Long Relapsing Poems

Hours and hours of wasting time has escalated my anxieties…
I'm sorry, God, I'm addicted to so many bad behaviors…
Powers enlighten my mindset, and flowers make me feel at ease
Dementia kicking in as I procrastinate and...

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No form, no organization, no verse.
A crescendo followed by silence and screams.
A wooden home locked inside of a concrete tome,
With a world collapsing while we keep relapsing
And again the past resurges; what we bury tends...

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Squalidness—Squabbling squeamishly;
Scrutinizing stigmatized scandalization, substantially scarce
Sprightliness...skeptically surrendering
Shamefully—Scolded sardonically;
Snarling splenetically, severing sensibility, scowlingly simmering
Strenuously...sought survival
Sparring—Sinister sisters;
Seductively swiveling soreness, sarcastically snared, swirling
Storms...sporadically striking
Slowly—Sacrificing stories;
Scorching slanderous subversiveness, suffering suffocation
Senselessly...smoldering serendipity
Sinfully—Silent stranger;
Sneaking skillfully staring
Presumptuously—Pursuing pretentiousness;
Promises protruding pithiness,
Potential problems...penetrating
Frantically—Forsaken fantasizes...

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To Hurt to say,But I'm sorry.





Do you know how much it hurt.To see you disappear from a memories I have yet recalled.Your heart so ice cold there's nothing I can do for it.
Let me touch...

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Deception Is a Cancer

By Daniel B.


There is so much black and grey in the deviant month of May.

The first to the ninth has me relapsing on everything she would say.

The hour glass has tipped and...

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Wishing clouds bring about constant rain
It eluminates the body with joy and pain.

So, the air we breathe is constantly being absorbed 
By the love within our hearts and the sad remorse.

The trees will bring about...

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Your beauty is zin in thoughts of you I swim
Feeling relaxed within harassed at the fact that I’m a wimp
When I try to let you in best expressed with my pen
The way I feel this...

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Slowly realizing with some help that life has never been about the things that we 
can live without but the things we can’t
I wore you socks to bed instead because thoughts of you ran through...

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I've given it my blood, sweat, tears,
It has taken every ounce of self-control,
I've been so close to relapsing but I didn't,
I did all that I could and I did it.
I've been clean.

But I undress, I...

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Mythical Thinking

In the beginning there had been the word…
She had spoken wisely and made believe
had been a poet all her life creating fiction
scripted parables about a primordial bang

Now she encountered writer’s silent block
yet pondered about...

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with teardrops tying a tight knot around my brain, 

i move forward....ignoring the black blood of my emotions 

trying to cope, i revisit the forwardly impatient motion 

as i restart my brisk walk, reality gives...

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Perpetually I am thrown in the pulse of mourning against the wall
With sincerity I ask lord if you indeed subsist, apprehend my soul through it all
From the immoral ways accumulated in yesteryears
I am accustomed to...

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A thousand cuts, a million broken heart pieces
The truth comes to light, a few dark secrets
A lost boy, with no father to teach him how to be a man
I'm far from perfect, I just wish...

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Sometimes i ponder why,
 the way i am
Why the universe shows me myself
And shows me my reflection 
While im just a man full of insecurities and sin
Born into a story that feels fiction yet still...

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sweet old lady with the oxygen tank
telling me stories with morals that i would never even think to think of
i keep her company at times when the pain of her regrets become too much
i keep...

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I’m learning now that the fears always grow
The idea of myself becoming so low
Relapsing into an older side of me
To which I have and hold the key

Yet life doesn’t always go as planned
As people leave,...

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Woke early from bed, picked up the daily reader right away
To keep those insidious cravings at bay
After that I knew just what to do
I picked up the phone and called my sponsor too
We talked about...

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My Thoughts On Protests
(No Matter the Reason)
Miracle Man’s Opinion
6/4/2020

Spring has sprung and temperature is rising,
silly season is here and protest’s become energizing.
It’s a time to air any first amendment whines,
many gather in hordes, some carry...

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I'm surpassing my limits imagine the vision,
Of grasping intentions to master existence,
A savage I've witnessed bedazzled by gimmicks,
I laugh but I meant this I ask for forgiveness,
My past interventions were passion resentments,
Relapsing and quitting soul...

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i take a bite to a thing called "life"..

sweetness...
shared with friends and families
on occassions where there are joys
though it doesn't involves toys...

bitterness..
as failures, disappointments flows..
at times sanity and mind blows
for it leaves tears and sorrows...

face-to-face...

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Polyphagia on board is forbidden and not welcome ---------- when 
Everybody knows that should we ran out of food ---------- crickets 
Probably will not feed us anyhow and most of us will ---------- cry 
Pensive...

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Sipping her tea without  any visible relish,
Her crumpled bag of shopping at her tired feet,
Alone she sits in the cafe  and isolatedly apart
Stranded in her  sorrowful sea of sadness
Only to raise momentarily...

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as the wind beats against me, you cover me,
the storm too trecherous to withstand, you hold me in place,
and with your awesome hand you extend to me grace,
messing up once, than twice, and over again,
but...

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Looking at it now, I see it’s twist,
Revolve, sit back, corner, stand tall,
The passion of tinge,
Direct in it’s senses.

But the feelings I feel now are senseless,
Dire, despair, dread, demonic,
Excuses made, guilt held, rewind I may?
Trusting...

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In Real Life

By Nathan Hannen

Cold and Wind, Ice and Snow, Freezing everything I know
Something and nothing, Everything to show, Wind taking everything to go
Contemplating guilt, Buried to the hilt, A thousand tears are spilt
Ticking and...

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