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Rachel Sullivan Poem
Every message you send me
Every word that you speak
Lifts me up high
To the steepest of peaks
Your eyes keep me busy
As I lay down to sleep
Cause there the only thing
That I seem to dream
No matter what they say
No matter what they think
You’re the only guy
That was made for me
Our pasts have been ugly
Complicated and entwined
Ill love you forever
Till the end of time
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i just wanna die
slit my throat and cry
cut my wrists
and lie
everything is fine
throw me in a hole
my ultimate goal
let everything go
i just wanna die
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Rachel Sullivan Poem
cut my wrists
burn my thighs
tab my heart
and hope to die
i hate my life
sufficate tonight
grab my knife
lets end this right
dont wanna go
but have to leave
cant stand my life
just let me bleed
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Rachel Sullivan Poem
I miss you
But I can’t let anyone know
God dam it I hate you
Because that’s what is expected of me
wow I love you
I didn’t know I could feel this way
I’m so close to following you
I know that’s what you knew I would do
I can’t believe I m saying this
I need you
I don’t think I can go on
Without you
That’s right I’m packing
A fresh round in my pistol
Almost ready for my trip
Transportation in my hand
No need for tickets
I got a first class seat
For the price of the pain and hurt
Ill cause to those around me
I’m sorry
I write on a single sheet of paper
I took out of my sisters’ book
She’ll notice soon enough
I seal it with a kiss
Wanting every one to know
Just how much I really do love them
Tears streaming down my face
And for a brief moment I hesitate
What if the first shot doesn’t kill me?
it I tell myself
Then I’m gone…
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this rose died in against
as the thorns took over its life
as the last words were spoken
im glad this is over
the thorns began to cray
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sitting on a staircase
stairing at my arm
"you sure you want this"
i nod my head
hold my breath
and look away
a belt above my elbow
veins untouched and clean
a poke
"dont flinch"
a warm tingling feeling
crawls slowley up my arm
my entire body shaking
a not ties in my tummy
a feeling i dont like
"calm down your just nervious,
lay down and relax
youll fly high in a minute"
an eternity passes
a spark in my brain
a tiny feeling grows
bigger and bigger
i feel like im floating
i just cant explain it
the feeling i mean
this marks the first time
it got a hold of me
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Rachel Sullivan Poem
Responding to the lightest touch of an
angel, she sings words of praise to her friends
calling their names in desperation to be
heard. Falling more with each night spent alone and
empty: her wings have forgotten how to fly...
Living a life full of deception and need.
Keeping secrets hidden from the prying eyes of
adults and foes of all ages; she's spent
years alone. Calling, wishing, wanting...
Learning after each mistake how to let go and live on,
even though life can be harder than death...
Early she learned to hide her feelings and try to:
never fall for those around her...
Still this butterfly waits to be free:
untied and unfettered for the chance at being more than a
living doll. More than just one night after another of pills and needles...
Living one more day in search of her reason to live,
inch by inch she grows and learns to be herself:
varying by degrees and looking for her path...
Another lost soul looking for her reason for existing;
never forgotten...
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Rachel Sullivan Poem
god damit i miss you
i close my eyes
and see you
i try not to think of you
not to picture your face
but i cant stop
memories come rushing back
the love you gave me
your arms around me
i need you
i hated you
wanted nothing to do with you
but now that your gone
and you left me all alone
i miss you
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Rachel Sullivan Poem
you told me
it all gets better
you told me
i shouldnt give up
that the world would miss me
you told me
you loved me
now i sit in your room
wondering what
was going through your head
when you pulled the trigger
picturing your face
so full of pain
you just couldnt take it
was it me
did i do this to you
will i go back
to the way i was before
drinkig and drugs
partys and boys
at your funeral
the preist told me
it will get better
but i ont see how it will
so now i sit in your room
a gun to my head
missing you
then i pull the trigger
just like you
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disregard everything
you know
foget about
the fight you
had with your boy freind
or your best freind
can you see me
do you hear me
calling your name
into the wind
no?
is that because of your drugs
jason its rachel
can you see me
i scream into the wind
help
i screm one last time
and all senses of hope disapeare
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