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It started when I was a child
I was a kid with a gift
That no one understood or recognized
Instead of loved I was picked on and ostracized
However I blocked it all out
But little by Little its all coming back
Like layers of an onion
That held me tightly wrapped
Bits and pieces of my memory
That were hidden away in code
Deep within my mind a door was closed
I?ve reached in to remember because my life is now in jeopardy
All the emotional and sexual abuse that I closed off to survive
Has been staring at me sabotaging my life
This life is not what I have dreamed and I am dying inside
And if I don?t face the truth of what was done to me
Then I will surely become the monster that I despise
And as the tears bellow up
I again take another breath
Like soot in a fireplace and a hair ball in a cat
I cough up the toxic memories
As images flash through my mind
With my face in the toilet I begin to cry
My body begins to stiffen as nausea rises to the top
I then begin to wail from deep in my chest
It?s a hideous cry that sends chills down my spine
As I grit my teeth and hang on for dear life
A thought runs through my mind why.. why.. why.. why.
I?m tired of the black outs
I?m tired of the fear
I?m tired of the loneliness that have held me prisoner here
I?m tired of the pain and suffering that has come in my parents name
I?m tired of all the trauma and I?m tired of all the drama
I?m tired of the neglect that?s been perpetrated on my soul
Keep your hands off of me, keep your beliefs away from me
From all the mental abuse and all the negative remarks
And you still don?t see how you?ve damaged my sensitive heart
I?m tired of hearing all the denial
I?m tired of hearing how there is nothing wrong with you
I?m tired of you blaming everyone else but you
I?m tired of hearing how you hate this and you hate that
I?ve tried for years to heal this wound
But it seems to have spread to my nephew too
I don?t know what else to do
I even ruined my only serious relationship to get revenge
In my mind I justified their crime
From all the bad advice and all the dysfunctional decisions
And I thought I was reversing everything
When I vowed never to get married and have kids
But that sabotaging act has done me more damage
My great escape has taken me captive the pleasure is lost replaced with regret
Lately my ego has been over active no small measure since i haven't lost it all yet
The risk is great the reward much better lately i tire and i don't feel i can endure
i tell my self your so damn clever Iam also a liar i only need just one cure
the back and forth the same situations same old tale it was only just a taste
the shame and all the accusations how Ive tried to fail and my existence is a waste
i understand the concept i know to play the game but presently I'm caught in the motion
preparing for the onset of the old familiar pain that unwanted torrent of emotion
If i succeed to come back down the weight lessens but the excuses are right at hand
always push my self around an ego bully sessions the things my darker side can demand
i see the obvious outcome i don't blink an eye i go until the motors seized
try to do a little less but then i wonder why at least this way one half of me is pleased
watch the world around me from distance place close at hand buried deep inside
once again it found me the beast is real persistent and he never gives to pride
my body a prison cell locking out the rain and light so it can devour the hole that's rotting
make the first incision a second wrapped in delight no other me no constant plotting
in the end i know it will be for not haven't learned lessons that were taught I'm the only
person that i fought
i want to make it right gain a little ground and some insight save a little strength for the last
round of the fight
put it all aside seek out those who in which i could confide what could the other me do when
it can no longer provide
starve out the traitor self serving dog offers no favor a greedy needy voice that keeps me
awake my on self hater
this time i need to recover my mind is cracking and my sickly body always has the aches
don't want to suffer i know I'm found still lacking but i want to change for my own sake
when i leave behind this part of me instantly the years of hurt will just up and go away
it isn't so kind he will always be there whispers constantly put away color for the endless gray
Our heart and soul has left us
His spirit has been freed
He’s up above in heaven
Watching as we need
For our pain to diminish
For our tears to end
For our emptiness to disappear
From the loss of our best friend
The house is full of silence
This reminds us that he’s gone
My heart it was broken
The moment he moved on
I told him that I loved him
I looked into his eyes
I told him how I’d miss him
But, we had to say our goodbyes
I try to tell myself I did right
By having him pass on
However, now my heart is aching
I wish he wasn’t gone
I want to hug and kiss him
Go with him for a walk
Have him sit and listen
As I sit and talk
To me he was my child
Whom I cherished with all my heart
Now, he isn’t with us
This is tearing me apart
He was slowly dying
It killed me to see him this way
I prayed for God to save him
I wished for him to stay
How could I let him suffer?
