The Road BackThere is a silence before the fall—
not the absence of sound, but the heaviness of it,
thick as fog, as thick as the space between heartbeats,
when every thought crowds the same narrow room.
The choice has settled like a stone in the chest,
a weight pressing down harder than the world itself—
and yet, beneath that pressure, there is...
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Categories:
suicide,
Form: Free verse
My PTSDIt's three o'clock in the morning, and I'm sitting here on the bathroom floor, reliving that day—reliving your death.
If only crying could ease the pain...
Maybe I would be able to live my life again.
Instead, I close my eyes and hear my voice blubbering to 911.
Dad is at work, so I know...
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Categories:
suicide, anxiety, depression, lost, stress,
Form: Rhyme
a quiet end i cannot take
I want to die—
not in screams,
not in blood,
but in a quiet room where no one waits for me.
I think of suicide
like a lullaby I hum alone,
a final note to silence
the noise in my head
that never rests.
But I'm scared.
I'm afraid of the rope,
afraid of the pills,
afraid of the fall—
not just the pain,
but the fact that I...
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Categories:
suicide,
Form: Free verse
red proofYou didn't love me.
Not even a little.
Not in the quiet way I needed—
not in the way that could’ve saved me.
So I carved it into skin
because I needed someone
to see something real.
And pain?
Pain shows up.
Pain answers.
Lines on my arms like tally marks—
not counting days,
but the moments I survived
wanting to disappear.
The blade was a lover that never...
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Categories:
suicide,
Form: Free verse
A Life of AlmostsShe's lived a lot of "almosts"
She almost drowned under the pulsing weight
of the river's temperamental waters when she was 12
Later on, she felt time itself suspend as she spent
her last few seconds wondering if death would
take her quickly, while her car spiraled down the I-50,
barreling off the ice-ridden road at a deadly...
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Categories:
hope, suicide,
Form: Narrative
Painless? Suicide is Breathless!Go! New York Herald Tribune! Yell it, Jean!
I think that Marcel Proust once owned that condo.
Belmondo never acts – he’s just Belmondo.
You’re no Liz Taylor – no Egyptian queen –
So, New York Herald Tribune! Your big scene!
Were you too young to play the chick in “Hondo”?
This is the age of “Cuando, Cuando, Cuando” –
No singer,...
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Categories:
suicide, allegory,
Form: Sonnet
DaddyMy best friend saw me born.
Coronation of blood,
Tearing through his long beloved.
Floppy neck and flailing limbs,
Protesting my own birth.
Constricting cord,
A life noose, murderous
Cut from me free, my airways clean.
Chest to dead-weight chest,
He forgave my assault,
That which he had sown.
Plasma glow to glass-blind eyes,
Milk not frothed, elixir to survive,
Feed the baby lump with plastic...
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Categories:
suicide, birth, childhood, dad, daughter,
Form: Free verse
The voicemailHey,
It’s me,
I've been thinking a lot lately,
Do you ever wonder,
Why do we want to know when,
When we could just let go and forget,
Did you ever care,
Or do you even know what game you played,
But you shut me out,
Do I mean something to you,
Or was I just a stone to step on to cross the river,
So...
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Categories:
suicide, 9th grade, angst, crush,
Form: Free verse
GoneMy grief riddled mind is racing
my heart is beating fast
and my breaths are shallow
as I wake up from a troubled dream
And I remember that my son is gone
I can't even remember exactly what
was troubling about the dream,
but reality hits the moment that
I fully wake up
My son is gone
I suspect this will happen daily
until it really...
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Categories:
son, suicide,
Form: Free verse
goodbyei draw the pain upon my skin,
each cut a silent scream unheard,
a bleeding map of battles fought
inside the dark corners of my mind.
the blood flows - red truths i cant say,
whispers of a heart breaking quietly,
fragile threads pulled tight, unraveling -
until all thats left is the weight of wanting to end.
i stand on the edge...
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Categories:
suicide,
Form: Free verse
ShatteredMy heart was shattered last Wednesday
It has been a week
How DARE time march on
without my sweet boy?
I still occasionally forget to breath
and feel like I am underwater
until my body automatically grabs
a huge cleansing breath
I am totally lost at times,
I foget to eat, I forget to grab
the medication I picked up and paid for,
yet left at...
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Categories:
son, suicide,
Form: Free verse
A mama's griefIn my heart broken fog of grief,
I realize that I am not alone
I have family, friends, God, my husband,
and so many prayers to sustain me
but it feels like the air is heavy,
the tasks ahead of me are impossible
and I am alone in the world
BUT, I am not and I will put
one foot in front...
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Categories:
mental illness, suicide,
Form: Free verse
ms deborah diggesms. deborah digges
ms. deborah digges died today
plunged to the earth and they found her that way
she took her complex thoughts of simplicity
and buried them in the soil of the university
i suppose like most who take their own lives
we will never know the real cause of her death
but when one leaps from a building so high
it...
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Categories:
suicide, people, poetess, poetry, poets,
Form: Rhyme
sylviasylvia
***this concerns several books I once owned.
Some were written by Rod McKuen, others by
Richard Brautigan, others by others…***
i discovered that words are
like some decadent dessert
too small to cause harm but too big
to have a second helping
in the margins of tattered books
were scribbled lines i hoped to someday share
with someone who still had...
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Categories:
books, heartbreak, suicide,
Form: Free verse
The Ghost She Left BehindThe world got caught under her breath
They could never hear her precious mumbling, only realized when she left
One second she was there
One second she was floating in timeless air
In a wisp of whimsical space
She would show her elegant face
A polaroid of a perfect smile
Commanding regretful tears and remembrance of all the distant years
Her blood was...
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Categories:
suicide, 10th grade, 11th grade,
Form: Rhyme
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