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I see…
red splotches on her night gown
still oozing down her face
“I fell again.”
She looks at us
with that same wobbly smile
“I’m Ok! Don’t worry. I’m OK!”
I can’t see
a clear liquid oozes down my face
I see…
Mama is dazed
clutching her face
Couldn’t light the stove fast enough
An explosion
We thought a bomb had hit the kitchen
War time years
Everyone running around
Mayhem
Mama burned her face
“I’m Ok…I’m fine.”
She tries to smile
I scream
I can’t see clearly
watery haze of tears
covers everything
along with the smoke
I see…
Mama gasping for breath
Mama going red in the face
“Mom, are you ok?”
Another coughing fit
Can’t get the food to go down
I pat her on the back
I pray…
Will this be it?
Will she choke this time?
Muscles that don't work
I see
I see
I cry
I scream
Raspy voice
Tears streaming down her face
I’m…Ok…..I'm OK now."
That lying smile
Her hand goes up
I can’t see
Double tear vision
Life is unclear
I hear
I hear
“You’re afraid I’m going to die, aren't you?”
I see
Kind brown eyes
Looking into mine
They are filling up
the wobbly smile is gone
she lets her tears speak
Oh….to talk to talk about it
Release
What can I say?
What can she say?
We feel
We feel
She crushes my body to hers
Neither of us can see
Blinded by tears
I see
Clouded eyes
She’s in a place I can’t reach
I shake
I shake
“Mama, can you hear me?”
She tries
I cry
I scream
ANGRY
I SCREAM
“Mama, listen to me!”
“GOD?
God…HEAL HER!!!
HEAL HER!
NOW!
A miracle
For ME!"
I beg
I plead
I demand
“Mama, do you believe?
Jesus can heal you!
Do you believe?”
“Yes,” a whisper
Almost inaudible
I pray
I can't see
Eyes of mustard seed faith
Shut tight
“Forgive our sins!
In the name of Jesus
Be healed, Mama!”
Eye lids fluttering open
I see
I see
Mama is still on the wheel chair
She’s bound…not free
I don’t see anymore
My head drops to my knees
I get dizzy
I drop things
In the shower
I fall
Cracked ribs
I cry
I scream
Alone
I hear
I hear
“You have MS TOO!
It has come for YOU!”
I can’t see
Shower water mixes with tears
“God?!
GOD?
Do you SEE?
DO you HEAR?
DO you FEEL?
GOD?
I’m here!
I’m….here!
No wobbly smile
No one to be strong for
I'm not alright!
See me!
SEE....ME!"
Eileen Manassian
In dedication to her MAMA, Angel Manassian!
what made her unworthy of love
was it because she couldn't live up to your ideal
that she lost her appeal?
You lived for the surreal
now too numb to feel
Tell me, what was the deal?
what made her fall from grace
was it sun spots on her face
her flannel instead of lace
her slower than youthful pace?
Was that why she lost
her pedestaled place?
Do you look at her and see
something other than beauty?
Is she flabby instead of firm
militant instead of meek
the lurid side of lovely
tell me!
what could it be?
when did she go
from pleasure treasure
to discarded at leisure
What was the measure
of your detestable displeasure?
let's me be clear:
"love is in the eye of the beholder"
Here's a tap on your shoulder
instead of a fist in your face
I won't add to the disgrace
yet your problem prevails
it's in the details:
you're beholder beholden
to your own foolish fantasy
of what your woman should be
what you can't see
is just what makes others all agree:
SHE'S A Bountiful BEAUTY!
Her body and soul
every part of the whole
exquisitely enhanced
by the years and by chance
she deserves desire's delirious dotage
not apathetic apathy
Can't you see?
maybe....
maybe you are the one
not deserving to decree
her worth, her esteem
she's gone now
go dream
scream
try to serve up a scheme
to love her up to extreme
She won't fall again!
that is true!
You see, dear
The problem, the problem
is
YOU!
Eileen Manassian
She wondered if she deserved it
That slap on the face
Had she stepped out of line
To deserve such a disgrace
She chided herself again
For letting feelings show
She thought that she was safe
But how was she to know
That life was a masquerade
And she always got the blame
Though others played as well
She always lost the game
She wondered if this time
She’d get pushed over the edge
She stood there for some time
Wanted to fly off that ledge
She seemed to be tough and strong
But inside fragile and frail
She had tried to end it once
But it had been to no avail
And now she came full circle
And cursed her foolish heart
She wanted to scream and cry
Of the world she’d have no part
She’d come out of her shell
Only to be abused
Maybe she’d crawl back in
She refused to be used
It was never a good thing
To wear her heart on her sleeve
Now she was left with anger
All that she could do was grieve
The lesson that she had learned
She would carry to her grave
Never let your feelings show
To your reason be a slave
As she wiped away her tears
She felt her weak heart harden
Only God could help her now
She needed grace to pardon
Eileen Manassian Ghali
Let me translate
My love for you
From written.... to spoken....to touched
From syllable sensuality
To physical functionality
From verbal to nonverbal virtual reality
Or better yet
Let me translate them into YOUR language
Yes, I’m a polyglot glutton
craving your satiation
Interjection velocity
Groan and grope physicality
Touch and tease and taste temerity
Chaste words undulating into unchaste carnality
Let me translate
In meanings that you understand
Points of reference that you rant and pant
In my ear…say it in a chant….
