Best Sadheart Poems
If only it was me who could win this race.
I stand so very proud with honor.
Along with you in my rightful place.
But I am but this man that you see.
Everything but him.
If only it was me.
A beggar ive become pride no longer does exist.
Counting seconds till my rejection.
With no escape still the foolish heart does resist.
For we are but children when it comes to soul.
Love leaves us blind.
Failure turns the heart as dark and bitter as a piece
of coal.
Head apon pillow waitting for what will be.
Tears from a helpless heart pour.
The mind becomes a prison as i curse if it
were me.
For if it were me I would make it all
right.
Castaway doubt.
Erase every empty night.
My arms are open empty they do remain.
Reflecting apon every word.
As slowly I go insane.
But i do not wish for the sadness
of being free.
Your love is endless passion that cast such warmth.
A fool cries to the wind if only it were me.
Alone for for now driffting apon the sea.
You stayed at the shore.
Cause you never found comfort in someone like me.
The sunset is empty when your alone.
Worthless is the kingdom.
When no one is willing to share the
throne.
I was your clown when in shadows I always
found a way to make your spirts lift.
Ive lost all since of direction.
Since you set me adrift.
Was it only a moment something I cold not see.
the heart bleeds still.
From this prison called a memory.
The storm doesnt effect me out here.
Its not death.
But isolation I fear.
The wind is my only friend the ocean my home.
Searching for that which I cannot have.
On this endless quest I roam.
Drawing a heart inside your hand as
through the sand you sift.
From the comfort of the shore I wonder
do you recall.
Are love you set adrift.
Your pain
Why do I feel your pain still
When I left of my own free will
My mind is heavy with the burdens you build
Yet my heart is still tender
And vulnerable to your every will
When you’re hurting and making bad choices
Your voice still touches my every emotion
How is it that I still feel your pain
Even when I have nothing left to gain
Yes, I love you still
But be with you, I never, ever will.
You had my heart from the very start
And slowly our love began to part
Two became one, until one was none
Off in separate ways for more than 365 days
So how is it that to this day
Your pain still finds its way
Into my life and in my heart where it stays
Lay
My heart is torn to pieces. Really, it's on
life support. So bad that it's aching and this
pain is getting worse.
How could you be so cold? You were once by my
side. How could you give up on us? Can you see
the tears I cry?
I guess now it doesn't matter. I guess it was
all a lie. I guess your word was not a bond.
Your word wasn't good as mine.
Maybe I can hold my head up. Maybe I shouldn't
take it that hard. Maybe this is a blessing in
disguise...I found out the person you truly are.
I was ready to give you the world, then here he
comes along. You fell for the words he told you.
You were mine, but now you're gone.
I could pretend with wishful thinking hoping you'll
come to your sense. But if you did how will I know
you'll only break my heart again?
I'll be alright, but as for now I don't want to face
the world. I can't put it in my mind that you are no
longer my girl.
One last hug
One last kiss
One last look upon your face.
Goodbye love
Goodbye hon
He has now taken my place.
Form:
Reflection in the mirror.
It couldn't be anymore clearer.
I look past this reflection.
Hidden behind the flesh.
A bloody mess.
Can you tell me something?
How can a heart still beat when it's beyond beaten?
I know I can't take this life for granted.
Can't waste a second.
What do you do when your lungs hurt to breathe?
What do you do when every day you wake up to grieve?
Finding solitude only in the form of an alcoholic beverage.
Drinking in this poison that illudes your mind.
Feeling worthless, just wanting to pass the time.
Look at yourself!
You're filling a void, an empty space.
Believing that this allusion in your mind will replace.
Everything you ever loved.
You're destroying yourself.
Nothing can take the place of what's left.
When will you realize that?
I know your heart has been broken.
I know you feel like your love has been stolen.
Looking in the mirror, a broken reflection.
Tired of the lies.
Are you dead or alive?
You're killing yourself everytime you take another drink.
So open your eyes and give yourself time to think.
Don't bury yourself in a constant state of hate.
Put the bottle down, before it's a second too late.
Years and years have been lost to time, thousands of days,
nights, and morrows seen and despised out of immense ache,
The Juliet of my early youth is no more, transformed into a
stranger, yet my love dies not! Though I plead and beg for
her to recall and rekindle the love affair of many moments ago,
She bears news of her plans of wedded bliss to another, news that
I curse my eyes for seeing, ears for hearing, and heart for knowing
is true! With desolate heart and soul, corrupted mind, and disregard
of future as that of a mad man, I fall to my knees and scream,
"God and heaven alike, I defy and deny you both! For no
father of mine would rip asunder my motivation for humanity!
