Best Headedness Poems
Our love continued to grow as the warm gaze of summer came forth, shinning light on the skeletons we’d became, bodies ravaged from the merciless vulture that was and is the winter. No rays from the sunlight, so brilliant they hurt my eyes, could provide the warmth her love provided. The bones that tried to cut through my skin were the love-marks of our late night romps, the constant light-headedness I took for euphoric ecstasy, was really my body dying.
In the dawning light of the summer…I began to see what I had become. What both she and I had done. I was no longer a girl, I was no longer a human being. I was a breath of bones, so thin you had to squint one eye and shut the other to notice me. “What have I done?” I screamed to myself as I stared at what use to be a body in the length of a one-way mirror. She came to me then, tried to tempt me back into her arms, but I no longer saw the beauty in her skeletal form. I could only see how her love had raped and pillaged me. And so I turned her away and said goodbye…
Emotions up and down,
spinning out of control,
light headedness,
fuzziness,
all of a dither,
my mind can't deliver,
such emotive thoughts.
Try to shut away in a box in my head,
they are not in charge of me,
I am in charge of them,
keeping busy is the answer,
for a mediocre happy ever after,
pretty thoughts of a life after,
but for now, living for the day I can live the life i'm after.
I’ve seen the dawn above a mountain
Lights up like a child with blue eyes.
I’ve seen the dawn-
I’ve seen the dawn where life well’s up endlessly.
With the beauty of old age and gray headedness,
I can tell the tale of a sunrise and sunset
I am an old lady and wise with times
I’ve challenge many difficulties and come alive
Through the passage of times and seasons,
I can only laugh against the pain.
I know the languages of heartbreaks, panics, struggles and troubles.
I’ve tasted the lost of children, mansions, passions and visions.
I’ve seen great kingdoms rise and watch them helplessly run down through the valley of no return.
I am an old lady now; an old lady with worth of experience
I’ve seen the dawn above a mountain
Lights up like a child with blue eyes.
I’ve seen the dawn-
I’ve seen the dawn where live wells up endlessly.
Ability to decipher
Beauty beyond imagination
Charismatic and cool headedness of yours
Dedication to things you do
Elephantic nature of your imagination
Foundation of your beauty that is natural
Gorgeousness of your physique
Happiness that comes with your company
Intellectual sagacity of yours that is incomparable
Jack of all trade master of all that you are
Knowledge of your profession you display that amazes me
Loving you is so going to be amazing
Most especially,
Nurse in the making that you are
Of which you are bound to be caring
Please listen to your heart and pick the clarion call of my heart
Queuing is not my thing
Religion might want to serve as an obstacle
Surely my heart beats for you
Truly I am in love with you
Understanding you is my heart desire
Valentines I want to celebrate with you
With you I believe Love will be fun
Xylophone I will make sure is played at our dates
Your company I want to crave for
Zoning you in my love city I want to do
For you are my heart desire.
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February 18 Relationship to God Bible Meditations Based on Deuteronomy 1-4
Key Verse– Deuteronomy 1:5-6 On this side Jordan, in the land of Moab, began Moses to declare this law, saying, The LORD our God spake unto us in Horeb, saying, Ye have dwelt long enough in this mount.
LORD GOD, YOU ARE MY LAW GIVER
Lord God, You are my law Giver, dwelling in my heart
Thank You for guiding me in my journey right from the start
While setting me in Your plan to do my entrusted part
Bearing me midst burden, protecting me from evil dart.
Lord God, You are my law Giver, discerning my discouragement
Thank You for searching me out from my sinful predicament
While settling me within Your revival-fulfillment
Building me up in Your abode’s contentment.
Lord God, You are my law Giver, directing my way
Thank You for providing for me every day
While strengthening me by Your compassion as I pray
Bringing me to Your victorious success-ray.
Lord God, You are my law Giver, defeating my anguish
Thank You for conquering me and my fears You extinguish
While melting me of my hard-headedness when in pride I languish
Bracing me with Your deliverance my soul gratefully distinguish.