When he means the world to me
I hope I did the right thing
When I set him free
Skrapper please forgive me
For the things I never did
Know I always loved you
As if, you were my kid
The decision was a hard one
I tried to think about what was best
I never wanted to lose you
To have you laid to rest
You didn’t wish to leave us
You’d never want to go
You loved us unconditionally
These things I do know
Nevertheless, do you know I’m sorry?
For all the things I should have done
I should have loved you better
You should have been number one
I miss your constant affection
How you followed me around
We were one together
By our love we are bound
You made me feel happiness
You took away my pain
You filled a void inside me
You made me feel sane
I could never thank you enough
For all you’ve done for me
You took me from my darkness
Giving me light so, I could see
You comforted me in hard times
Played with me through the good
Stayed by my side no matter what
You did for me what you could
Now, you’re not here with me
I am empty inside
My heart it was shattered
The day that you died
Form:
I am floating, I don't know who you are
But the light is so warm
And you stand at a distance
Surprised to see a stranger
Holding a hand out for you
You were a shadow in the summer
When the sun was baring down on me
I heard you singing in the air
With steam in your lungs
The world was bright when we first met
But we're hooked up to machines now
That keep us acting sane
And as I look upon you I loose my will to live
Cause all that keeps you breathing is that thing they put you in
And all that keeps me thinking are the drugs under my skin
They have me up on morphine
Your sister wants to pull the plug
My mama wont stop crying 'cause I'm quite on the drugs
You move once and a while
But it's just not enough
I used to feel and you use to be here
But now we're just ghosts surrounded by friends
They I say I'm getting better
I'm just faking to get by because maybe if I act like I used to
Maybe they'll let us die
But we're hooked up to machines now
That keep us acting sane
And as I look upon you I loose my will to live
Cause all that keeps you breathing is that thing they put you in
And all that keeps me thinking are the drugs under my skin
You used to sing about about sunshine and roses
And I used to listen and pretend you were good
And the sun use to rise and the sun used to set
Now everything's gray because you left my world
I can't even scream any more
We had it all then we threw it away on a dream
And I'm floating and you've flown away
Now we are strangers and your not really here
I can't take it any more!
I can't loose you any more!
We're hooked up to machines now
That wont leave us at peace
And as you look upon me you will loose your will to live
Cause all that keeps you breathing is that thing they put you in
And all that keeps me thinking are the drugs under my skin
Form:
There was a cool breeze in the air
At this location I sat and silently stared
My spouse was here by my side
Here we were visiting the place-
where I was once dressed as the bride
The flowers laid by the pond so cheery
While we would think of a timeless theory
The memory brought us back to an ageless treasure
While we walked here at our leisure
The tips of the trees brushed back with a degree
A storm was brewing it was easy to see
Then out of the corner of our eyes-
came a man all dressed up with pride
He was wearing his fishing gear
And with his personality so carefree as he appeared
We spoke to him of what if any fish he had caught
And smiled and shared his stories that he had sought
He then asked my husband if he wanted to learn how to fly fish
We turned toward him and said we’d return if you wish
We came back to him and helped him with his rod
His eyes looked so happy his soul seem to nod
He talked up storm and I stood and listened with patience
Although with his slow moves was wearing quietly on my impatience
Then the skies turned to angry steel
I knew in a moment a thunderstorm would wheel
A crack of thunder rattled overhead
And sent me a message get in the car or dread
The rain came down at sideways angle
Soon the fisherman’s lines would tangle
My husband came up running to the car
The storm took over it was so bizarre
My husband told me he was a dieing man
There I was with my new book in my hand
He told me Arthur had a stroke
He had Alzheimer disease and was dieing of cancer
Then my heart just spoke
I gave him my new book and signed my name
I told him to read it to his wife if that’s all the same
He turned and smiled,
He had the spirit of a young child
(This story was written for Arthur
Who is dieing of cancer and suffers the early stages of Alzheimer disease
May his living years ring out with sprit!)
