Best Numbness Poems
DRY MASCARA
Nobody sees through the shadow and the color of my eyes
The times I've cried are the only time you notice the trace down my face
This time,
The sorrow at heart is deeper than anything I've ever penned or spoken of,
an atmosphere of dark film and Revlon
Many times I allowed myself to die, only to return to the living
The numbness of my soul delivers weight nobody can lift
Talk of black eyes, the tale of my life reopens every scar
On good days, the sun seems to stray from where I lay,
Only to reveal the paste that drowns my face
At times I blank out the pain,
the depression compiles the close quarters of my room
Even then, I can't escape every past wound I covered up
Hiding was never the problem, the healing process was
Institutionalized, no longer able to function as a whole
Each cell inside replicates a tight thick wall with no escape
The laughter of nothing sinks into a gulf of tears
With moods more melancholy than most
I press the pain that echoes hard within my head
- I weep
Deep sadness flows with no mercy, no reason
Nothing to cancel out the voices that hush my inner being
In a whisper, I ask for H E L P,
- I bleed
Nobody sees me, nobody hears me, NOBODY.....
The mascara ruins another fake mask
Grief is somber,
a constant reminder to my soul that it can't hide forever
Silence - callous
Until I can't feel anything...
Empty - detached
I felt myself become numb
Emotions gone
I laughed at the end.
Categories:
numbness, cry, deep, depression, grief,
Form:
Alliteration
My voice is weak, my hand falters
as I attempt to speak of my Father.
Each night sleep takes me,
then truth awakes me –
my Dad is gone, now dead.
My heart hears this from my head.
Wrapped in numbness, walking in nothingness,
I search for his presence.
The chain’s now broken, its brightest link gone.
My Dad was security and so mentally strong.
His mind quick, his wit sharp,
he always inspired my young heart.
Pleasing my Father was to lasso the sun.
In him my pride was first begun.
I picture his hands, legs and arms –
my protector from harm;
wisdom was his voice,
comforting his every choice,
willpower his motto, sureness his step.
He was a man of incredible depth.
Knowing I am my Father’s daughter
is a thought to be tenderly kept.
His final, “I love you” words,
the most emotion I’ve heard yet.
I will miss you, Daddy.
Now and forever, naught will I forget.
I’ll see you each sunrise,
mourn you each sunset.
Images crash around me,
I’d have it no other way
Than your memory with
me each and every day.
Categories:
numbness, appreciation, dad, father, love,
Form:
Elegiac Lyric
When tragedy strikes,
what happens to you?
Do you roll yourself up in
bubble wrap,
box yourself in
and pray that no one finds you?
or do you b-R-e-A-K
into a million pieces
and let others pick you up?
Reality feels like cork,
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I am Numb.
And I try so hard to remind myself
This isn't about me,
not at all.
The regrets are still there,
the could'ves of life
You try to make sense of the tragedy
and still feel like floating up there
with the truth
Because even if the truth is dense and heavy,
it can defy gravity,
much like my tears
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Categories:
numbness, dedication, sad,
Form:
Free verse
Numbness will over come us.
In the end pain will win.
The scorching desire of death
will always take your breath.
Colorless bare skin
with marks and scars
that hide inside.
We all just want to die.
Lies we are told to obey
or slaps against my face.
Belts an burns as you take turns.
Numbness has set in
my pain only begins.
The light inside my soul
burns with rage and hate,
how can this be I'm only eight.
Time is at an end, my story
will only end with death
of Numbness that has overcome us.
Categories:
numbness, abuse, anger, childhood, deep,
Form:
Rhyme
This emptiness that I’m feeling
Its spreading to my veins
Somthings holding me back
Its like Im in a straight jacket
Cant breath, cant see
I need to break away
I need to break free
My hearts getting heavy
All my uncryed tears
Seem to be stuck in my heart
I can feel the blood
Dripping in my veins
It hurts with every breath
Sadness, despair
Filling my lungs
The sky falling down
My world collapsing
My legs cemented to the floor
My hair flying in the air
My shadow disappearing slowly
Everythings getting dark
Scary shapes near and far
There is an utter silence
No light no sound
Everythings gone
All that remains now is a smile
its slowly going
now jsut a residue
A residue of my smile
Categories:
numbness, death, sympathy,
Form:
Bio
Her screaming
Yet somehow i managed to see her death in my mind
Just to be reunited with him
I curled and rolled in bed
Missing and wishing
Crying and regretting
Stupid girl, some girls never learn
Repeating same mistakes over and over
Yet i lay there motionless
Unable to hear the beat of my heart
I had to check
Anxiety, emptyness..
