Best Finding Myself Poems
A lamppost mirrors my frame drooping
while I close my eyes, awaiting morn
to flicker on spoiled dreams: till angelic whispers
begin a hymn through pin-points
of notes along sedate trees;
yet, the fire from my belly breathes
again like an orange wave...
how in this open pain, a light draws
me close to hope's rebirth
within a new world,
feeding my roots , my veins
borne from self-love..again.
"We can't be so desperate for love that we forget
where we can always find it; WITHIN.”
? Alexandra Elle
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The Most Important Event In Your Life
Contest Sponsor:Nayda Ivette Negron
10/7/2015
My favorite Dr. Seuss quote: " A person's a person, no matter how small!!!
I so wanted to grow up
and to be in charge of me,
but I had to mind my mama
when a toddler on her knee.
I thought that I had made it
when big enough to go to school,
but I found how truly small I was
each time I broke a rule.
There was always someone bigger,
someone more adept than I.
I have long known I have to prove myself
somehow, some way before I die.
Then one day at last, it happened,
true greatness came to me.
I turned into a great grandma.
How grander could I be?
Finding myself, in this world I call home.
Even when I feel so lost and alone.
It seems as though, there are certain things I do not know.
Certain things that may come or may not even show.
Sometimes I find myself thinking to deep.
When that happens, I just stop for a minute and listen to my heart beat.
Whenever I do not understand what went wrong - I just lift up my head and try to stay strong.
Finding myself at this young age, always opens up a chapter- one that starts a whole new page. My mind maybe complex and hard to understand, when that happens I simply reach out my hand.
Finding myself is something that I thrive to do.
Even if some may think it untrue.
As I watch myself grow and continue to change
My one and only vision, will forever stay the same.
I love the people who surround me, because whenever they are near - my anxiety is set free.
The more I look into myself and try to discover who I really am
I continue to enjoy life and attempt to accomplish all my future plans.
I feel different as I grow older every day. I know things may never stay the same but I'm learning to mature and cope with it, in my own way.
Finding myself is something I know I will eventually do. I strive to be nothing more than myself and that's the truth.
uncertainty settles in
hesitation hath be fallen upon us
they say if something scares you
it’s meant to happen
the compass is twirling out of control
i have no sense of direction
can only trust myself
but it’s okay, i suppose
i have lost all notions of finding
“The One”
i’m letting the waters take me
where I need to be
i believe in the feeling, the vibe
so not tied down to memories past
I change
every minute
every hour
every day
who can say they know me for squat
i have different sides
my personality is a
vibrant kaleidoscope of colors
that doesn’t say that im at all fake
the haters say
“i’ve changed”
but now I would laugh and say
“of course, I have!”
i’m me all around
i’m everchanging
everlasting in your very memory
i’m artsy
i’m a hopeless romantic
i’m a brutally logical realist
i see the future
i see the reality
i listen to classic music
i listen to hard rock and punk
All the while head banging all the same
I breath in and out
loving the feeling
of ecstasy
of living
of loving
hard
my heart bleeds
I can see the look in your eyes
straight into mine
seems like you know
or
Will you be willing to know more?
of the crazy, fun, wild mess
that is moi
(3/30/13)
I had written about my heavy heart and how you
Had become such a big part.
So with these thoughts going thru my head
I will lay my fears to rest.
There is so much beauty on this site, that it
Fills my heart with strength and might.
There are so many of us going thru aches and pains
That to abandon you would be a crying shame.
There is so much hope in the words of all poets
And insights never seen or touched before
Because we are the ones who open the doors.
There are times that we want our poetry to
Find us fortune and fame, but we know that
Our lives will not be the same.
We will no longer write from the heart or be able
To shed a tear and to wipe away others fears
I found that my search for truth lies within, and if we
Don’t pursue it; it will be a crying sin.
HOPE, LOVE, FAITH
I looked up to the sunset,
I looked up with no regret.
I found myself in its color,
I stood there in the midst of summer.
It was a beautiful end to a horrible start,
I let go of you and a piece of my heart,
but at least I found myself while letting go,
at least now my true colors can show.
It was an end before it became a begging,
it ended with me killing,
killing the old me,
and setting the real one free.
I lost you,
but I found myself too.
I don’t fit in the crowd I stand out,
So I’m excluded can't hangout,
Every single day without a debate,
People are always gunna hate,
They will also alienate!
So why do I try so hard to be accepted?
When that only leads to me being rejected!
The fact is I'll always be an outcast,
The kid that always gets picked last.
But yet I still try so hard,
Despite just being a discard.
No one can see my pain,
That it's a constant strain,
Or every single scar;
From where I went too far.
Alas I wasn't going to die,
No matter how hard I try.
