Long Manically Poems

“Come on, let's get introduced to my play mate in a palm.
Linda, these are Joshua’s true other selfs.” 
Lelia emitting a peculiar chuckle.
A comic situation arose where I changed my voice for each of my...

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Depression is like dying
without hope this process will end well,
without remediation
at least not for my closely held ego-identity,
and despair 
this turning inward
creates a cocoon by avoiding outward.

Focal awareness of ego mortality, 
immanent and emanant,
eminent,
turns inward,
returns...

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Every second, every minute, every single thought about you
Wonders of this still could be too good to be true
Fluttering in my heart, palpitations go amiss
I yearn for the touch of your skin, and I constantly...

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BiPolarity
has been largely ignored
polarization,

Linear and stagnant hierarchies
peaking in well-capitalized severance
and sterile self-satiation

Use you
then leave you
win/lose planning
and worldview design
by non-feminists

Uninspired by EarthTribe's co-arising,
Both/And reconsidering
depolarizing
dipolarization

Bruised blue traumatic,
and green grown therapeutic
sides of each red coin's
capitalization

Of Left hemisphere's newer
monotheistic...

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I'm still waiting for my first automated rifling phone call,
Scripted to begin:

Hello Gerald Oliver Dillenbeck!
What would you like to health invest in this wealthy day?

So I could answer with
Compassion, even for telemarketers
of narcissistic death technologies.

I'm...

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The infraction of mayhem stood resilient as it was tried for the many crimes the jurors had, ultimately, blamed on rage.
The reaction went, as expected, and mayhem worried, "Is this what happens when madness is...

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My long-winding EcoTherapist began:

Dialectic Behavioral Therapy sees Stimulus/Response
both forward and backward in time,
to look for thoughts and feeling tipping points
toward more harmonic confluence,
resonant and requisite proportional behaviors
and imaginings
of what may be justly and non-violently discerned
for...

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Hello little girl
He grins 
As he stands in the doorway
Startled she curls away

Please
She begs
Please
Youve been but a memory for so long
Why now 
Why do you breathe down my neck
As soon as my defences fail

He laughs...

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Part Two


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We were best friends. 
We were lovers.
Inexorably linked.
For such a commitment-phobe, I fell in love quickly.  But I didn’t fall, really.
I dove headfirst.
I chose her.  No, she chose me. 
She was always lurking...

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Why? Why me? That's what I want to know,
Cursed into a family where hatred is the way we love,
Mistreatment is the way we disguise our pain, our hatred towards each other and....
misfortune,
Beatings and yelling's, feelings...

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At night 
When she lays down
Body to jaded
Spirit long since faded
But, Her restless mind
Awakens

Telling her 
Who she is
What she will be
The nights that
Will soon follow
How it will end
With a gun in hand

She sees a woman
To...

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Mountain Forests
Driving through the vast forests
Of Central Oregon 
Through the wall of trees
I imagine them talking to me 

The trees are whispering 
Dark satanic rituals 
Voodoo mumble jumble
Evil chanting 

Then they speak
Loud and clear
Welcome humans
To...

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-I have a dilapidate imagination,
-My mental improprieties describe my intense self-incrimination.

-The accused are my thoughts and mind.
-The truly faulted is my behavior, unrefined.
-I am undefined.
-Because my self-interpretations are blind.

-There is no way to explain nor...

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Verbal thoughts of LeftBrain polynomials
follow feelings not not RightBrain polyphonic 
when both respect our interdependent polypaths,

Because harmonic feelings,
unlike thoughts of flight or fight,
are much more fleeting
effluently failing and fading away,
while midway winning and gaining toward
RightBrain...

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I live with an ignominy deep down to the core
My sails were aloft but never brought to shore

With grief & remorse I commence a tale untold
As the inclement storms will only manically unfold

A leader of...

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Too much enlightenment
with not enough empowerment
depresses me to feel isolated
and surrounded by self-impressed fools,
like me
or against me.

Too much empowerment
with not enough enightenment
anticipates
and advocates
and avidly endorses
narcissistic egocentrism
for my individual self
and
manically unrealistic 
anthrosupremacist
Other Otherers

Super Patriarchal-Capitalist powers
against Earth's
and...

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In this room, just you and I
No lucky witnesses. Isolated
I want my punishment, give it to me good
Violate me, desecrate me, make me yours
I'm the byproduct of the covet you created
I need the friction, humiliation
Please...

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Outside of town 
a cluster of circus people 
were clanging stakes into summer's ground.

It was a lively event:
with a sequined lion tamer
heavily muscled trapeze artists
the smell of cheap carnival food
and watered down drinks.
A stuffed Sabre-toothed...

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Me the infant, Translation of Pierre Emmanuel’s L’Enfant moi by T. Wignesan

The infant a stranger to me who grew up poet
You whom he missed even in his sleep
He who had to disinter himself upon waking
Every...

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My inner self shaking, from all life’s abuse
My inner soul breaking, from all the misuse
Holding on dearly, may not create love
If you see real clearly, you will rise above

The shell of me cracked, just like...

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Stoned

A small cube of sugar
Tasting so good as it went down
Nerves tingled and my mind wandered
Dancing wildly to non-exisistant music
Tears flowed down my cheeks
At the same time I laughed manically
I cried and laughed at nothing
The...

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Don't let them see us
tremble! – it is what
they want.  Don't let
them drink our tears of
sorrow...it will prompt
them to create more  
heartbreak tomorrow. let 
them hear, loud and clear,
of our definitive resolve –...

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Cherries pale yellow tinged with red
Colorful umbrella, mercurial spread
Mellowing veil hovers overhead
Hand staid until dark color, pungent odor wed
Nature's rhythms from youth nurtured in my head
In fowl, tell tale signs providentially inbred
Knowing beak is quicker...

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I felt the symptoms starting
There was nothing I could do
Other than up my dosage some
Instead of ingesting one, taking two

That didn’t seem to matter
I felt the rage beginning to mount
The irritating aura surrounding me
My control...

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