Over and over...
I won't let you recant
your forbidden fantasty frolic…
Baby...I’ll grant
Let me translate
Into the language of YOU
I understand
Your savage need laced with greed….
concede....every one...
to me
This wave won't recede
till that passion is freed...
by my deliciously devilish deed...
My pleasure peaks uncontrollably
Rocked in your volatility
Word translation ecstasy
Come together finality
Verbal.......
non-verbal.....
G~R*A~T*F~I*E~D
unity
So, just let me....
Let me translate
My love
For
You
Eileen Manassian
to you who made my friend now want to leave
who with a word have caused her heart to grieve
to you who did not share uplifting post
who let the gossip haunt her like a ghost
to you who did not look inside to see
the truthful heart that longs to simply be
to you who thought to chide and finger point
who made her feel from here she's out of joint
to you who might be pleased she'll say goodbye
who've made her write word tears, her way to cry
I do not know the reasons or your name
Unsure of what has caused this game of shame
The only thing I ask with wistful plea:
Make your amends and keep community
Eileen
Hold back, Little Heart,
Hold back the deluge of love
That threatens to gush out
From your portals
Hold back!
The object of your affection
May only require sprinkles
Tiny showers
Droplets of those emotions
That you keep in store
Hold Back!
The flood of your feelings
That could drench him to the core
Could also drown him
If he is not strong enough to swim
In your boundless sea
Hold back!
Though overwhelmed, Little Heart
Hold Back!
Know that you will not perish
With the weight of the love you bear
Keep it in check
Till one who is worthy
Gently knocks on your door
Who having tasted the droplets,
Comes thirsty for more.
Then let the floodgates go, Little Heart
Don’t hold back...one tiny drop
Set the pent up torrents free
And in that flood of passion
You will find your release!
Eileen Manassian Ghali
Posted on Poetry Soup October 20, 2012
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An Experiement
Don't dare to tell me how to act my age
Or that I'm too much drama on the stage
The curtain call will come, and here am I
I will not acquiesce before I die
I feel that time is running way too fast
This life I live, these moments will not last
There is no time to be sedate and coy
I'll break what binds and bends; I'll capture joy!
Tradition's heavy chain, I'll break somehow
I'll taste, I'll touch, I'll fly, and this I vow
When death comes near to give me fateful kiss
I will not weep, for nothing is amiss
The song that resonates inside, I'll sing
That hidden fantasy to light I'll bring
The cloistered dream, I'll set to frenzied flight
I will indulge my whims that bring delight
I will not leave my thoughts untouched by verse
I'll bless with words, immune to sting of curse
With blaze of light, I'll burn in brazen bliss
My lust for life I'll fill, nothing I'll miss
So do not tell me what to do or say
I may not live for longer than this day
And I will not accept a normal state
I'll forge my life my way; I'll celebrate!
Eileen Manassian
I’m strong enough to take your insults
I’m strong enough to take your pain
I’m strong enough to stem the tears
That threaten to soak my soul like rain
I’m strong enough to take your silence
I’m strong enough to take the neglect
I’m strong enough because I know
That you’re afraid to reconnect
I’m strong enough to take your madness
I’m strong enough to take your fear
I’m strong enough because I know
You can’t survive without me near
So go ahead! Unleash the fury!
Go ahead! Try to make me break!
I will withstand the awful onslaught
Because I know how much to take
I know inside you there is someone
Who’s been hurt right to the core
Someone who has been damaged
When he wanted to love some more
Someone whose soul is soft and tender
Someone who needs to heal in time
That’s why I can take your abuse
Because I know your heart is mine!
Eileen Manassian Ghali
I’m sick of this world
Sick to the core
And I can’t forgive
Or pretend anymore
I smile but I’m crying
I am through being kind
I hate people playing
Around with my mind
I know I’m naive
I know I’m a fool
But it’s hard to see
How you can be cruel
You just carry on
Pretend I’m ok
When all that I want
Is to end this day
I just want to hide
I want to break free
From all who torment
And who torture me
I’ve just had enough
Enough of these tears
Enough of this life
Enough of these fears
It’s just too damn hard
To get it all right
To deal with this hurt
To sleep through the night
My heart is broken
This isn't a joke
I guess it happened
From all that you spoke
You didn't say sorry
You just walked away
You think I’m a stone…
Or some game to play
I’m heaving with sobs
I struggle, and cry
Try to understand
Your sick reason why
Want to crawl in bed
And lock myself in
What you’ve done to me
Is surely a sin
I’m sick, I’m alone
You’ve gouged out my heart
Go and now and sleep tight
While I fall apart.
Eileen Manassian Ghali
Let me write….
Of hell and paradise
Of lover’s compromise
Of dreams yet unfulfilled
Of how I love you still
Let me write….
Let me write….
Of longing for the end
Of people who pretend
Of desire to be free
Of changing destiny
Let me write
Let me write
Of passion’s sweetest flow
Of serene afterglow
Of love that's make believe
Of my heart's need to grieve
Let me write
Let me write
My words show I am weak
My words, my chance to “speak”
My words can calm the pain
My words, my sun and rain
Let me write
Let me write
I need to bare my soul
I need to be made whole
I need to freely fly
I need these tears to dry
Please,
Let me write
Eileen Manassian Ghali