let me love you again
in love with you in every way
in love with you in every way again
things you are
giving up
giving you up
i need to give you up, but i know not yet how
why can't i view you as a friend
why can’t i get over it
it’s been so long
addiction
my strange addiction
my favorite man
i hate you
i am selfish
i know you didn’t do this on purpose, but it has always felt like
you did.
what you did.
maybe you did it on purpose, and i am gaslighting myself
was that wishful thinking
do i wish for vengeance
why have you forsaken me
where did you go
i miss you
i miss you more than you will ever know
forbidden fruit
goodbye
i wish you knew
i wish i had kept you blocked
i cut myself on the same rusty knife as last time
now i want to be dead
it does not feel well
it does not feel well with my soul
and wipe your civilized feet on the lawn
scorched by the fire of the hours
let the happy afternoons at the shopping center
rest on the old shelf balanced on the bricks
carefully get out of the loaded car
with the bags of old clothes
that you would donate after the flood
if you had the heart you never had
send a hug to picturesque uncle
who fought with the whole family
because of politics
blow away the ash of good and bad dreams
the sparks of sad and happy thoughts
and the summary of failed loves
push aside the fridays of the earth
the frustrated encounters
the wishes piled up in the attic of the mind
and the disappointments
cataloged and buried for years
because today you can suddenly say goodbye
to a life of thank you, excuse me and please
to enter less heavy and not so triumphant
in the reality of a universe that dematerializes
and in which your dust means absolutely nothing
Virus now in decline
Vacations back on line
Vectis arms open wide
Vessels each hour to Ryde
Visitors so oft held
Valhalla they have dwelled
Valediction withheld
[Vectis: the old Roman name for The Isle
Of Wight, it is still in common use today.
Valediction: an act, gesture or words of farewell]
5 May 2021
Contest: Pleiades V
Sponsor: Kim Merryman
Muted swans in silent waters
watch as swallows spiral upwards
far away into the distance.
Vibrant flowers lose their beauty,
Fading, wilting, meekly dying
as the summer's sad surrender
honours autumn's golden reign.
07.09.19
Farewell, Summer Poetry Contest : sponsored by Nette Onclaud
Agent of darkness
King,
Of principalities and powers
You,
Who knows no love
But,
Hate, scorn and wickedness
You,
Who sow thorns at night
And,
Reaps prickles in darkness
You; you,
Who robs Peter
To pay Paul
You,
Who suck blood
Instead,
Of giving life
You,
Who can only
Ravage the body
But,
Not the soul
You,
Who can only bark
But cannot bite
You,
Who roam around
Looking for who to devour
You,
Who scatters and muddles
Instead,
Of gathering and molding
You; you,
Who sow deceit and fear
In the hearts of men
Instead,
Of love and kindness
You,
Whose only agenda
Is,
To cause pain,
Sorrow and suffering
To God's children and kingdom
You,
Who disappears
When,
Light appears
You; you,
Who,
Christ shamed and disgraced
On the cross of Calvary
YOU,
Whom,
We laid a wreath
On his grave
More than two thousand years ago
Rest in hades
LUCIFER!
Valediction to..
Yet again nature sheds rain,
thunder and lightening strikes as they scream in pain,
the bell tolls the loss of tranquility,
mankind mourns the loss of humanity,
oceans deprived of water,leaves fallen from tree,
infinite hollow soul moves,gloominess hangs in the world are now set free,
dissimilar morning begin with mourning,
morally bankruptcy about to begin,
ethics and emotions already faded,
ones rich in prosperity but spiritually degraded,
where materialism,corruption,prejudice and ignorance at its peak,
the light has fallen asleep,
dead! abstract is no more,
she is alive! love is no more,
once her angel heart filled with love for me,
but now its demon heart has no love left for me,
funeral march on the death of my love begins!
yet again nature sheds rain,
in a vision I saw multiplicity of coffins,
humanity,ethics,wisedom,happiness lying in the wooden box,emotionless scream out in pain
funeral mass approached graveyard and sadness diffused!
earth sings the eternal melancholy song,where remaining happiness disguised,
human having eyes but blind,
a valediction to mankind,a valediction to mankind.
With the sparkle experience
Of the warm abdomen,
I was napping in the gentle, silky womb.
All forced me to turn
The nap into the sleep
For ever,
Not in the uterus,
But in the world of
Aborted infants.
At the movement
When I was separated from you
I clutched you with
A silent sob.
Oh mother
Why don't you give me
An occasion to receive
Your cool kisses?
Oh father
Why don't you allow me
To know the world
By sitting in your lap?
Why don't you permit me
To open my eyes
At least for once
To see you.
Whether my presence was
A burden for you-
Dad, mom
Or my life was
An annoyance for you.
Nevertheless,
I need not to be
Severed from you………
Quite some time has passed since then..
we used to sit together for hour's,talking endlessly,
"till the yellow sun turned dark"..
and a gracious embrace to mark a goodbye,
i used to walk back home with scent of you in my soul,
and a silent promise "to woke up to radiance of your love next day".
Quite some time has passed since then....
when i waved you a last goodbye,
without the embrace,without the scent of your love..
with a cold heart & a numb mind,i flared up those memories,
and silent cries of promises went unheard...
Quite some time has passed since then..
"your laughter and character are still upon my heart".
I seldom bred a token for
despair
Out of innocence,
meekness, pain or worse
I'd rather wear the sand-
hill, plucking air
Engaging folds of plants
in cold discourse.
I seldom pleased the lure
of brilliant pleas
Nor gave mine ears to
beggar calls and cries
I'd rather cleave to
laughter, ringing breeze
Impress'd in kennel
choirs of rats and flies.
I seldom flew the tales of
tomorrow
As said in gatherings of
public clowns
Exchange all cheerfulness,
in mine, sorrow
I owe nothing to men,
nor homes, nor towns.
I seldom felt the hands of
wealth and fame
I know I lived a life and
lived w'thout shame.