As I close my eyes
Another part of me dies
I listened to your lies
And I tried to disguise
My hate for you
All the things I had to listen to
All the bad things you do
I wish what you said was true
Things stayed the same
And in the end I'm to blame
For letting you play this game
I just wait for sleep to claim
My mind once more
Dream of what life was like
before
You came to my door
And now I am tore
As I look to the future I see
A better life in front of me
I have married two men in my life
And I loved neither
I have loved two men in my life
And I couldn't marry either
The relationship with each
Fleeting though it may have been
Was magical and whimsical
Like sparks floating in the wind
Our souls linked together
In this life and perhaps another
One lives out a life in my dreams
without seeing him for many years
The other still a fresh memory
Provokes many fresh tears
I know they are not mine
To hold or to long for
But deep in my heart a memory
Is protected by a padlocked door
Let go and let love
Is what they always say
Let go and let live
Is the lesson I obey
For these are kindred spirits
Or at least I pray
Just a glimpse of my soul mate
And how he'll be one day
For in all my pain and agony
I have lost myself and others
But my journey is just beginning
Because I know there is another
A year approaches day by day.
I miss you more than I'd dare say.
The first time that I held you close.
Knew it was you I'd love the most.
Time stood still, so long awaited.
Promise the world, nothing traded.
One month, I spent with you each day.
Our life I saw, for this I prayed.
To spend a thousand more with you.
Summer's blossom, "Winter's fondue"
Your happiness, I tried my best.
Regret delays, a simple test.
Two days to go, sweet words they stopped.
A song forgotten, feelings dropped?
Miles in silence, what awaits?
I'd drive it twice to see your face.
A quick hello, no joy is found.
Sinking feelings, no love around.
Bad news delivered, heart does break.
The choice to leave, was yours to make.
A blur of pain is all that's left.
You took my heart, but not a theft.
So empty now, my life does seem.
Feelings you spoke, what does that mean?
I'll never know if yours were true..
But always and ever I will..
Love you..
Enough is just a word to end,
This inner pain that comes over and
agian.
Never releases as though i am not
heard.
These emotions are never
preferred.
As saddness is always so heavy,
Days as streangth becomes weary.
Slumber has seemed to become my
haven.
My tears are always what's been
given.
No confort as there is only the
knowlage,
That all in life hangs upon an edge.
How am I to raise aginst the weight,
Or am I to finally bend to my fate.
Tears could not wash away my pain,
Or the hurt thats carried through
my vains.
Loudly I've shouted "This is enough"
Another day I've cared not to Love.
Let me live life with saddness,
For I dreamt the Joke of Happiness.
Slowly you entered my life
Slowly you made it beautiful
Slowly I took you to be mine
Slowly this life became wonderful
Slowly you made me love you
Slowly it increased with time
Slowly I was all yours
Slowly life became melodious as a rhyme
Slowly from me you got bored
Slowly you lost all interest
Slowly you craved to move on
Slowly I was left in a state of unrest
Slowly you left me
Slowly I became depressed and cold
Slowly I choked down, 'caus
Slowly I caught death in my hold
Alone I cry tears
For the loss
Alone rivers flood my eyes
For I mourn
for what was once here
I lost him to the life of chaos
He chose the game over me
He gave me up and threw away the key
I watched him throw life away
I watched him drive the nails among the deep set veins
I watched the blood fall so heavily and soak so deep
The pain was overwhelming
I no longer see beauty in life
It was taken away the night he left
I gave up
There is no use
Beauty was destroyed
The light of life has faded away.
My life is but a sad country song
day after day of things gone wrong.
Their love, fake, not pure like mine,
No surprise they couldn't walk the line.
Pick my head up just to move on,
Back to lonely from dusk to dawn.
True love is when you both feel the same,
Giving of rings and sharing a name.
Best friends to each other,
Future father and mother.
Forever by each others sides,
Taking life like the ocean tides.
Understanding the feelings of both,
Watering loves roots for growth.
To simply say I love you
With a feeling that is new,
Truly feeling the words spoken
Knowing it's not just a promise to be broken.
Only then will you know,
Being with you is not just for show.
