Finding Myself Where I Never Thought

Being a loner liking my own company
this being my early life was so shy
stammered too made me so insecure
liked my own self but my life was why?

Moving on till the mid 20s where was I?
stay in nights listen to Dory Previn music
not heading in any real direction
made one think and ponder to lose it

Started to write poems so dark, depressive
but pretty rotten stuff, so threw it away
then met my wife to be, life was good
but disaster struck, Jean left our day

Return sad from hospital , what is future?
prepare for bed, mind all over place
but at this point cried out to God
my soul found itself for God was on my case

I had met the living God
His love encaptured me I was caught
God drew my soul to His kingdom
finding myself where I never thought

(This is my life story of my soul finding itself in meeting God where least expecting to but pleased I did.
My first wife Jean passed away during our first year of marriage)
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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Proxenos Avatar
July 13, 2020 at 11:49 AM
I'm so sorry Gordon, but I am sure memories that you both made together will never be forgotten, and God then helped you find your wonderful present wife, God is good. Blessings my friend, Jennifer.
Mcconnell Avatar
July 13, 2020 at 12:51 PM
Thanks Jenny for your kind and comforting words, indeed these memories are never forgotten and indeed God is indeed faithful to us. Blessings always,Gordon
Laurie Avatar
July 11, 2020 at 8:49 PM
Hello Gordon … tragedy and trauma can take a soul to very dark places. Thankfully you found solace with your God to have you rise again - nice poem indeed Gordon - Lindsay
Mcconnell Avatar
July 12, 2020 at 3:21 AM
Thanks Lindsay, Glad you liked it. Blessings, Gordon
De Beaulieu Avatar
July 11, 2020 at 6:21 PM
Hello Gordon Mcconnell, your wife Jean passed away too soon. My husband passed away 4 years after marriage. From my 20's I have always prayed to God. My earth father was not good to me growing up and when i reached adulthood. God was my father and gave me strength to get through my ordeal. Enjoy your evening my friend.
De Beaulieu Avatar
July 12, 2020 at 2:32 PM
Hello Gordon McConnell,I wanted you to know what i went through. Yes I am doing okay. I got my new glass today. bifocals today. My other glassess years old. It was time there was a little difference in my eyes. Blessing Darlene
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July 12, 2020 at 3:19 AM
Hi Darlene, Good to hear from you and thanks for your word of testimony of God's goodness to you. Hope you're doing ok, I've been busy, will send soupmail soon, Blessings, Gordon
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July 11, 2020 at 2:25 PM
Ah, so sorry to hear, its heart breaking to lose the love of your life so soon into the promise of marriage, and love. I am so glad you found God in your life. There is no greater comforter in life, then the Lord, who loves us with fullness of mercy and compassion, Hugs and prayers, xo
Mcconnell Avatar
July 11, 2020 at 3:04 PM
Thanks for your comforting words Pixie, indeed our God is our great comforter. Hugs and prayers, Gordonxo
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