Best Depressive Poems

Depression is like dying
without hope this process will end well,
without remediation
at least not for my closely held ego-identity,
and despair 
this turning inward
creates a cocoon by avoiding outward.

Focal awareness of ego mortality, 
immanent and emanant,
eminent,
turns inward,
returns inward
in despairing response against outward;
the whats and whos of external...

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EVOL UT I ON ... NO 1 TU LOVE
(The Eden Agenda III)


I have loved most everyone, yet so few have loved me back.

So much good I have done, but suspicions aroused, they attack.
How I so long to drown my sorrows and drown in a tank...

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If I skip sleep and skip my med's tonight
against my doctor's warning, I'll soon hear
the strident voices trumpet loud and clear,
unnerving me,--trust me, it's no delight!
When I'm bipolar I fail to comply 
and manias become fearfully near
'til I'm committed three times ev'ry year;--
it's a pain...

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Saturday April 13, 1877

Remove the dagger from my eye;
      Apply a tourniquet to my wounds;
          Surcease this oozing blood from the-
          ...

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So it is, I am back again
Woken from the deepest sleep
That yesterday consumed me whole
Today, the fog has lifted

Twenty fours hours make a difference 
To take a man out of the shadow
A thousand moments passing 
Blink of an eye to the universe

Where as I lay...

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Please tell me why do I feel like this?
my life is so good, safe, to most it’s bliss 
then why do I sit all day, just weep and cry
thinking that things will be better if I die,

there must be some reason why I feel so...

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Should I not awake after tonight,
may my death find me the peace I never found in life....

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Darkness surrounds me
I reside in a black cloud
That brings me closer
To death descending into
a dungeon I can't escape...

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I am manic
Is that dreadful?
 Or is it amazingly creative 
and freeing?
I am manic
I am me

Depressed. You bet,
Of ourselves I am.
But this side few will ever see.

I will spend my last here-I-Am-days
Building you up
Making you laugh
Helping you feel okay,

Then like Patch Adams and
My wonderful mother-in-law...

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The Manic Depressive Cycle

I breathe into my lungs and soul,
The wind beneathe the bright blue sky.
My spirit stares into the sun,
And burns its passion on my mind.

Through unseen tears I watch myself,
Speak lines drawn from a comic play.
From dark warm depths I tear my heart,
And...

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Manic depressive

3 cups of coffee to keep me awake, astray the train of my thoughts.... Far away, have it your way.
Blue the state of my emotions, like a blue baby please medicate me into a state of meditation.

2 packs of Marlboro to ease the pain,...

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Me gambling that once held me up now I’m afraid to utter,
has left me really in the dumps and struggling in the gutter.
No more flamin’ pokies will I play; no horses shall I back,
I’m prepared to take what’s red and have it wrote in black....

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"Inside thy mind hides thine canticle,"
Says the gifted for the chiromanticle.

He read my palms with sturdy eyes,
And said "Boy, there's another in thy mind."

"A voice" he said that "sings you to sleep,
And makes you feel that you must weep.

For the other in you wants you...

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as i stand here against my back
i remind you of the times you fail
i rest my head into my hands 
so i can listen to your hell
and when your finished i tip my hat
and challenge the stories you tell
i guarantee it gets worse than that...

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Dancing prancing
cry cry cry
Whirling twirling
die die die

Up on the roof top
Laughing with maniacal glee
Saddest moment ever
Keeping this to myself, as you can see

Shopping, buying everything in sight
Wishing someone would unplug me
Or turn out the light

Life of the party, collecting strangers all around
Falling fast, and hard,...

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