So I decided to just be me,
As you'll never be judgement free.
There's no point in being fake,
Caring what people think is the mistake!
On a hunt to kill my alter ego
His name is Up
And what goes up must go down
With a slug from a 45
Can't be He's still alive
An axe to the back
But he only counter attack
A pill to slow his thought
But he is tough as iron wrought
Peace from within
To a higher plane
But he fears heights
And stayed behind
And now i live in peace
Me, by my self
standing
alone
searching self
powerfully.
I am
beside myself.
Aside from
myself there’s
no-one
looking
deep within
to know me
intimately.
Finally, I find
myself there
inside of self.
I be …soul, mind,
heart and spirit;
Manifested
poetry.
You really can’t see me
unless you read me.
I had went looking for myself
Searching the places I'd hide
I thought I could ever hear
Her innocent muffled cry
I looked in every room
And behind every looked door
I felt she was waiting on me
Desperately wanting something more
I got lost in my prison
In its walls that twist and turn
The deeper I went in
My skin would start to burn
Cofusion consumed me
Things that's my flesh would crave
Little did I know, I was holding
The shovel that digs my crave
She knew I was coming
And hid from me in that dark place
She didn't want me to see
Her distorted wicked face
Demons now comforted her
For me, she would humbly pray
She wanted me to be at peace
For Grace to free me one day
Gazing upon the stars in the night
This incredible evening filled with moonlight
Though not in this place, I have stood here before
Many times sending thoughts to your door
Can my thoughts reach you?
If I have a thought it has to produce
An electrical synapse that breaks loose
Traveling the deserted vast desert of stars
Energy from my thought's traveling infinitely far
How can I guide them for you to receive
Someway, somehow there must be a key
Locked energy of thoughts freed from flight
Together ,even as distant as opposite ends of light
I'm finding myself
Inside many sanguine moods
Inside many inviting worlds
All in anticipation
Of love
Not for anyone
Or anything
In particular
Just looking deep within
And deep beyond
The surface matters
That clog our anemic hearts
That jail our vapid senses
From welcoming epiphanies,
Ecstasies and
Electric declarations
That await our famished souls
From stoking incitements,
Boisterous joys
And elegant, mystical memories
Burning to lash out
Into indelible grins of
Happiness and you-so-deserve-this
Maybe it's this music
Charged with classical tantrums
And movie-like maudlin exclamations
Maybe it's my past revving up
With ghosts more handsome
And meaningful than ever
Or maybe it's my dreams
After years of desperate confusion,
Fractured esteem and salty embraces
Finally granted permission
To live in vividness
To dance the hues
The conniptions of color
Drooling endlessly from the mouths of our precious ids and willing egos
Summoning self, compassion and sacrifice
To adrenalin's edge
To flesh-removing, death-imbibing levels
This is where love resides
Here is where I visit
Here is where I wish to stay.
(7/2/12)
Being a loner liking my own company
this being my early life was so shy
stammered too made me so insecure
liked my own self but my life was why?
Moving on till the mid 20s where was I?
stay in nights listen to Dory Previn music
not heading in any real direction
made one think and ponder to lose it
Started to write poems so dark, depressive
but pretty rotten stuff, so threw it away
then met my wife to be, life was good
but disaster struck, Jean left our day
Return sad from hospital , what is future?
prepare for bed, mind all over place
but at this point cried out to God
my soul found itself for God was on my case
I had met the living God
His love encaptured me I was caught
God drew my soul to His kingdom
finding myself where I never thought
(This is my life story of my soul finding itself in meeting God where least expecting to but pleased I did.
My first wife Jean passed away during our first year of marriage)
I look back in the abyss of conscious,
I numbered my seven lives as cat.
Each time I fall, I lost part of motions,
I left speechless, breathless and red.
In all those diving and labyrinths
my presence was hiding invisible.
But then I rise up again, charming,
with new truths and principles.
I grew up each time almost dying,
my old body rest in the past.
A new wisdom comes after crying,
a new peace replace all the vast.
And learning the meanings of cycles,
my face got a new look from pain.
Like cat I reborn, a woman alike,
and pure new hard disk in brain.
My life is a spiral of valleys and hills.
I know, I will climb that high mountain,
and reunited I will joyfully feel.
The value I add to my new founding.
I cannot make everyone happy
I can only be my best
I have to take care of myself
I can't be selfish
I have to bring myself to a better place
And stand up and be bold
Against the time for an adventure
And be brave against the world
Take on the new struggles
Breath in life again
A new journey
Start with something that will create the path I haven't seen before
I may be alone in time I will conquer the fears that try to tear me down
There will be a purpose and the structure will find the plan that will lead me in a
new way.