It Took Over Me

Poem: It Took Over Me By: Ashley Eureeka Jones True Events I’m in the dark place Up can’t sleep To many thoughts going through my head Feeling depressed just want to die Crying and Crying as the tears rolled down my face I feel so empty inside, I feel alone, no one cares, But I know that I’m strong, every day fighting this illness Trying to reach out I’m sitting here hurting all I see is the colors red and black Hearing voices Head hurts, hands shaking, sweating, breathing heavily I’m breaking down, lost don’t know which direction to go Mhmmmm…. I’m ready to take my life, sitting in the car at the park I look over seen my prescription I grab the bottle of pills shaking not realizing what I’m doing At this moment this illness has taken over me completely I put the pill bottle to my mouth, swallowed, drowned with tears Feeling less of a person, confuse, worthless What have I done to myself? Coughing and coughing the pills are coming back up I just wanted to die, to feel numb at that time To feel no pain, no hurt The pills are all on floor of my car that came out of my mouth I said to my self why if I was gone it will be a better place No one will have to worry about me Still in this dark place right now Don’t know what am I saying or doing at this moment Shaking my head side to side You think I’m crazy These voices are still ringing in my head They want to hurt me It’s hard to deal with these things, when you don’t have support It has taken over me completely Where is everyone that says they love me Still wishing the pills would have stayed down in my stomach But as I realize it was a blessing, that God was there with me to protect me I got another chance at life even when I was at my worst God was there in, he has kept me It Took Over me but it didn’t take my life I still have my strength in pride….