I HAVE A LITTE SECRET TO TELL BUT WHO I CAN I TRUST, I LOVE TO HATE YOU AND HATE TO LOVE
YOUR LUST. FOR YOU ARE MY ENEMY BUT YET I GIVE YOU MY TRUST. SO PLEASE DON'T TELL MY
SECRET KEEP IT IN FROM DAWN TO DUST!
I HAVE A LITTLE SECRET BUT IT'S FOR ME AND MINE, I WILL TELL YOU THIS SECRET JUST WAIT FOR
THE TIME.
BECAUSE OF THIS LITTLE SECRET I DON'T KNOW IF WE CAN BE, BECAUSE I'M AFRAID OF HOW YOU
WOULD LOOK AT ME. FOR THE THINGS I'VE DONE; YOU JUST MIGHT SET ME FREE, THAT'S WHY THIS
SECRET MUST REMAIN DEEP INSIDE OF ME!
I HAVE A LITTLE SECRET AND I NEED TO LET GO, BUT THIS LITTLE SECRET PUTS ON A HELL OF A
SHOW. WHEN YOUR NOT AROUND AND THE THINGS THAT YOU'LL NEVER KNOW, BECAUSE OF THIS LITTLE
SECRET, DO I LOVE YOU I JUST DON'T KNOW! NOW I'M BACK TO MY LITTLE SECRET SHOULD I LET IT GO?
I HAVE THIS LITTLE SECRET THAT'S KILLING MY HEART, BECAUSE OF MY SECRET WE MIGHT DEPART;
AND KNOWING THAT IT JUST HURTS MY HEART. I'M SORRY THAT I'M DRIFTING AWAY AND KEEPING YOU
IN THE DARK. BUT ME WITHOUT YOU WOULD JUST TARE ME APART. THAT IS WHY THIS SECRET IS A
BURDEN ON MY HEART!
I HAVE THIS LITTLE SECRET THAT I NEED TO TELL, BUT IF I SAY MY SECRET WOULD YOU TELL ME
FAREWELL? BECAUSE OF THIS LITTLE SECRET MY LIFE A LIVING HELL, BUT I HAVE THIS LITTLE
SECRET AND NO ONE TO TELL. BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HEAR GOODBYE OR FAREWELL.
THIS SECRET OF MINE I WISH I COULD TELL TO YOU, BUT WHAT IF YOU HAD YOUR OWN LITTLE SECRET
TO; WHAT WOULD YOU DO? WOULD YOU TELL YOUR MATE THE ENTIRE TRUTH, OR WOULD YOU SAY THAT'S
SOMETHING I JUST CAN'T DO? BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT THAT HELL TO BROUGHT BACK TO YOU, THE
FACT THAT IT'S OVER AND YOU TWO ARE THROUGH. SO WHY CREATE A SECRET THAT WILL DESTROY THE
THINGS THAT MEAN THE MOST TO YOU?
MY LITTLE SECRET BY: CLARENCE B. BOWSER JR. THE III
Everything we are told as a child is true, me for example.
Trash
Soulless
Everything they told me is true
Why should you think any different
All my life has been nothing but pain and I honestly think I deserved it
I deserved the pain when I was young is a constant reminder that I will always be nothing
I will only be trash
Because who could love something that is only a bringer of pain
I only give what I was always given as a child
The whipping
The beating
I had it coming
I could have stopped it but what was the point
Why stop what you brought upon yourself
I will always be nothing more then trash
I will always be reminded of it
I can never do anything right when I was young
And it has not changed
I will go to Hell
But honestly what is Hell but something of the mind
Something we trick ourselves into thinking is bad
If Hell is of the mind
I go there every time I close my eye
And there is no saving me from a pain that is written down in stone
I will die with no love for no one can love the soulless.
I often sit in wonder,
I know my life is good now, I have my wife and maybe someday children
But one day they will leave me because they will see me for what I am
Trash
They will put me on the curb like everyone else
Or be like those who cant
And just pretend to love me
Just because they have pity for me.
