Best Loney Poems
when I gaze upon you,
I see not the skin,
I see not the shape,
I see not the size.
I see your light.
Radient from your chest,
the warm tint fits you best.
Placing a smile on my face
as trust begins to encase.
Pin-pointing the light.
Glowing so bright,
Your silly smile can add,
even when you are hurting and sad.
Then I see it.
On you they spit.
your light fades.
you crave for blades.
My hands shake,
how dare they make
your light dim.
My rage begins to brim.
I know that look,
your joy they took.
Their words engrave themselves upon your skin
Beating you down, they want to win.
Wiping their hurt upon your delicate heart.
fading light, my panic rises, the tears start.
Feet moving with out my permission
Their words churning my ignition.
I step between them and you.
Their anger flew.
Arms strait out,
I'll take their blowout.
for they can't see
how beautiful you can be.
They cant hurt my light.
Not when this is my fight.
My eyes hold strong,
because their words are wrong.
I remeber their words to me
How I didn't even disagree.
the long nights alone,
making my skin atone.
Remembering the rope necklaces,
all of the fake faces.
The tears cried in pain,
wanting for life to abstain.
I stand,
nothing they say can land.
for I fight for a cause
to make your pain pause.
When no reaction will come,
The leave saying 'no fun',
I turn to you
and tell you its not true.
I hold you tight
Strengthening your light
Those words are but a blight
This is our fight.
I will pull you off every ledge you stand on,
No matter how dark, there will still be a dawn,
So let that light shine bright,
Let your soul take flight.
You are stronger than you know,
this is a temparary woe,
So dont let your light go.
This is your life,
so lay down the knife
You'll make it through this strife.
And when you do
No one will shine as bright.
there won't be another loney night.
For you won your fight.
Stay strong,
stay brave.
Don't let them take your light
This is all of our fight.
You can win.
"Never let them take the light behind your eyes"
(My Chemical Romance)
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Listen to the songs:
Light behind your eyes - My Chemical Romance
Optional:
Sunrise - Our last night
Stand in the Rain - Superchick
Fight - All Good Things
This good Samaritan tending to
this loney neglected grave,
making it look as clean as it
had been in ages.
A tear rolls down his face, knowing
that too much time had passed by,
he should have done this many years ago,
then getting ready to depart he
says Dad, I'm so sorry, please
forgive me, I beg you,
I should have come home sooner,
but was too proud, but now
I'm home to stay; I will make these trips
back here each week and tell you many
things I never got a chance to speak with you
about, I want you to know, that I love you very much.
Written 5-23-11
I had my dad in mind when i wrote this, I have only been to his grave
one time, that was the day of the funeral in 1970 and again in 1990.
This was also the second part of Just a Lonely rose, which started out
as one long poem, but shorted for two poems.
But in this poem I am telling my dad, what i never got a chance to tell
him while he was living.
Growing up loney
unhappy
unloved
with too much anger on your chest,
with no one to wipe your tears,
no shaulder to cry on.
you know sometimes you feel
like the world has turn it back on you.
in some days you wish you were never born,
but because you are already born
you have to live and fight.
Fight for your life alone
fight for what belongs to you alone.
wait...
Do you have something that belong to you?
did somebody left anything for you?
NO! not even a cent,
your parents passed before they did nothing to the world,
The only thing they did best was alcohol and theift.
I guess that life sometimes
My falling tears taste like the rain
Salty yet full of pain they fall
The days seem to grow so long
She no longer is in my day
Will one understand that i die inside a little each passing hour
Prolong the seconds will you not
Search in me, and you will find emptyness
I am to roam this place alone, for no matter what my hands touch it fruits not
Why do i always hurt those around me
Help, will you too read and leave
Am I to die alone, will you too look the other way
Swear you love me, and leave me?
I need you, please come back, and let's make this work
My tears fall dry, as i too die
The church aint some fancy building, made of bricks or morter.
No the church is me and you. flesh and blood. living, breathing stones.