Lord God, You are my law Giver, defending my testimony’s righteousness
Thank You for correcting me of my stubbornness
While fencing me around Your sanctifying holiness
Bending me to bow down before Your majestic gloriousness.
Lord God, You are my law Giver, defying my ignorance and folly
Thank You for teaching me Your Word, perfect constantly
While enlightening me with Your truth faithfully
Blessing me to learn from Your principles I can apply wisely.
Lord God, You are my law Giver, dwelling my heart for joyous worship
Thank You for directing me toward Your sweet fellowship
While showing me Your wonders midst Your omnipotent kingship
Being with me by Your loving presence and caring friendship.
February 18, 2023
February 1 Relationship to God Bible Meditations Based on Leviticus 4-6
Key Verse – Leviticus 4:2 Speak unto the children of Israel, saying, If a soul shall sin through ignorance against any of the commandments of the LORD concerning things which ought not to be done, and shall do against any of them.
LORD GOD, YOU ARE MY IGNORANCE SUBDUER
Lord God, You are my ignorance Subduer through Your commandment
Thank You for anointing me with Your Word empowerment
So that I can learn along my ministry-involvement
With compassion for prayer-led achievement.
Lord God, You are my ignorance Subduer through Your wisdom’s nurturing
Thank You for teaching me the essence of sacrifices’ peace-offering
So that I can yield myself to You as a cleansed vessel with Your covering
With Your holiness, not guilty of grumbling and murmuring.
Lord God, You are my ignorance Subduer through Your caring admonition
Thank You letting me gain from Your knowledge of guided application
So that I can submit to You my hard-headedness and proud disposition
With Your correction along timely counsel and exhortation.
Lord God, You are my ignorance Subduer through Your sovereign authority
Thank You for hiding me from miseries caused by uncertainty
So that I can exercise prudence, neglecting never-entrusted duty
With Your assurance to forgive my confessed iniquity.
Lord God, You are my ignorance Subduer through Your consistent reminders
Thank You for touching me to see Your presence against vision-blinders
So that I can make amends for my lack of faith among stalwart defenders
With Your discernment forbidding me to walk with law-offenders.
Lord God, You are my ignorance Subduer through Your truth-braced fellowship
Thank You for directing me from falsity of deceitful leadership
So that I can depart against flattering friendship
With Your instruction for jubilant worship.
Lord God, You are my ignorance Subduer through Your vibrant righteousness
Thank You for carrying me forth to Your altar of willingness
So that I can abide in Your faithful graciousness
With Your refreshing comfort and loving kindness.
February 1, 2023
June 29 Scripture Meditations Based on Proverbs 22
Key Verse – Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
MY GOD, THANK YOU FOR TRAINING ME
Thank You for training me with Your loving favour
Despite my weakness in finishing an endeavour
For me to strive toward perfection’s fervour
Ever grateful for Your skillful molding savour.
Thank You for training me with Your granted prudence
Despite my innocence when faced with a seeming coincidence
For me to choose permanence in Your perfect will’s residence
Ever dependent on Your wise providence.
Thank You for training me with Your ruling authority
Despite my hard-headedness that’s devoid of humility
For me to obey Your instruction’s certainty
Ever submissive to Your majestic sovereignty.
Thank You for training me with Your preserving knowledge
Despite my education in a secular college
For me to understand Your plan I worshipfully acknowledge
Ever studious by Your offered learning privilege.
Thank You for training me with Your driving grace
Despite my weariness along the Christian race
For me to persevere with Your strength’s brace
Ever ardent through Your encouraging commendation-praise.
Thank You for training me with Your honourable standard
Despite my unworthiness as a called steward
For me to work well although it is rigorously hard
Ever diligent along Your excellent regard.
June 29, 2022
What do I feel like writing?
Oh yeah, I am going to write about special feeling called love
Is it love?
You don’t know what to call it
But you know that you are happy when you see that person
You eyes lit up like a firecracker
You tummy is dancing a little dance
All butterflies are flying circling your inside
You barely breathe
You hold your breath without you knowing it
Your stomach feels extremely tight
What is up?