If I was a rich man
I would buy up market friends
Follow all the new trends
Drive the latest Mercedes Benz
Service myself with greed
Consume more than I need
But if I am honest to myself and true
What I would really love to do
Is buy back time
Take a completely different view
You see to me my biggest regret is that I realized to late
The bounty of love set at my plate
As the cancer took took care of that fate
Familiarity breeds contempt is what he always meant
And when he eventually took his breath his life finally spent
It came abundantly clear what familiarity breeds contempt really meant
When you show love to late your left with only crumbs on your plate
For in reality a truly rich man to this will attest
He has very few friends
Drives a bus not a Benz
Rather lived out his life to atone to amend
In the hope come the day the bitter end
Reading his obituary
Those he loved the most loved him back the most
I guess I’m a winner because no confusion I’m losing
With no prized to gain while she did the choosing
To the decision she made that got me confusing
I’m told I’m the best and other choices are down
To take my place I’ll have to drop my crown
But why look for less, when the best is found
What do you want, you don’t have a clue
You want me in your life but not to love you
To make life easier, you say your heart’s through
If a mistake was made, my heart will love you
What’s the point of reviving when I was just kilt
The cow can no longer moo over spilt milk
I’m going to shine on my own and help failures sprout
But why the clock still ticks when the time ran out?
Here without you,
Yet I can still feel you.
Your aroma fills the air,
Your absence I can no longer bear.
Your laughter echos in my mind,
My eyes without your sight are blind.
My life passes day by day,
I sit here and for your return I pray.
There's no life without you,
How to live now I have no clue.
I am only a shell of the person I was,
Without you I have no purpose, no cause.
Your memories invade my dreams,
I wake up at night with sweat and screams.
Screams of anger for your departure,
WIthout you my world has become darker.
Be with the one that makes you happy
The one that makes you smile
The one that makes you laugh
And each day worth while
Live life to the moment
Try hard to make it last
Because life is short
It goes by fast
So when you find love
Don't let it slip away
Hold it forever
And cherish it each day
As long as you are happy
That is what you should do
Love that someone and let them know
Before your life is through
Oh no, befallen the night on me
that might please people,
let all my days for the rest of eternity be dark
Knights riding to the rescue,
trample my life to dust
cloud cover me in Gray,
take my life crush it
My love, my life belongs no more
to this forsaken land.
This atrocity of earth,
for without you
I am nothing, space, empty....
... a shell, ... Broken!!
Stars place your daggers in my soul
that has not matters not.
I was so blinded by rage
the only one thing I cared about was you
now,... Now you're gone,
so have my days, with out end.
Night has fallen on me
stars pierce my body
Sanity,... Has driven me insane.
death comes to claim me,
slow ........so slow......
Save Me Love me again
Forever
Amen
(c) Glen Harris
Here we stand on both sides of a one way street.
Open arms and a shedded soul yet my heart continues to beat.
Memories of that joy seem to haunt me in every inch of her smile laid deceit.
How can I why would I to myself admit defeat.
To this love..failing trust, fading fast like vapour that raised my feet.
To disapear like an echo to the sound of all the things she used to need.
I am shedding all I used to knw to a life as empty and lifeless as this blood I bleed.
Drop for drop each draining the life out of me.
Standing there as we drift further and further from our own eternaty.
Nw what was once whole screams of all that is incomplete.
And even as we.... we, stand firmly upon this ground we are falling deeper into the whole of sorrow and infertility.
Love me once more as you walk away to that infinate obscurity.
Thoughts of regret, force there way into my mind,
memories ill never forget, take me back into time.
The times we shared, both good and the bad,
about them you never cared, and you never had.
You ripped my heart out, and tossed it away,
but its you who will be without, its you who will pay.
In time you will learn, the way life can be,
but I have no concern, do to the way you treated me.
Your selfish ways, your unthoughtful acts,
put up with it for many of days, never again will I have you back.
The pains still there, will be till I Die,
but I no longer care, I no longer cry.
Im over you now, my love for you is gone,
my life has turned around, but the pain lingers on.
Some where between the men and the mouse
I thought we had figured all this out
Maybe I could have saved myself from this pain
But maybe again I would have done it all the same
Somehow I lost you over that hill
While your off living I had to foot the bill
Waiting around just to hear a thing from you
Your living life and acting a the fool
Where it does it end? When do I close off my heart
Living life together while you push me in the dark
I had to ask just to hear word you say
I think it's time for us to call it a day
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