selfish son of a…..!
My thoughts always occupied by your beauty
Mission in my life was to satisfy your needs
Your caring for me was camouflage
You made me lose my balance
Caught me off guard
Longed for your attention
I blame my naïve little self
How blinded I was from your abuse
Your ability to speak harsh words to me and not flinch?
Not listening to me and always wanting something from me?
Change has emanated
I embrace difference, I am different
My step conveys swag uncontrollable
Confidence oozing out of my pores
Beauty beholding me with no regrets
I hold my head up high
Take a bow
Witness the inauguration of a Queen
Powerful, strong and not afraid to exercise her authority
I can feel it
I am forgetting you
You unapologetic, doleful, egotistical, self-aggrandizer, inoperable, ugly son of a ……!
Forget you man
Oh by the way, I bet your mama has a loud bark!
Captured by your charm
Lost in your gaze
Scared of no harm
Yet shaking at the feel of your warmth
Begging time to stand still
Asking the stars to capture this memory eternally
Yes, I was caught
Lost in love's web
The night echoed our secrets
The day read up our history
Every one told our love story
No one tried to come to my rescue
For the reports clearly painted the picture
Yes, I was caught,
But this time I was caught
Begging to remain a captive in love's web.
Skin pale white,
her hospital gown,
a moth filled wedding dress.
straps and shackles tie her down
like a corset;
more buckles and ties than Harry Houdini.
she frantically turns
toward the door
like a two year old
throwing a temper tantrum,
her hands wrapped around her body,
hugging her own hips.
Fingernails cut down to the cuticle
just in case she had any ideas.
Dirty blonde hair becoming static
as if she rubbed a balloon on her scalp
a head of tranquility, restless hair from sex.
Panting,
like a winded dog chasing its ball,
Her lips caught me off guard,
They were blue, not like
the cold midnight sky,
but a body
bound for hypothermia
longing for freedom from restraint.
That is my psychological diagnosis
you caught me off guard
i laugh out loud at your joke
trying not to pee