Nor does any paradise remain alive without her presence!"
Be it his decree that I hurt for eternity both alive and deceased
then be it my decree that his life and love never was!
Thus I have become what I am, with no rue nor shame,
For I am not the tender Romeo that once lived and breathed,
No more do I dwell in her heart or mind, and no more do I wish
any essence of a Romeo dwell inside my soul, for my Juliet
is buried and lost in abundances of new days. No day, nor night,
nor morrow is good for me, Sans trust, Sans faith, Sans morality,
Sans love do I wish to have or hold, Dead but still breathing I am,
Condemned to memories and dreams of elated yesteryears,
denying my own will, but loyal to that promise which cannot
be broken by even the cold lifelessness of heartache, I shriek,
and yawp, and yell, and raise my voice beyond the sting of pain, as
I wake each night, bleeding the same sound from my lips,
"Juliet!, Juliet!!, Juliet!!!" Repeated until my eyes are dry and
my voice is drained to the most silent of whispers, I force out,
over tears, over ache, over agony, over all, in one last breath,
"Juliet"
My heart is cold so empty so numb
For 21 years I've been so dumb
To honestly believe true love will last
Now my heart is broken as it lays in a cast
I can't feel I can't laugh I can't love
Only thing my heart can do is pump blood
He wants to fix things but it's much to late
Should have thought about that
Before you dealt me a full plate
He want to work things out but he just don't understand
I don't need him or is so called love to make me a woman
Throwing so many years away I just sit and stare
I gave up on his love I'm tired and I just don't care
Tired of being sad all of the time
Tired of lieing and saying I'm fine
Happily ever after HUM.. Imagine that
I fell out of love and I don't want it back
It's nature's way that in the spring
Emotions make a lamb's soul sing
And so it was my young heart found
That love is not by species bound
Well cruelly spent, did cupid's dart
Pierce deep my foolish woolly heart
A wiser sheep would fain desert
Such love unwise and bound to hurt.
Nor was it then that common sense
Came forth to give me sound defence
No matter how well meant and groomed
My ardent love was clearly doomed.
For fate is fickle, fate unkind
Fate unhinged my young sheep's mind
Though strong inside my true love burns
It never wins my love's returns
So ardent burn my ovine fires
Kindling noble deep desires
But I know what e'er I do
That four legs never yet won two
She lives a life I cannot know
And goes to places sheep don't go
I patient wait and hope she'll pass
But know she'll never share my grass.
I know it's doomed, I know I've lost
My passion most unkindly crossed
For even if she knew my heart
I know our lives must stay apart.
But maybe she might scratch my nose
My love troth's a half-eaten rose
With that held in her lovely hand,
To think on, she might understand.
My life is torn between two worlds
Of now and used to be
But all I ever wanted
Was the world of you and me
Memories of the only love
That I have ever known
It’s hard to hold them in my heart
But hard to let them go
At times I wonder who I am
Where did I go wrong
Why am I so lonely
In a life I don’t belong
I know my heart will never heal
While feeling so much pain
I’ll never find the sunshine
While I’m following the rain
Too late now for miracles
They wouldn’t change a thing
For someone else’s finger
Now wears your wedding ring
But though our song has ended
You still want us to dance
And though I’m still in love with you
My heart can't take the chance
Forever I will miss you
And forever I will cry, but
To find myself again
I know I have to say goodbye..
By Raina Hutchins
You took my love
And used it against me
You destroyed my heart
Or so you thought
Look were i am
Wishing you were there
Waiting like a solider
All the death they see
Ive hardend my soul and my heart
And waited out the storm
My heart isnt a toy for you
But you seem to think that
Look at who im with
Do you see a difrence
Or are they the same person
I will let you figure it out
Who to look at
I see a beautiful girl with a bad decition
Look inside yourself and see the changes
Do you love him or lie to make him feel good
Or do you love someone else
What heart have I to give to thee?
Each day my pain increases
Love is shattered like shards of glass
That's broken into pieces
Now love is stained forever more
I do not know desire
The flame that burned inside my soul
Is now a dying fire
Trust and hope has disappeared
I cannot believe your lies
My heart no longer beats the same
It sees your thin disguise
Your lungs inhale the poisoned truth
It lingers on your breath
The truth you tell is filled with pain
That caused commitment's death
What heart have I to give to thee?
