Suicide Abc Poems

i write stories
about my pain
using that as a
way to escape
my low in order
to reach my highest point,
everyday i was
hungry for success
but procrastination was
added on with...

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If there is no sickness
If no accident occur
If no one murders anybody
If one doesn't commit suicide
How long a man lives
I ask

If one goes to church...

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A moment away from losing it
Being strong isn't easy
Crazy thoughts running through my head
Death is a regular one
Enough pain has been had
For now, I'm suffering
Going...

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Broken bones, arthritis, going under the knife
I been through a lot of pain on my life
But physical pain I can handle it’s almost something I...

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Surrounded by people but feeling alone
Wearing a smile not really my own
Not caring if I live or I die
Wake up each morning ad wondering why
Thinking...

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Dash dot dot (D)
my heart pours out into a puddle of sludge
its been overused 
overly abused
everything gone

dot (E)
the last thing I remember is you all...

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My body, my possession have be violated and stripped away from me,
A story that I kept locked inside, in the deepest part of me,
Men and...

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My darkened memories plague inside my head
Scratching and tearing to awake my dread
I cower and cry in fear of death
Only to realize I waste my...

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I dreamt of running around the meadows,
Full of glee my heart is chanting
As  I rest my head above my elbow
Shit memories that are haunting

Those...

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I lay awake at night 
Staring at my wrists 
Thinking with a blade that they must be kissed.
I reach for my phone to tell my...

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This is a moment of truth
A time to be set free 
From the thoughts that resides in me
Am tired of crying myself to sleep 
For...

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Sitting in a corner ,
All alone,
On my own, 
Tryna get myself together,
But dam this depression  doesnt get better.

I break down an cry,
Half of the...

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Who are you?

I don’t know who you are

I used to.

You started this war.

This war in my head.

The voices just won’t go away.

I need to close...

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The collors go by
Flashing yellow, red and green
I suck in my breath
As I watch his death
It all happens so quickly 
In the middle of the...

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"In the days of misery 
My tear drops are warm and weary
Hope you hear me, I've suffered from Dsthymic depression
Sadness kept inside, can we ride
In...

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I stand here,
Here surrounded by the figures who love me, the ones who remind me of the greatness in my future.
But do you know that...

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Why is all i can remember about you pain, and loathe, more than joy and love?
You never wanted me happy, yet my misery created your...

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Its been 8 years now and not a day goes by,
That you dont cross my mind... 
In flashbacks or in a way,,... a mind that...

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Everything seems better when I am in my own world 
Everything is better when there is no one there
Once when I had someone 
When I...

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Salvation of a Satanist

When will I actually be me?
I hide behind so many masks
Afraid that someone will see
And not like what they will find

I am...

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