Fresh in mind
A lightening bolt in me
But safer, kinder
We slipped off conformity
In triggers of encrypted chemicals
No slap-on labels
No pull to sticky corrections
No show of egos unveiling
Our mismatched skills did not get in the way
We wooed like outfielders catching
Off balance when separated
Ignoring sweet word stumbles
Joyful together,
sharing each other's detours
Our shadows weaved to one another
leaning, like twin towers
till issues snapped at our heels
a re-evaluation
unfortunate contusion
apply another bandaid
de-stabilizing
pressure points
a catered
drift
to others.
Brazen memories -
for the love that precedes the end of love
still stirs.
Poem revised: September 15th. 2020
What do you do when frustration threatens to destabilise?
I tend to look for a chocolate bar of a decent size,
And wait for a new strategy to materialise.
My recent bout of frustration,
Is due to my failure to convince others there is a situation,
That requires them to do a re-evaluation.
It is time to stop saying wow,
And that time is now,
For priorities to become the mainstay of any show.
Am I the only one with my feet planted on the ground,
When it comes to spending millions on a children's playground,
If there is no money for housing the homeless to be found.
Can nobody else feel the winds of change,
Or hear the waves that now come in a larger range,
Likely to come ashore at any moment and our lives re-arrange.
What do you do when there is no chocolate bar close at hand?
And a new strategy in your lap does not land,
That is when Faith may be the only thing left on which to stand.
IF ONLY I COULD GO BACK AND TAKE A SECOND LOOK AT THE CHOICES I MADE.
FIGHTING, SCREAMING WANTING MY WAY DIDN'T CARE WHO I HURT OR WHAT IT MIGHT DO
TO ME.
I WAS SELFISH AND I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT NOTHING OR NOBODY I HAD A NASTY ATTITIUDE.
MY MOUTH WAS ON A RAMPAGE I WAS USING IT TO ALL THE ADVANTAGES I COULD.
NO MATTER WHAT I THOUGHT OF ONLY MYSELF AND MY OWN FEELINGS THE WAY I TREATED
MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS.
I HAVE PUSHED THEM AWAY I HAVE DESERTED THEM I HAVE GONE TO THE EXTREME IF ONLY I
COULD HAVE THEM BACK.
I TOOK THEM FOR GRANTED I TURN THE ICE COLD SHOULDER ON THEM BUT NOW I AM
EXPERIENCING THEIR PAIN.
FROM PEOPLE WHO COULD CARE LESS ABOUT MY WELL BEING WHO WOULDN'T CARE IF I
DIED TOMORROW.
I SEE WHERE I HAVE MESSED UP THE SUN IS SETTING ON MY SKY AND IT IS DARK AND
GLOOMY.
THE CLOUDS ARE GATHERING TO CREATE A SHOWER FROM THE SKY.
THE TEARS ARE STREAMING DOWN MY FACE I CANNOT GO ON THIS WAY.
I NEED RESTORATION I NEED RE-EVALUATION.
TO RESTORE WHAT HAS BEEN TAKEN AWAY FROM ME.