It's now a blackened void
A heart that once was filled with love
Is now forever destroyed
His love is deep and desperate.
He's crying out her name.
She once showed him affection,
but now she causes all his pain.
A broken heart never mended,
and promises never kept,
his mind grew painful and insane
as he laid silently and wept.
You can't pour out your whole heart
into a love based on a lie.
You're simply running in a circle,
if you're the only one who tries.
"We're here for you, call any time."
said all loved ones of his.
But no one else could ease his pain,
this girl he strongly missed.
He tied the rope around his neck
and reached out for her love,
but she rejected once again,
and fate gave him a shove.
Was death really his intention?
Or did it go too far?
No one on this painful earth
will see into his heart.
But he leaves behind a legacy,
a shining little girl.
May she be blessed with a heart that’s pure
in this cruel and painful world.
*Note*
Cory Decker, My man's best friend, and my best friends man, passed away on May 24,
2008, suicide, something none of us ever saw coming! He was a great friend, and a loving
father to his daughter, Jaden, only 5 months old at the time, who is now a happy smiling,
almost 2 year old Princess!
Form:
You have sent me your elegant portrait
Saying it will fill the void in my life
Not realizing that it will further frustrate
And cut my heart like a blade of knife
I tried to talk to it, it wouldn’t answer
I tried to kiss it; its lips were cold like ice
Ignoring my frailty and heart’s seeded cancer
Its locks unfurl nor roses of cheeks entice
Your colors it wears nor ravishing perfume
It neither cheers nor languishing heart console
My love! Was it so difficult to presume!
An image only wasn’t my craving’s goal
Can an image respond to an earnest embrace?
Can it feel ones fondness, ones caress
My kisses don’t change the color of face
On my chest it doesn’t spread its tress
Its eager fingers do not comb my hair
It doesn’t seek the coziness of my arms
It comforts my anguish nor my despair
It doesn’t heal my afflictions; it only harms
I am craving for you, my love, not an image
Bird of life may seek freedom from body’s cage
To know how I feel
In that moment I cried
I doubt my heart
Is seeing the truth
My mind is now trying to rule
A wall is built I try and fight the demensions
My past has taught me
A silence of voice not heard
Its not true to yourself
A pain that I do not understand
I feel lost in no mans land
A smile that crowned my smile
Has gone I speak a thousand times in mind
The walls hear my thoughts
The floor holds my tiredness
A shadow sweeps across my dreams
My feelings were not counted
Just like the past was knocking at my door
Someone else that now says when and how and why
I run inside as I see what could now be
My heart could be torn inside to out
You do not even notice the effect on me
Like china broken I mend myself
We will see it to the end
As I know how I feel....
Nightmares, shame, and despair---
You don't go anywhere.
All alone in your mind
even with someone by your side.
You think, "Why can't everyone just leave me alone?"
You thought the hint would be cutting off the phone.
But everyone wants you to release your cares.
The next thing you do is frown and ask, "Where?"
Stinkin' thinkin' is what your mom calls it.
Bad thoughts falling down a bottomless pit.
You wake up hoping those feelings disappear;
but, as usual they end up going nowhere.
You can't seem to get rid of the pain
and in your heart an eternal rain.
No one really knows how you feel
and you have friends that always ask, "What the deal?"
But tomorrow always comes.
Bad days for you, but good for some.
Disparaging words flow in and out of your head.
You're alive but you're living like you're dead!
They're like cobwebs in your mind
that you can't seen to bind.
The hurt is always there
which has always been your fear.
You don't see the destruction your thoughts have created.
Yet relationships were destroyed with the people you've dated.
You allowed your pain to take away time.
Your anger towards others has become the real crime.
It all boils down to that one thing in your past.
A terrible time that from your mind you've yet to cast.
The pain from the physical and spiritual rape
that rolled around in your head like an old videotape.
The abuser was like a father to you
and when it first happened there was nothing you could do.
You felt trapped like you could go nowhere.
His power over you was to instill that fear.
The "fear" is what's wrong
and you must discover another heart song.
Up to this point life hasn't been the best.
Maybe letting go of this is the next test.
There has always been someone that has loved you.
Someone who is capable of taking you through.
He's a Friend that sticks closer than a brother,
Jesus--- a Savior like no other!
If you don't give it to Him so you can thrive
you will plummet to the depths and never survive.