In a Coat of Pain
I’ve knocked on every door of medicine men—
doors painted with hope.
Swallowed pills of every size and colour.
Been told,
“This one never fails.”
Another promise—
fulfilled only in disappointment.
The body that once felt mine
now feels like a stranger’s—
still wearing my name tag.
I sleep early,
trying to rinse myself from pain,
but wake up
still dressed in it.
The coat I wear?
Pain-stitched—
by a tailor
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Categories:
chronic illness, anger, anxiety, cancer, caregiving,
Form: Spoken Word
What You Eating? A Letter to Friendship, Fur, and Fried Calamari
Our story began behind bars with the broken,
Displaying our armor with truths left unspoken.
Through the gates each day, our counselor hats on,
Where pain wore a face, and hope felt long gone.
You, with your wisdom and counselor’s grace,
Me, burnt out but still showing my face.
We stitched up souls with words and care,
In a world where few
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Categories:
chronic illness, best friend, care, friendship,
Form: Free verse
When Hope Begets Hopelessness
H ealth forsakes you
O ver and over magic tonics promise recovery
P otential healing lures promising in the trees, again
E ven Eve knows better than to pick and eat, again
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Categories:
chronic illness, grief, health, hope, irony,
Form: Acrostic
New Normal
I'll be fine tomorrow—
a whispered promise to no one, to myself.
It's a nuisance, a pain in the
assiduous characters of my intellect,
unrelenting,
well-meaning, but delusional,
nothing truly unusual.
I'll feel fine in a week.
Only the weak build paper-thin walls -
desperate shields against a crumbling sky.
They're cracking,
but denial is refuge.
For now.
Maybe a month
or two?
Freedom is just a few short stretches
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Categories:
chronic illness, anxiety, health, mental health,
Form: Lyric
The Eternal Pine Forest, An Unofficial Love Sonnet
I love the winter, the way it whirls my breath
Away; reminds me I am alive, there's hope.
I love the ferns bejeweled in snow, the heath
As it patterns our legs, walking forest-roads.
I love the spring, that washes snow away,
Brings flowers, strong roots, fragile and pale-
Seeming. I love the summer, storm-blaze
Lazy lightning, theater of stars, golden corn
That
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Categories:
chronic illness, beauty, body, change, extended
Form: Sonnet
15 Year Sentence My Fight For Freedom
15 years I have been a prisoner
I was the victim of identity theft
Who I was, that person was stolen,
And it was I who had to do the time
Despite not being the culprit of the crime
Half my life was taken away from me
and i couldn't do anything about it
apart from
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Categories:
chronic illness, addiction, conflict, depression, emotions,
Form: Free verse
Ninth
duskfall creature,
tipsy on the blood of the covenant,
tell me, when did you pull the ninth card?
when your fangs grew in
and your eyes grew tired,
what made you build the castle walls?
the sunlight burns, you protest,
every silver-backed mirror a reminder to forget.
close the books, put down your stakes,
because the real world doesn’t work like that, creature of
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Categories:
chronic illness, allegory, anxiety, discrimination, gothic,
Form: Free verse
Shingles and Me
Shingles is something I live with daily
Chosen for me by whom?
I have no idea.
I doubt it is my choice, as it is painful.
My skin is tender; shingles is red, raw, sore, and rough.
This disease is something I try to forget about every day.
I can push it back into the farthest corners of my brain.
If I
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Categories:
chronic illness, health, sick,
Form: Narrative
Can'T Cope No More
Can't take no more
I just can't cope anymore,
The pain is debilitating,
The addiction consuming,
Both exhausting.
The dark corners of my mind are closing in, there all I can see clearly,
The demonic whispers fill my ears loudly,
I feel the reaper staring at me, his watchful glare burning,
I wonder what he foresees,
He watches waiting for me from his lair,
He
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Categories:
chronic illness, addiction, body, depression, emotions,
Form: Rhyme
Rainy Day
I woke up this morning
To a very dark, gray day
And the aches and pains
That I wished would go away
It's dark and it's cold
And everything is wet
All day I've been wondering
"Is it bedtime yet?"
I know the rain
Helps the flowers grow,
The earth needs the rain to live
This I know
But when I sit up in bed
When I wake
A
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Categories:
chronic illness, encouraging, inspiration, rain,
Form: Rhyme
Pain No Pleasure
Pain it's back again
Coursing through each vein
Pain it never leaves
Consuming me for its needs
Pain hangs on me
Theres no where to hide or flee
Pain my bestest friend
Haunting me to no end
Pain emotional physical
It's no luxury or paradisiacal
Pain lies in wait
Pouncing no need for bait
Pain arrives unannounced
Staying for
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Categories:
chronic illness, anxiety, health, hurt, lost,
Form: Rhyme
Untitled
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Deathly living till dying breath.
Somber dreaming a lively death.
Body ailing, self enemy.
Ever changing the remedy.
Boldly living from open womb.
Never changing, to closing tomb.
Never living a normal life.
Ever planning for daily strife.
~J.D. Cromwell
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Categories:
chronic illness, dark, deep, dream, grave,
Form: Rhyme
Pain Four Letters Is All It Takes
Pain, four letters is all it takes.
Such a small word that has such meaning,
It can drive into the most innocent teething,
As we grow old and our bodies break down,
Hidden in the depths of our minds a constant pound,
It engulfs our spirits, souls and our very sanity,
It plays tricks on you, questioning what's reality,
It burns, stings,
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Categories:
chronic illness, anxiety, deep, depression, nostalgia,
Form: Rhyme
Chronic Illness
Pain is a constant
Like the ticks of a clock
Counting out the agony of my existence
Without pain, there is no life
Or is there?
Is there an old shoe box in my brain
Where lies the faded picture of a better time?
I am afraid.
If I knew that others surf the wave that bandies me about like a sock in
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Categories:
chronic illness, angst, depression, pain, sick,
Form: Free verse