Are you not in control of your body?
Ha, not by the slightest
You feel rushes of giddiness
For no reason
Oh yeah
You are totally in a floated state
Butterflies all around
And the funny thing is
It goes on forever
It won’t stop
You may have to call a paramedic
For a remedy cure
If there is one
A state of light-headedness
Jovial and oblivion
To things around you
Ahh you’d better not be driving
You can hardly manage yourself
Okay I think I barely touch the surface
But you know I am trying
I'm barely able to handle it
I am hyperventilating
And I like it, lol
To limit one's intelligence,
only to gain level headedness.
to question one's pride,
only to hide what is unright.
N'sync with insanity,
time only borrowed by your intellect.
Mere hints of suggestions and gestures,
of your world that is not too sure.
lies to conceal the freak in you:
bounded by the seclusion and anger,
across a horizon of shame and guilt,
a crossroad of good and evil,
never turning back on my own thoughts,
trying not to loose myself on a loosing streak,
fear of ending up on a dead end road.
trying to convince myself:
I'm still headed straight to the right direction!
October 10 Praises to God Bible Meditations Based on Matthew 21-22
Key Verse – Matthew 21:21-22 Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done. And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.
PRAISE BE TO GOD FOR EXHORTING US
TO HAVE FAITH IN HIM
Praise be to God for exhorting us to have faith in Him,
trusting sincerely His:
Comfort with His care
Cleansing against curses
Compassion and clemency
Correction for our consecration
Charity midst chastisements in our conversion
Matthew 21:22 Praise be to the Lord for teaching us
to pray, believing that we shall receive through His:
Omnipresence around His will
Omniscience, asserting His wisdom
Omnipotence according to His Word
Opportunities, abounding wondrously
Offered optimizations for outreaching worthily
Matthew 22:18 Praise be to the Saviour Who
perceives our wickedness and checks our:
Hypocrisy, hiding our helplessness
Haughtiness, hampering humble handling
Half-heartedness, heralding our heathenism
Hard-headedness, hoisting harrowing haphazardness
Hopelessness, hitting heavenly holiness with hindering holes. Amen!
October 10, 2024
JOURNEY
I’m approaching seventy next month,
I can say my life journey is not an easy one.
However, I can declare that I did not astray
doing destructive behaviors to keep on going.
I pretty much stayed grounded, principled;
but with some kind of rebelliousness and
hard headedness that did not affect others,
except yours truly having hard circumstances.
With my life’s difficulties also came blessings.
I am blessed with life for I was a blue baby,
not breathing when I was born at home with
no incubator; but an intellectual midwife.
She recommended that I breathe the steam of
eucalyptus leaves continuously for thirty days.
I did survive, although given by my mother
without my father’s knowledge to her sister.
Not only did she give me, she was indifferent
to me that made me questioned life, love,
family and discerned in early age, life is unfair.
Yet, I was blessed with my aunt’s true love.
Too many adversities I had to go through in my
married life, an early marriage ending abruptly
with an abusive husband and another marriage
for many years that ended because of alcoholism.
Becoming a single parent and supporting my
children on my own and running the household.
I do consider myself a blessed woman and very
grateful having my children and raising them.
I was discriminated at work for being a woman,
my race and having English as my second language.
I was blessed with tenacity, perseverance and
intelligence to develop skills and gain knowledge.
I had struggled many times in my life journey
and I found when I resist, the harder the struggle
and when I accept, the calmer life gets and the
more appreciative I become and see my blessings.
9/11/21 "J" Contest, New of Old Poetry
Constance La France
( SILENCE )
As darkness nears
I feel the bitter air
Invade my lungs.
My breathing labors
As the night's chill
Sucks the life out of me.
Slowly, I drift away
Light-headedness fills my soul
My every move a mechanical dream.
I am fading fast
Fading into a world of blackness
A world of death.
