Forgive my thoughts unstoppable
Feeling wrong is natural as bone
Don't overthink the morning with doubt
The voice of God is in shameful thoughts
Forgive packing oily lunch for my son
Accept the dreaded work familiar
Sit down in the corner when it’s done
The sinful little things are exhausting
Accept rather than control who I am
But acceptance without change is hard
Accept I’m guilty down to my DNA
Must I embrace this strange redemption?
My son has left his home for another
Start smoking when the house empties
My sins return to me with every inhale
Trust doubting is as natural as cancer
I’m a failed agoraphobic father
Lessons learned are re-cleansed on repeat
See my shortcomings through a child’s eye
Faltering is natural to a crippled mind
My guilt mocks me reaching for forgiveness
Says I have two left feet while others dance
God reminds me embarrassment has no shame
Rescue is patient even for the handicapped
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Psalms 32:5
Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the LORD.” And you forgave the guilt of my sin.
Categories:
unrelenting, father, forgiveness, god, trust,
Form: Free verse
All angels arc Art--
An awesome ACT
Appreciating Almighty's authenticity.
Categories:
unrelenting, angel, appreciation, art, christian,
Form: Alliteration
Once again unrelenting sadness knocks at my door,
Like the inveterate seeker of my generous charity
Calls on others like me and always demanding more.
Could it be that I am a lone favored mark to score?
And I am deigned to entertain gloom incessantly
Once again, unrelenting sadness knocks at my door.
Would that I could be like others who in autumn soar
And, seeing in falling leaves, they hope abundantly,
Calls on others like me and always demanding more.
I find at autumn’s advent a bitter chilling to the core
Rising to the level of self-uncontrolled ascendancy,
Once again, unrelenting sadness knocks at my door
Every year I have vowed I’ll not suffer again, I swore,
But this annual sadness I cannot explain from infancy
Calls on others like me and always demanding more.
Worse still, I have become a nauseous, weary boor,
Complaining and whining that this SAD has primacy.
Once again, unrelenting sadness knocks at my door
Calls on others like me and always demanding more.
written October 30, 2021
Categories:
unrelenting, angst, autumn, conflict, depression,
Form: Villanelle
A light is seen some distance away
Trudging knee deep I’m anything but warm
Hoping I’m not fooled I continued that way.
Coming closer my hope grew stronger
Clearing my brows I saw the glow
Where there is hope there becomes light.
Categories:
unrelenting, hope, light,
Form: Free verse
Swirling, whirling hard,
The wind is unrelenting.
It’s strength against strength!
Categories:
unrelenting, desire, endurance, strength, wind,
Form: Haiku
How does my body
This flesh that withholds my soul,,
manage to bear the weight from the chains that have been embedded upon my bequeathing heart?
Where does one hide the pain that is encrusted upon these eyes that are dreary and now fail to sleep?
Why cant my mind acquit, my heart adrift, my skin ache for the touch of another?
Does it have to be me that has to live with this night, because happiness is the other side of this mirror?
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Categories:
unrelenting, bereavement, betrayal, confusion, devotion,
Form: Prose
Fires are springing up all over and blazing across the land.
The brave firemen working hard are severely undermanned.
The wheat crop, rippling in the breeze, is beginning to look dry.
Each July day has opened with a brilliant, bright blue sky.
Its the hottest July recorded in usually rainy Puget Sound.
My pretty lawn has withered and my perennials have browned.
We've not had the usual showers in the quiet of the night.
The leaves on my majestic Oak appear as though they were hit by blight.
Our red sunset holds no warning to which sailors must take heed.
There is no promise that tomorrow will bring the rains we need.
Forgive me Lord for grumbling when you sent the endless rain
And I promise I lwill never grouse about dark skies again
Written July 30, 2015
Categories:
unrelenting, adventure,
Form: Rhyme
Tell them
-They have come
To the fishless sea;
Needless is their net and
chums,
Useless! Their gaff and clonks.
Tell them
-They have come
To the metal land;
Where tilling is a waste,
And planting is unseen.
Tell them
-They have come
To the shadeless tree;
Where resting is unpleasant,
Where sun is in abundance.
Tell them
-And Sing to them
A single song;
Sing to them
Their failure!
Categories:
unrelenting, metaphor
Form: Imagism
Right as things turn it eventually crumbles
An overwhelming life in our love is at last
Just as we dread the bursting of our bubble
This is an opportunity we will not let pass
Categories:
unrelenting, love,
Form: Rhyme
Eight salty Beaufort striking my face
at the edge of Inverness.
With my hands wide open
I'm balancing like a seagull
in front of the black and angry Atlantic.
I feel your lonely sunset
as you cross the ocean for hours.
I feel your longing wave
as you come to reach and burst out on the beach.
But since I was a child
an unknown star
permanently drives me to chaos,
and it is impossible to resist.
I travel thirsty on clear waters.
I travel hungry in fruitful gardens.
With great eagerness,
that suffocates inside my breast.
With an insistent deputy,
being stuck as chewing gum under my shoe.
This world is so vast.
and this brain, so restricted.
When will I find a beach?
Categories:
unrelenting, art, childhood, devotion, imagination,
Form: Lyric
Drifted along with vicious tides
A soul in distress, lost, astray
No reason to reincarnate life
A lifeless burden, here, I lay
In caress of the finest, a desired reverie
My dwelling, a fantasy of idyllic presence
Behind the facade, a spirit yearns to be free
My world, as hollow as its glitter, in essence
Forsaken by all, yet I thrive to exist
Holding on to a beacon near end
At the verge of sanity, I strive to resist
For a glimpse of your smile gives me life my friend
Categories:
unrelenting, depression, hope, life, love,
Form: Rhyme
These tears...
Unrelenting rains
I try
But, I cannot wipe them away
Pouring upon
This dear letter
Of your scripted words
waterfalls into blurs
Further and further
Fallen whirlpool of pains
Draining downward
But,the message
Still remains the same
A verse of love
Put about by disdain
Salt dissipates into ink
And faults into blames
What is left?
But, the things I cannot change
Reasons mixing
Into muddled greys
These tears
Unrelenting rains
Stain this page
Stain this page
Categories:
unrelenting, lost love
Form: Rhyme