People see us, they see jesus his only soon.
The one who gave himself to die on a cross,
for the lost. the loney and the hurting.
If you think your to bad, to come
and turn to God, i got news, he
knows all about you, every
detail.
So you aint to bad, come to him
and let him love you and set you
free.
He`s waiting for you, so just
come as you are. Amen.
Everytime I look in ur eyes
I could see a sad litte boy
I don't know why
That boy is so sad
Everytime I tried to figure out
He won't tell me
Everyday as the day and night go pass
He keep taking darker, sader, and quieter
And
Everyday I sit next to him to figure out what is wrong I got nothing
from
All I could get a kiss and a hug back nothing more than that
One day
This little boy didn't wake up in the moring
To come out to play with me
He had to go to the hospital all day
The doctor said that he was understand too much stress
He has heart disease but the stress it killing him more
I had to ruch in the room
To see him and tell him that ' I love u with all of my heart. You need
to world to me. Without u I am nobody I won't be could to live. I don't
want any other guys because all of them sick they suck. They are a pimp.
I want u because u understand me. U want me for me. That is all I need.
I don't need sex to live on. I don't need money to live. I don't care if
people think that u are a loser and a failiure. I don't believe them. I
don't see u as a loser and a failure. I see u as a handsome loney smart
and the best guy that ever meet. I want to just love u for u. Please
take my hand and tell me that u promise me not to leave me and promise
me that u will talk to me like I am ur best friend.'
At the moment that the boy heard him crying
He woke up
He turn to his left clean the tears off the little face and said ' don't
cry. I am going to be fine. I love for who u are. I will not leave. I
can't live without u. That why everytime a dude hug u I get jealous
because I am afaird that they will take u away from men'
The girl said ' no sweetheart. U are mine. Everything that I wanna I
find it in u. I love u for life.
They kissed.
Exulansis
I am twenty two winters, six heartbreaks, infinite breakdowns and two (near) deaths old.
1. My skin is nothing less than a graveyard of ink upon which every man i loved is allowed to leave a trace behind. A set of initials clutter my wrist, then follows the navy blue scarf with a knot which is still tight enough to cease a heartbeat, a cigarette for the one who taught me the "art" of healing and a small infinity that the canvas itself is afraid to be a victim of.
2. My tongue only recalls the taste of burning eulogies that I recite to myself to bed. On the verge of dawn my silhouette starts to wither with the smoke fumes that escape my ice cold lips. Then the daylight breaks and I wish to die, again. But here I am bleeding verses in every language I can grasp you in, wiping my tears with the sleeve of my sweater and laughing in between as I choke on my sobs.
3. I still seek for that faint residues of cigarettes and chocolates upon every stranger I kiss to relive my regret, again and again. I reach out to all the "flaws" that don't make them you and perfect them with one single word - mine. This darkness I am feeding myself to escape from your absence feeds on me instead. I am cold and you are not here. Again.
4. I am afraid to show people the world I create with my ink, mainly because I don't want them to know that beneath these flesh and bones all I am left with are trigger warnings and a heart which feels guilty everytime it beats. Sometimes I wonder whether silence would have been this loney if I never raised my walls high. But I know I have fall alone, for love cannot live here. It won't survive in the world I give birth to.
Exulansis -n. the tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it.
You made me happy
You made me smile
It all ended
Forever awhile
The connection broke through
Even from far away
All hell broke loose
Throughout my loney days
Left with a broken heart
Went someplace else
Couldn't move on
Just listened to church bells
It all reminds me of reading a book
Couldn't move onto the next page
Didn't bother to take a look
Tried once more, made my heart race
I waited for the day to come
Where I'd see my prince charming again
Nervous at first
Excited if our eyes met
You'd brighten my day
Make the hell go away
To make make me happy again
"when's it going to begin?"
My feelings would come alive
When I'd look into your eyes
Feeling couldn't ever die
Once more in my life...
