all you wanted was the closure i never got
when you expressed the will to reunite
your crime was to abandon us at a time
when the need for a savior was too high
i got your message and plea in my court
you stood like a fool and defended your crime
calling my convictions a theatrical show
and apologizing in the end after stabbing a dagger
I say in love farewell.
I shared in love to you,
My thoughts and all my feelings,
Words my dreams outgrew.
I saw your beauty with eyes
That pity a blind man’s fate
For missing your heart’s radiance
That I will never shake.
I speak of twenty Helens,
Props to Marlowe and Poe,
But nothing else can match
The beauty with you I knew.
sweet tender words may suffice
dreams have a life of their own
only actions go the distance
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AP: 1st place 2025
The white light across this man made lake gives me something to watch.
As the people i thought liked me enough to be around me have the time of their lives without.
The loneliness brings me more comfort than being around a batch of judging eyes that their smiles don’t reach.
Their botched happiness is obvious to me.
As I’m about to graduate they all decide to scratch me to comfort themselves.
But I’m the one out of all of them who will truly end up happy with myself.
WHISPERS OF CLOSURE
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
In the quiet hour,
when the sun dips low,
casting long shadows,
I find myself wandering
through the corridors of memory,
where echoes of happiness reside
lingering like the scent of rain on dry earth.
I know you’re still trying to make sense of what happened. Maybe you won’t get all the answers, and maybe that’s not what you need right now. It’s okay to feel heavy this morning. It’s okay if you’re not okay. Letting go without having every reason doesn’t mean you’re giving up. It means you’re choosing kindness for yourself, trusting that peace matters more than understanding why it hurt. You don’t need an apology or the full story to heal. Sometimes, closure isn’t given. Sometimes, you give it to yourself. And in that simple choice, you make space for something softer, something lighter, something like hope.
Some people think they can do wrong,
offer no apology, then just share time
Does pretending it never happened erase it?
For the other, it remains a weight, it hurts
Issues, always reaching in empty air for closure
How does one forgive with no acknowledgement?
It's really not difficult to tell the truth
But, it's hard for the person who will never forget
Heidi Sands
5/5/25
(C)opyright
he knew me in ways i didnt yet know myself
saw the sharp edges i hid from the world
and traced them gently
like they were meant to be held, not feared
he knew when silence meant i wasnt fine
when my laughter was just a shield
never asked me to change, took me whole
and only held space for who i was
he knew the way i pulled away
yet still held me, knowing i wouldnt ask
never tried to reshape me
into something easier to love
he saw the girl behind the walls
the one i wasnt sure deserved to be seen
and still, he stood steadfast
until he didnt
i guess love alone could never stay
but i wonder, did i ever really let him in?
i gave him half pieces of me, my thoughts
he deserved more, something whole
now i know that i was loved truly
and maybe that is what lingered after?what made his absence feel like a presence
it was a moment and that was enough
he knew me once but now i know myself.
I'm sorry for the way things ended,
I know it wasn't fair.
I remember the moment you left and never looked back,
But I look back on us all of the time.
I'm sorry you moved on from me like you never even cared,
I still read your old text messages to prove you did.
I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you.
But you were everything to me.
You were the song that I would sing in the shower.
You were what I thought about when times got rough.
I remember talking about how we were going to have our life together.
You told me that you liked how I wasn't like other guys,
So why did you go away?
I'll spend the rest of my life missing you and wondering why
All while you are being my everything with another guy.
I hate being the 'incident' of your story
Hate how you once made my heart beat so fast
Hate how I get a reminder of you
Now we're just strangers that sometimes walk past.
A memory I can't erase
Was getting dull with time
Life was getting back to it's pace
But a trigger by your sight, not my eye's crime.
Applauds to the courage
I didn't feel anything in
Left the road you were taking
Resisting the temptation of a possible sin.
The need of journeying back in time
Where your name stood unknown
As an arrogant, aggressive guy
Was what to me, was shown.
I hate being the one left behind the door
When you were the one knocking it first
Hate the time I spent foolishly
On you, now I just keep eyes on floor.
So many years go by as families wait for answers that may never come
What we seek
In the unpleasantness
We find in situations,
Times or experiences.
In the hopes of closure
In unfair treatment,
Disrespected and hurt
To an extent undeserved.
We seek a sense of
Peace and understanding
In releasing it all
Before putting things to an end.
We seek one final goodbye,
Hoping to hear another side
Or reasoning for their actions.
So we may reach closure.
Sometimes, we don’t get that.
We have to move on,
Accepting that closure
Between some
Will never be reached.
We can only put it behind us
And move on from the pain.
For closure is not about others
But finding it withing ourselves.
When seeking this closure,
It is determined by us
Whether it is reached or not.
Nobody else.
Closure
Is only done
In ourselves
With ourselves
For ourselves.
As the business's closure loomed in the distance,
Anxiety gripped me tightly, a relentless insistence.
Late-night thoughts birthed migraines, a sleepless affair,
The shop had been more than a store; it was friendships we'd share.
Evenings converged, weekends embraced at the store's cozy nook,
I couldn't fathom it all disappearing with a single closing book.
But for a moment, a glimmer of hope did appear,
In a friend, not just any, but a love sincere.
She'd been the beacon, the reason I'd smile,
I believed she'd support me through any trial.
A shoulder to lean on, a hand to wipe tears,
Oh, how mistaken I was, as my heart faced its fears.
The calls turned silent, like a fading star's light,
Texts arrived tardily, replies devoid of their usual might.
Answers grew brief, disinterest reared its head,
My heart ached profoundly, but faith I still spread.
Tears of a weeping willow on a tree lined street in Biloxi indulge my depression.
You have earned every emotion you own.
Clouds of wisdom pass on the knowledge of the universal truth.
Death never looked so inviting as it does to the hopeless.
Silence is a teacher waiting in vain for her star pupil.
I
am in
her way – our
love lost. She’s free –
yours truly, never again. Heart
broken, dreams denied, lesson learnt…unless…
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