it felt like i was stuck in a place that i coul never come out of.
a place ive been before, not a good place either.
the feeling of being used.
being alone again.
she tells me that it wasnt my fault, that they shoulve known better, but i beg to differ.
i am old enough to know right from wrong.
i knew that running away was wrong,
not saying no was wrong too.
i am stuck in the past where they pass me around.
a little quicky is all they want and then they move me to the next one in line
i feel my skin crawling as i can feel the pressure of there bodies against mine
why did i freeze?
why did i not say no?
i walk out of the building,
smelling of men that i didnt even know...
why didnt i say no?
I always give in, to this useless beating.
I feel alive every now and then, but pain is still defeating.
All I say is goodbye, again my heart you keep.
Still I cry, even when i sleep.
I remember those days, when everything was real.
In my head that memory stays, helping my mind heal.
Locked in this tormenting hell, you sent me to this place.
For me it is hell, and yet you spit in my face.
You said it wasnt my fault, I wasnt complaining.
Again we fought, causing my blood to be staining.
I've lost my way, would you help me find?
I can no longer stay, do you leave our love behind?
Take your breath, and say goodbye.
I feel death, so you begin to cry.
Why try to save, what is already lost?
You came crying at my grave, was this love's cost?
Just another regret, in this game we play.
Another Romeo and Juliet, amazing we are the same way.
This isnt what I imagined, what i thought
I knew it was the end, the second we fought.
I no longer see my best friend, for I'm not what she sought.
I've lost my way, So I'm dying.
I've lost my way, So I'm defying.
I've found my way, but now I'm crying
nightmare....i wake up! a voice says to me, "(meow) mommy why have you
abdandoned me?!: i say " baby its not my fault , i love you so much!"
"(meow) i thiught we were meant to be together forver!" i thiught so too...
tears drop down my eyes as i tried to calm down. another tear drops...
my face turns blue. the paramedics come for me..i say no O2.
i hurt my child,best friend,an animal. "she's dying,she's dying", they say..
i hear him again "meow" i gasped for air. "cuddles where are you?!"
he replied,"im in your heart." im sorry to have let you go, but as you can see it
wasnt my fault! my best friend, an animal, cuddles. voices leave me as my heart
rate drops...beep...beep...the machine makes..i was declared dead!
why did you leave me when i was so young?
was i not the song you wanted tyo be sung?
where you hurt and started to cry,
cause i called "Daddy" some other guy?
i didnt know it was you who was really my dad,
but when i found out it made me really sad.
everythime i thought of you
i thought of the pain i put you through.
but then i realized it wasnt my fault,
and it sent my life to a complete jolt.
my feeling turned to angher that controlled my life,
like how could you leave me for some chick you call a wife?
when you showed up in court you raised all hopes,
thinking you were done with all the gangs and dope.
when you didnt show up to see me threw.
i realized the relationship between me and you would never be true.
now im healing, filliong that hole.
that hole you created deep in my soul.
Tiffany Williams
class of '07
Lemoore High School