I would deny the birds to sing,
The blooming flowers, the coming spring.
If it be true that he is gone
Then tell me pray, why they live on.
Cruel February stole his breath.
The one we loved lies low in death
This man who loved his family
And to all men a friend would be.
Dear gracious Lord, I thank thee for
Those happy years that were before
The angels came to take my love
And carry him to Heaven above.
This world is such a loney place
And I've tomorrows yet to face.
Forgive me that his loss I moan.
Remind me he was ours on loan.
For Dr. Mehta's Elegy contest.
A never ending tunnel
Hate spewed at me at a astonishing rate
Trying to hold it together
I grasp for something or someone to hault my fate
Silent sobbing, as i try to stand
All who said they loved and protect me, dont even lend a hand
Its loney at the bottom
I can only try to climb out with each passing day
Understanding that i only seem to be in the way
I cant do anything right only everything wrong
According to you i just dont belong
Broken as i am i could never be as cruel as you
Karma will hold you accountable for the hell you put me through
TELL ME NOW
ARE YOU EMBARRASSSED TO BE IN
YOUR OWN SKIN?
TOO SCARED TO JUST BE YOU?
DO YOU COVER THE SKARS THAT YOU
LET DEFINE YOU?
OR DO YOU DETERMINE YOUR SELF WORTH
WITH THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE?
DO YOU EVER FELL SO LONEY
LIKE NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND?
THE FELLING THAT HUNTS YOU DAILY
THAT MAKE A LIVING NIGHTMARE
ONE THANG I SHOUD TELL YOU!!!
IS THAT THINGS CAN GET BETTER
BAD THINGS CAN GET BETTER
AND YOU WILL BE OKAY
HEY GUYS IM BACK AND IWILL BE POSTINGE
MORE XOXO LOVE YOU ^^ CERRA
Growing up nobody helped me succeed
it's rough lonely when you cuffed to the streets
nothing is sweet I need a blessing for me.
I'm still sane from the stuff that I've seen
lucky I was a strong youngen blessed with a gift.
No big brother but a small one
I'm God's son look what them Mosque halls done
now I have lessons to give.
Forget friends up in school they status
had two faces plus I noticed attitudes was malice.
Who's parents
had a bruised marriage
confused few balance they views
the ruler damaged a jewel.
Banished my pen for year and walk the blocks and thought,
of that Diamond in the sky I'm like I cannot stop.
Heart holds dreams and goals
it's not hard
I have to try alot of rhymes dissposed.
Intertwine with the beat so my mind can mold
it's just a message for the blinded souls
up in these lonely streets.
My Roman Ruins
you are my rome,
all roads lead home to you
the ruins of my destruction
on the rounding patchy earthen grounds
strown with stiff marble columns
that have long ago cracked and crumbled
and into several broken pieces
by the hand of a violent man
signs of the holy catholic trinity
stand everywhere
yet there's no holy space
where I find the comfort that I need
to rest my weary head
bleached bones and skulls
with sullen hollow spaces
hide in deep tunnels under the ground
continue to haunt me in my sleep
as the towering roman aquaducts
remind me of the mighty powers
that fell from grace years ago
the via appian way spreads
far and wide to many places
destroying forces that
blocked their armies way
on it's broken bricked path
I trod through my sunny days
and my dark loney nights
yet no matter how hard I fight
to move my sandled feet far away from you
my warped brain keeps
directing it's seizing waves to
cherished memories of your
youthful tanned roman face
I wonder to lat you know
Time for you my notes you are much poetic
To Us It's foreal our contest has no end
When five Stars are down and loney no one
Seems there we don't even have to think
A word why you are them goodlight In Night
Came apond I justed said badlight brings swet
Naturely a smile to my handsome Face look I want to say
I new and thank Life everyway sending such
Special poet Into my World this Day how I pray
Alot planed on Earth I wisemine this walk that
A poet can last with talent and strength a poet
stop this
you i miss
our love excist
no matter if your in rome
am loney
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