I know I cant become anything in this world
I may go to school or work at a job but its so I can feel like im doing something
But I know it will be for nothing
Because how can nothing have something?
You may read this and criticize me,
He is strange
He is weird.
I am who I am because of what happen.
Until you understand that, I don’t need you pity.
I don’t need people to remind me I’m trash.
I already know.
Either you come to your senses or theyll leave you in the cold.......
..I felt as though if i never knew him they would still be frends...If i was never in this
world,, if that abilical cord was tighter around my neck ,,they would still be
frends.....,they ..I did it 2 myself he didnt do anything..but its not about me now.....
They are going to leave you....We can find our own way...
He loved me and because of what happend i left him...heartbroken and alone...i cry
every day for him...but ITS ALL MY FAULT... now im practically kicked out of
school...leaving who truely loves me behind....and wrecking frendships between
best frends..ITSS ALL MY FAULT! i want to give back..its church 2marow and im
going...or planned to...
...Come on before they find us and kill us..we have to escape this disturbed
world...to something better..Take the gun.Its only two bullets.
He said he loved me...i thought it was a teenage dream but now i know its
real...this is real,, i just want the chance to tell him i love him one more time....one
more....touch....but its over,, ALL OVER! I left him! is that all you want to know..okay
i left him!!! heart broken and practicall dead...and ill be there with him.....
He will know why i did this!!!! POWW!!! !!!POW!!!!
(THIS IS OFFICER ROBERT. WE HAVE A CRIMe scene two dead, both gunshot
wounds to the head.. I need backup)
**Dedicated to all the happy people**
stand right here in front of me
and tell me that you love me
then follow with you respect me
then follow with you TRUST ME
cause right now it's gone from bad to worse
your shovin me in this hurse
like a game?
I'm just hurt.
it's like your overprotective but at the same time it's worthless
you can't run my life,
but you can sure as hell try
and come close to it.
hate to break it to ya
but im a grown girl,
a grown adult
you have to stop this twirl
that is circling like a merry-go-round!
i can't be sound,
can't be tame
it's no longer a game!
you once said you wanted to have a close relationship,
well guess what,
you're pushing me out,
without even thinking,
in the heat of a moment
and
I'll be gone before you know it
gone before you realize;
that once when we could talk,
once when it wasn't opinionated,
once when you were sincere instead of tuning my heart out
is about to be forgotten,
down a sewage drain,
out the back-door.
Your controlling ways have done nothing but tore
the lining to my emotions,
its ripped, ripped away
and the only way to protect beneath that lining
is to get the hell out.
save my soul before you try to take over it all
ruining the experiences I WANT to have,
you don't get it
you don't want to
and after all of this
even if i surrender over my happiness
it wont be enough,
there will be more-
and with more there will be higher expectations
and lower for others
it's like I have to impress the queen
when all i want back
is you.
2 Years
It’s been two years now daddy
Since you left me here alone
I still lie awake and wonder
If you’ll ever come back home
Then I remember that you can’t make it
For different reasons than I wish
The next time I see you dear father
Will be when I come home to you
I still miss you more than ever
I never thought I’d make it this long
Without you guiding me and encouraging me
With everything I do
You have never judged me for anything
No matter what I have done
You have always been my hero dad
For that I regret never saying
I am thankful for the time we had
But am greedy for the time we don’t
I will never get over losing you
I will always wonder why
I will always lie awake and cry
And wonder often times why you had to die
I have asked God why he took you
Why didn’t he take me instead?
I always felt like he slipped up
And got the wrong one instead
I know there is a reason
You left me way too early
I do not think I will ever get it though
Nor, will I ever accept it
There are so many things
I don’t understand
When I look at your picture
By my bedroom wall
You give me the answers
And the strength
To withstand it all
I love you daddy, and I miss you every day. We will meet again and you can hold me like
you always did when I was little. Only this time I will not wither out of your arms.
Happy Birthday Dad!
R.I.P. Larry Wagoner 12/19/1956 – 12/19/2006
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