A pool of blood drying
on the floor
A broken vase
that was once full of love
Lillys dying
on the ground
Its sober,
living that's sometimes
perplexing.
Even more on
nights like this
the depression always wins
again and again
this time by slit wrists.
In this pool of blood...I lie
the same pool of blood that was once running thru my veins-
causin' me so much suffering...so much pain
...with this tainted blood, my life was strained
...in this pool of blood, I soak
...this pool of blood...troubles in my life evoked
in this pool of blood...I wish I'd drink and choke
this pool of blood...that I slit my wrist
...and even thought about my throat
in this pool of blood...I hope they find me
...this pool of blood, so dark red and thick...defines me
tainted blood running thru my veins-
I've caused so much suffering...so much pain
...so in this pool of blood I lie
mama don't you scream, daddy don't you cry
...cause in this pool of blood...is where I chose to say
goodbye.
Frantic, cleanliness, cleanliness
Blood is thicker than water
The blood is thicker, clotting, clotting
The bandages and duct tape
Plaster of Paris, a perfect cast
Without a script, no stage left
No stage right, the operating theatre
The scalpel caught a glimpse of light
Asleep, breathing, breathing
The magic milk, intravenously
The milk medication, choking, choking
The bed is stained with crimson paint
Like a miscarriage, waking to find
The foot of the bed, a flame landscape
Of deep shades of dark, bruised white
Flowing intravenously, off to sleep
Feeling self averted in this silence
I’ll take hold of anything that helps me deny
Dreaming that I’m free of this
I’ll smile as I’m reaching bliss
But something still inside me tells me why
I’m seeing death as I am thrown upon it
Down and out I stare as I return
People with their bloody eyes
Dying hearts that only lie
Just give me something that will make this burn
Self assured lies
Paralyse
Repeating cries
Until I die
If I pull myself and catch up with expectance
I know that I must swim under the pool
Bloody rivers, veins of earth
Hold my breath and make it worse
But in the end I know that this will make me cool
Self assured mind
I am blind
Circles I find
I’m here until I die
In a world where angels voices can not sing
A world where only devils ever win
Justifying feared states
Dependence falls upon our hate
I can never stand in peace when I live in sin