Caren Krutsinger Poet Free verse

Manic Depressive Yes Me

I am manic
Is that dreadful?
 Or is it amazingly creative 
and freeing?
I am manic
I am me

Depressed. You bet,
Of ourselves I am.
But this side few will ever see.

I will spend my last here-I-Am-days
Building you up
Making you laugh
Helping you feel okay,

Then like Patch Adams and
My wonderful mother-in-law Helen
I will go to the hither and yon.

I will go so stealthily 
And my dogs will bark me over the Rainbow Bridge.
Lucky and Blue Dot.com, Nova, and Queenie to name nut a few of the 19 
Dogs I have rescued from a pound

I’ll shut myself away 
And eat chicken hide
And lettuce and tomatoes
And I’ll show such pride.

Are you suicidal? They ask.
I scoff at that.  Even deeply depressed Caren
Likes herself too much to do that.

When was the last time you fell? 
The doctors ask me.  I think about the time four
Years ago when I stepped onto what I thought was going to be a chair seat
But it ends up both legs were now balancing on the back of a chair.

4 years ago I say proudly.
It doesn’t hit 3 -year- old Caren or 7-year-old-Caren  or 
9-year-old Caren they ask this because they think we are OLD

We laugh overjoyed 
At their idiocy.
Thrilled they do not even see us.

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Gershon Wolf April 18, 2018 at 10:14 PM That you're posting something today is, I hope, a good sign...Bipolar, manic depressive, obsessive, neurotic, addictive, paranoid, agrophobic, etc. ---gosh, so many names for so many conditions we keep on living with, don't we?...til our number's called. May that be a long time away for you, and may you not merely find that inner Buddha, but come to channel in it and revel in it. Cheers, :) gershon Caren Krutsinger April 19, 2018 at 2:55 AM Thank you. Great news today. No cancer. No surgery. I have multiple esophagus ulcers and a spastic colon all caused by untreated acid reflux.

Line Gauthier April 18, 2018 at 1:23 PM Caren, imagine all the multiples levels of poetry you will write. Wow. There is no stopping you now! Hugs, Line xx Caren Krutsinger April 18, 2018 at 9:35 PM Thank you Line. It is so liberating to admit to Bipolar 1.

Tom Cunningham April 18, 2018 at 6:26 AM Oh the highs and lows of life, hope your having a good day Caren. Tom. Caren Krutsinger April 20, 2018 at 12:24 PM They changed meds, and I slept 7 hours last night, Tom. A record day! I am optimistic again.

Besma Riabi Dziri April 18, 2018 at 4:42 AM Unveiling the inner self, knowing it thoroughly, diving deep consciously in who we are is a huge step towards inner peace, contentment and enlightenment.. It is the essence bof our beauty within and outward.. It is the fount of Love that will flow from the realm of the self to the outer world.. A profound poem inked by an insightful poetess! Caren Krutsinger April 20, 2018 at 12:25 PM Your words make me glad that you are so insightful and kind, and now my friend, Besma. Thank you a hundred times!