Not for long I will go loving you… God knows it has to stop it hurts too much…. maybe then you will see how painful it can be to be alone… having no one loving you with everything they have… having no one to hug, to call when you are sad.
But for now I’m still hoping of the perfect ending that never comes, dreaming that you
will hold my hand, wake me up with a kiss that will make the day feel perfect.
The sun is shining the clouds are so white the sky so blue and I am smiling like
there is nothing else that matters…. Like I finally got my happy ending….
But then you are gone and I’m alone sitting in the dark trying to understand a life that
makes no sense looking for answers, calling old flames to try to cover the pain, looking
for a hug in the wrong arms some compassion for this broken heart… its broken again,
breaks easily it’s been some many times and some many pieces are missing… and I don’t
seem to ever learn that I can’t play around with my heart… I’m just not that strong. I
can’t kiss and forget….
Tears fall warm on my skin.
As I think about you leaving again.
I know we’ve been here a thousand times before.
But this time it hurts so much more.
Feels like I am eternally saying good-bye.
You whisper to me “Darlin don’t cry.”
Standing here I your arms, broken inside.
You seen the tears I had meant to hide.
Clinging to you, as if life itself was slipping away.
Because this time you won’t be back tomorrow or the next day.
In fact, I’d almost swear, your not coming back at all.
And so begins the down fall.
Because good bye is not the hardest part,
But only the beginning of the damage to the heart.
And the last kiss still burns on my skin,
Because I know I’ll never taste your kiss again.
Sarah D Comstock
1/19/2000
The water drowns,
the skin bruises,
the eyes hide,
the kiss kills.
Weaving in and out
stitching myself up,
trying to fix myself
stitching the wounds left.
The scarring will last forever
yet you play victim,
I'm falling for us both
this is the only defense I'm left.
The fire burns,
the mind sleeps,
the veins bleeds,
the kiss kills.
I could drive and drive,
I could drive for miles.
And I would never find,
Someone to make me smile.
Like you do, yes you do,
You can make me smile.
Smile all the time,
Not for a little while.
I never learned to love,
Till you came along.
And now we really know,
Here is where you belong.
With me, yes with me,
Safe in my arms.
I'll never let you go,
You will come to no harm.
Soon you can return,
Back in my embrace.
I'll cherish the moment,
I can look at your face.
And kiss you, yes kiss you,
To create that spark.
We were meant to be,
I know it deep in my heart!
When I see you,
I feel shot.
When I touch you,
I get hot.
When I kiss you,
I feel high.
When I love you,
I will fly.
When you see me,
You stare back.
When you touch me,
Things go black.
When you kiss me,
On my face.
When you touch me,
Our hearts race.
Then we become one,
Of the same thing.
And we then know,
We are meant to be.
There has been many sunny days;
Many joys my heart has known.
Now I’m stuck in long nights,
As I try to sleep alone.
Everything you used to say,
Was true and makes me cry.
You’d say, “You’ll never find a love,
Who’s been half so true as I! ”
The last photograph we took,
Still hangs along the hall.
And when I want to kiss your lips,
I have to kiss the picture on the wall.
How I miss you dearly,
And I suffer many nights of grief.
I’m waiting for your call,
‘Tis my saddened heart’s relief.