Long Choke back Poems

A Sister's Love

A river of tears down my cheeks they roll
all in an effort to clear my mind and cleanse my soul.
Thoughts of my sister and the fight she is in;
the faith, strength, and determination she needs...

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Old Friends

For Brenda...


I'd been thinking 'bout a show we did together,
Get a call out of the blue,
You're in town, just passing through,
Maybe we could meet up later if I'm free.
You say the name of your hotel,
Yes,...

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Our Las Vegas Wedding

Our Las Vegas Wedding ( For My Love)

As our feet finally touch down on safe terra firma
Thoughts of our marriage could not be further
Jet lagged and weary
In a strange foreign land
From our port hole window
Bright...

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Crash

I  pace. Tension etching lines upon my face
How much longer must I wait?  
The clock ticks glumly in the hall
Time passes slowly, no quickly
Oh I don't know
My world moves in slow motion
Waiting for...

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Sugar Cookie

Sitting here again. Eyes closed.
You? You’re here, never far.

Table for two, linen dressed in floral patterns bringing out your eyes.
Coffee for me. Tea and cookie for you. 

Holding your hand I reluctantly let go.

Two swirls...

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Today I Cried

The words were like a thousand needles to my heart
My soul crumbled and bled as my composure fell apart
I tried to hold my head high and choke back all the pain
But my pride became a...

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It's Not a Way Out...

The world is clawing at the window,
If it's unlocked then you've nothing to fear,
Crawl round the corner and catch your breath,
Won't be long before you start to disappear,

It's too late, much too late,
So surrender as...

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Fate

It's NOT true!
there is NO dagger
behind my back...

step closer
i have something
i want to give to you

Can't you see the tears
that i secretly choke back
as you introduce me
to 
reality....

You said...
i could be, "anything"
i wanted to be
you...

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Corruption of the Body Cancer

With shaking legs and trembling hands 
I hesitant to know if for me my time will soon be at hand

Yes, the news is bad as I choke back a sob to bashful and silent
I hear...

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Thoughts of Some Little Things That Molded My Mind

skipping joyfully to a snowflake dream tonight
i am five years old again....maybe six
Santa Claus is causing me an obviously sleepless night, but i'm smiling

the beach is so dead it is alive
though the breeze is relentlessly...

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Dead curtains hold still,
Even when the wind blows..
The pain is white noise in the back ground, yet you kill.
Even when the time slows..
Hold your breath and try to stop breathing,
Stay busy while trying to act...

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Dire

Dead curtains hold still,
Even when the wind blows..
The pain is white noise in the back ground, yet you kill.
Even when the time slows..
Hold your breath and try to stop breathing,
Stay busy while trying to act...

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I Need You

As I sit here I choke back my tears
        cause I need to know you care
      I'm hanging onto the ropes of hope
...

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The Empty Generation

We fill ourselves up with artificial love
Inviting momentary lust in to fill the void
We trick ourselves into thinking this is what dreams are made of

We crawl into these alluring bed of lies
All the while losing...

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Twilight Is Calling (Tears Are For the Dead)

At one time I was the apple of his eye
But in a moment in the hospital he lie
I just 6, entered, and could only cry
He had changed so much since the last time
Twilight was calling...

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Ballad of a Scandal

Now let's begin
This tale I'll spin
Took it on the chin 
Never thought I'd win

Honeysuckle 
Boot belt buckle
Scraped up knuckle
Raspy chuckle

Kicked my ass 
Soft green grass
Still I sass
This too shall pass

Knew I'd lose 
It was no...

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Goodbye

Eyes irrigated face flush, heart hurting, throat throbbing
Throat throbbing… 
My throat ached as if it had been crushed by the suffocating grip of regret as it tried to choke back the words I wanted to...

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Banter In the Bedroom

The cares of the world waft away like
the vague images of a forgotten dream  
when he climbs into bed beside me.  

And my comfort is found in the warmth 
of a slight up-curved...

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Dream or Nightmare

After many years, it is still not done
I know what happens, but nevertheless
I still feel terror of knowing they come
And I tremble with fear and breathlessness

Into a nightmare disguised as a dream
Were a monster lurks...

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Day Night

choke back fright dark and dusty,
flight plan a little rusty,
hope for a ride have fun, 
then run, and hide, 
twinkle twinkle distant dear

insecure considering all that's been said,
up for interpretation from a rocket bed,
sparkly conjecture,...

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A Little Bird Sings

\ All-in-all the morning 
bird's still sing 
and i have my life 
my life how time steals 
some joy all the while 

i choke back
the largest tears

oh boy let's drown again
in this river i'm crying
again

it's...

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When Freedom Is But a Dream

As I gaze at the pale blue sky
I can't help but wonder why
   Whenever we wish for something the most
   This is what becomes ever hopelessly lost.
    ...

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The Aftermath of the Other Woman

Is this to be left unsaid?
Shall I swallow all my RAGE?
Leave my bitterness for dead
And choke back my honest words
Just to save your peace of mind
Just to stay and keep you mine

Will you condemn me...

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Vile Creature

You're a creature so vile.
At your mere sight
I have to choke back the bile.

I'm getting wise to your gimmick,
You're astride with every step of mine.
Everything I do you mimic;
You're nothing more then an idiot pantomime.

When...

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Gathering Stones

It is dreadfully bitter
The taste of my imprudence

A brackish reminder

Bubbling acrid froth
Impossible
To choke back
Aftershocks heave and pitch my 
Shaky foundation

Acid courses over

	My
	Dreams

Destroying hope of
Amaranthine love

The brine erodes each stone
So well
Etches them with its indifferent regard
Leaving...

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