Haunting laughter echoes in my ears
Ringing louder, louder still
I cover my ears - the pain too intense.
I let out a scream,
Panicked and shrill,
But the silence engulfed in and nobody heard.
(c) Jasmine Paul 11-17-2014
Smooth talker he can be but genuine he is
Talented more than any other I know
Endured more than any child should have to ever endure
Vexed he is because all he wants to do is come home
Ever ready to defend his family more important his mother
Needs to know that he is loved beyond all imaginings
Makes mistakes but can learn his lesson much more easily than others now
Imaginative and inventive, he can always think his way out of anything
Creativity has gotten through where nothing else has
Hot headedness he has learned to control...to a point
Always brings special joy to me as he is my son
Every day I want him back home where he truly belongs
Lost without my young man here...he is truly missed and loved
July 24 Scripture Meditations Based on Isaiah 53-55
Key Verse – Isaiah 54:14 In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression, for thou shalt not fear: and from terror, for it shall not come near thee.
MY GOD, THANK YOU FOR ESTABLISHING ME
Thank You for establishing me in Your righteous holiness
While forgiving my confessed sinfulness
Even if I struggle in my hard-headedness
To uphold me by Your sanctification’s fruitfulness.
Thank You for establishing me in Your gracious bounty
While meeting my oppressive scarcity
Even if I complain in my discontentment-filled vanity
To build me up by Your satisfaction’s entirety.
Thank You for establishing me in Your secured assurance
While healing my afflicted appearance
Even if I hide in my distressed endurance
To restore me by Your love’s deliverance.
Thank You for establishing me in Your wise direction
While molding my acknowledged imperfection
Even if I react in my humanistic disposition
To teach me by Your Word’s instruction.
Thank You for establishing me in Your compassionate fervency
While strengthening my tired persistency
Even if I waver in my selfish complacency
To reach me out by Your kindness’ mercy.
Thank You for establishing me in Your truthful settlement
While anchoring my desired upliftment
Even if I falter in my vowed commitment
To guide me by Your leadership’s involvement.
Thank You for establishing me in Your church ministry
While working in my diligent service-entry
Even if I faint in my chosen industry
To assist me by Your might’s infantry.
July 24, 2022
January 25 Relationship to God Bible Meditations Based on Exodus 23-25
Key Verse – Exodus 23:1 Thou shalt not raise a false report…
LORD GOD, YOU ARE MY REPORT ASSESSOR
Lord God, You are my report Assessor,
checking my unrighteousness
Thank You for forgiving me from going astray in my stubbornness
I repent from declining to follow You because of worldliness…
Please transform my heart for my peaceful joyousness.
Lord God, You are my report Assessor,
correcting my perversion
Thank You for helping me to be circumspect by Your instruction
I repent from welcoming ungodly thoughts for my soul oppression…
Please turn my fruitlessness into good works’ production.
Lord God, You are my report Assessor, curtailing my labor’s impurity
Thank You for pardoning me of my disobedience and iniquity
I repent from offering sacrifices with dishonesty…
Please take my gratefulness for Your prepared blessings’ bounty.
Lord God, You are my report Assessor,
calling for my attention constantly
Thank You for working in me with Your hand graciously
I repent from rising up late and building an altar haphazardly…
Please train my personality in fulfilling Your plan submissively.
Lord God, You are my report Assessor,
commanding my life toward service-mount
Thank You for bringing me to Your loving fellowship no one can surmount
I repent from staying in the wrong abode lacking sustaining fount…
Please teach my mind to learn doctrines of biblical account.
Lord God, You are my report Assessor,
caring for my testimony’s influence
Thank You for setting me before Your compassion’s iridescence
I repent from neglecting the length, breadth and height of Your presence…
Please tame my hard-headedness by Your mercy’s affluence.
Lord God, You are my report Assessor,
communing with my spirit by Your Word
Thank You for shaping me through Your grace You alone can afford
I repent from putting off my light by putting down Your sword…
Please test my faith to be refined based on Your record.
January 25, 2023