Ashley Jones Poet ABC

It Took Over Me

Poem: It Took Over Me 
By: Ashley Eureeka Jones 
True Events 


I’m in the dark place
Up can’t sleep
To many thoughts going through my head 
Feeling depressed just want to die
Crying and Crying as the tears rolled down my face 
I feel so empty inside, I feel alone, no one cares,
But I know that I’m strong, every day fighting this illness
Trying to reach out 
I’m sitting here hurting all I see is the colors red and black
Hearing voices 
Head hurts, hands shaking, sweating, breathing heavily
I’m breaking down, lost don’t know which direction to go
Mhmmmm…. I’m ready to take my life, sitting in the car at the park
I look over seen my prescription 
I grab the bottle of pills shaking not realizing what I’m doing
At this moment this illness has taken over me completely 
I put the pill bottle to my mouth, swallowed, drowned with tears 
Feeling less of a person, confuse, worthless
What have I done to myself?
Coughing and coughing the pills are coming back up   
I just wanted to die, to feel numb at that time
To feel no pain, no hurt
The pills are all on floor of my car that came out of my mouth 
I said to my self why if I was gone it will be a better place 
No one will have to worry about me 
Still in this dark place right now 
Don’t know what am I saying or doing at this moment 
Shaking my head side to side
You think I’m crazy
These voices are still ringing in my head 
They want to hurt me 
It’s hard to deal with these things, when you don’t have support
It has taken over me completely 
Where is everyone that says they love me
Still wishing the pills would have stayed down in my stomach
But as I realize it was a blessing, that God was there with me to protect me
I got another chance at life even when I was at my worst God was there in, he has kept me
It Took Over me but it didn’t take my life 
I still have my strength in pride….

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Line Gauthier October 14, 2019 at 12:22 AM You are very talented, Ashley. Welcome to PoetrySoup. Ashley Jones November 18, 2019 at 4:50 PM thank you so much

Caren Krutsinger October 5, 2019 at 10:29 AM This is heartfelt and feels true. Here is a phone number if you need it for suicide prevention: 800-273-8255. They answer this number all day long; 24 hours long. If you do not know whether or not you need it, call them. They are caring people and nice to speak with. A great poem!