Short Detoxing Poems

self disgust 
and disappointment
for the slip-up
but I need to know
what cheapens intimacy
devaluing myself
devalues anyone 
with whom I 
would share something 
valuable
it's why 
I'm detoxing from 
all these dopamine pumps
and anesthestics 
(gambling and alcohol)
how could online "intimacy" 
not be included in
the mix that
keeps me from 
feeling
all must go
until this backlog
can be managed...

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Did yer mammy ever say"dont call him or her, that?
whenever ye,v called someone, "dim!"or"a prat!?
Well i called my theiving brother a monkey!an got skelpt!
and told that he was to be considered as a whelp!(a puppy dog)
So now he is out on parole from the local dogs home.
He,s just been detoxing like a fool foaming on the phone.
Help me mammy!was all he cried and barked and pled.
she should have skelpt the monkey then fed him water and bread!...

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no soap, no ethyl for my skin.

 no hangovers left to form my 
bottled innocense 

may god keep my inner saint 
whole so that i may no longer
 need to scrub and scour my skin.

may the lord keep me from chaptering
 my signatures of sorrow at noonday.

now that all my ethyl gods have evaporated.
i judge all clutter with a sterile sobriety
 i take their hollow sinews to the recycling bin.

 tossing them in a pile they clank and clutter 
 loudly....

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Jumping from a plane, falling with the rain 
Landed on a train but never felt the same... 

I couldn't touch the ground even when I tried... 
I went into shock and almost died... 

I always felt alone, so I always got stone... 
From the cradle to the grave, to the king on his throne... 

I'm reaching out for help... 
Only one hand I held... 

She's special, she's real... 
She's every drug I feel... 

I'm detoxing for her I guess you can say love... 
Cause in reality, she is.. my only drug....

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