I knew inside myself within flash of time,
there was a place I must get to,
what was this mysterious place that hid between dream and imagination,
sliping into a daze light and warmth as quietness entered my soul,
I left this plane not of my own doing,
it was the doing of the stressfull relentless world,
pushing me twisting me I am here alone wandering,
carrying the weight of lonliness and despair nothing mattered,
as a dead leaf blew past carried by the wind of change,
haunting and mirraculous I felt defeated searching for the exit through this realm,
A opening in the fence did come I passed through,
to my surprise a woman stood alone inside my lonliness,
we both glanced at the exact time all things stoped,
although she had no face I felt her beauty inside myself,
the mirracle had occured as if the gates of heaven had opened,
at last my soul mate was found as I slowly returned to the self concience earth....
Running today I could feel myself losing it.
Losing the pain and troubles I have been endering for the past few weeks.
As I run, feet gladding over the side walk,
I feel everything sliping behind me.
Like dust my troubles and worries,
trace slowly and smoothly off me and into the wind.
The cold air sinking into my skin,
sending uncontrolable shivers though my nerves,
forced to bend.
Breath oddly slow and comforting like the wispering wind on a cold lonely night.
The sun looming over my head as if to aprove of what I am doing.
Coming back moving, my eyes sting with tears,
tears the I keep dear to myself.
Smoothing my face and septing into my skin,
some excape to the side walk leaving my feelings from deep within.
The blissful run is now at its end.
Time after time the pain happens tears drop you feel emty your heart bruns and the
mind wonders why ... You keep askin what did you do waiting to hear someone tell
you where you went wrong ... Time after time you pick yourself up you brush off
yesterday and the drak clouds it left .. Just to face another day thats no diffrent from
the last ... Time after time sadness comes you see yourself falling apart .. you know
you feel you breath who you are but it slowly sliping away ... Time after time your
standing all alone hoping for that chance praying for change but nothin ever comes..
Time repeats and after it repeats there only one way to stop time ..
These demons in life,
they haunt me,
clouding any good,
I could see.
Why do I feel so bad,
about beeing me?
Starting to let go.
Slowly sliping away.
Trying to dissconect,
From the real me.
Such a failure.
Comfort now.
A fimilar place,
So warm and soothing.
I dont deserve
Any kind of relese.
Never knowing peace,
Or just to far removed,
To reconize these feelings.
So I close my eyes,
And drift away,
Darker and darker,
Until I reach that place.
Full of fear, not beeing able to return
My Feelings are betraying me
I try to beileve
In what my mother used to tell me
That everything happens for a reason
But that I cannot beileve
I cannot beileve i was meant to be this sad
That I was meant to feel this pain
That my life was fated to be this way
Everything is sliping through my fingers
Just like sand
Then it flows in the wind
Traveling away from me
Out of my grasp
I will never reach it
Even tough I try
Okaa-sama, gomen nasai,
I cannot beileve anymore
I will miss the way the things you said
Used to explain everything
Even tough they never did
Oh as the night gose on I have come to realize if i tride I could not get to you in
time. cause next time you close your eyes you will say good-bi.
It mite as well be the end of the world.Cause even if I tryed I can not get to you on
time.But as the night grows cold and you feel you are sliping away just rember
my heart is yours and ny soil is there with you. I wish that I could be beside you
holding your hand and easying your pain. you will never know how much i've
cryed or how much it is killing me inside that you are living me behined. I wish
that I could take your place. Would the world be so change if it was me instead of
you.but know matter how much I wish or pray the truth wont change you are living
going up to heaven. no matter how hard I try I wont reach you before you close
your eyes and say good-bi. And now I know i wont get to you before you die.
I dont understand.
I look for answers.
Becoming lost.
Turning to find myself.
The place I am at is vague, the answers vanish.
The person I was follows.
Reaching for anything that will steady me.
Finding nothing.
This nothingness frightens me, taking more of me.
The answers vanish.
Sliping into uncertainty, I reach.
I find nothing.
Still, I reach.
A look far $urface Iland place
I stay where mostly gone both
Shells a part across swimed
Around Natureness Dawn grewed
Some seven Seas of Flowers and dirt
Whence soil fresh sent after Industries
Time wacthing new Years $urface spined
Hurricane peaces telling whats good news
Alot justly foat on my Boat anear
Home washly away pastess Day's
Building mine Outside this walk
Finish yes Mam; no Sir, happy after
Done dee's about picture Daddy
I'am love first Name: and last
I'll promise wished Star later noontide
Like Balloon's going too Heaven sliping
Off thy Finger tips notice trill
Magic fly an Space on my paper
For another sweet poem foever
Read Generation coming aloud say
$urface Baby Girl Me and you mint
Ass sweet candy cotton
Together every peek out or Eye
We see $urface there,,,
Notice:Martinez Roberson