I needed something but i didn't know what
I needed to escape but i didn't know where
I needed out of this body
I needed God
I had to check my spirituality
When was the last time i felt Him
Working in me
I've been so disconnected
Somehow my world feels unbalanced
I am so worried
It's killing me
My health is killing me
Mental health
Here comes the frequent topic again
The one thing that is now defining those close to me
I look at us and i see anxiety, depression, abuse and addictions
All those combined
All those at once is a recipe of the obvious disaster
Maybe am alone too much
Or maybe i shouldn't observe too much
Maybe i should just close my eyes and listen to the slowness of my heart beat
That always worries me
And instead of thinking of it and other things
I should just focus on the inner strengths
Those tiny fibers in there that haven't been tainted
Those little wires in there that can still fire a positive atom
Like today i thought of giving up on poetry
I feel so tired, am no longer interested
It's the same stories all the time
If it's not love it's dark, if not dark its sad, if not sad then maybe some happiness
Same stories just told differently
Nothing new
Maybe i should just take the antidepressant and call it life
If i have it, i have it
If i don't have, then i can't force it
Or should i wait for the breakdown
And then check myself in...so sure people will talk...a psych..place
Because i know it so well
Maybe i don't, it's my mind
It's the worrying...i think i inherited it
It's the sugar...i can't control myself
Yet i know the imminent danger
It's the fear of love
It's the fear of being loved
It's an emotional battle that i never win
It's wanting to hide but also wanting to be seen
It's wanting to be held but also wanting to be shunned
Can't please it
I don't know me
Categories:
numbness, angst, anxiety, depression, fear,
Form:
Free verse
~*~
It so cold outside, Its raining hard
The clouds are dark and grim
But no more grim than the darkness
Of the pain I feel within..
The darkness it engulfs me
It wraps around my soul
I can only wish for numbness
For this pain I cant control
Shall I write until my thumb bleeds
My hand bruised , My fingers seized
Ill carve words unto the page until it sets
Slipping back into the darkness
Yearning for a sleep with no regrets
Locked in silent madness
Infesting my mind with drowning memories
Hoping that prose will let me find my sleep
Trying to find a dream thats mine to keep
This darkness will continue without a fight
For theres no reason for hope without the light..
~*~
Categories:
numbness, sad, pain,
Form:
Rhyme
If we have our heads
Sleeping on our arms
A tingling numbness
Spreads through our hand
Its uncomfortable
We shake our hand
Till the feelings gone
Then we return to sleep
Categories:
numbness, sleep,
Form:
Narrative
Let me feel again,
The reason for my lonesome:
Cowardly harlot.
Categories:
numbness, anger, angst, break up,
Form:
Haiku
Never, my love
Use your
Misery
Blindly;
Neglecting
Everyone
Sours your very
Soul
Categories:
numbness, introspection,
Form:
Acrostic
The sound of animosity
wakes you up.
There was a shadow war.
The ethnic otherness,
when you were ditching
the sermons, the adjectives.
Will you accept the
atrocity of nouns who keep
on inviting the fat spiders ?
The vision has failed.
I don’t find any cue
to the nests of sparrows.
Ah, the booming guns.
But I was talking
to Sisyphus.
Satish Verma
Categories:
numbness, art,
Form:
ABC
Now I am an Uncle,
Never been one before.
Newborns are always grand,
Nonetheless, I have a
Niece, Macy is her birth
Name, how could she be a
Nuisance? She looks like me!
30~April~2017
For Pleiades N contest
Sponsored by: Kim Merryman.
Categories:
numbness, love,
Form:
Verse
Unclear and unfocused thoughts,
Trapped in negative emotions.
I can't seem to chase away the bad thoughts.
All I can do is sit around.
I'm waiting for someone,
But I can't remember who.
I'm waiting so long...
I'm waiting for someone.
My fingers tremble from anxiety.
I can no longer feel my feet.
My very soul seems like it's frozen.
Chasing away any bad thoughts is not an option.
I'm waiting so long...
But I can't remember who.
I'm waiting for someone,
But do I even know who?
I'm waiting so long...
Courage is something I no longer have,
All I can do is look back.
But it's not like I can go back.
My face is starting to feel numb.
Anxiety is the only thing that I know.
I'm waiting for someone.
I'm waiting so long.
My feet are frozen.
Hands can do nothing but tremble.
My face is now numb.
My soul isn't warm.
I lost all my courage.
I'm waiting for...
I'm waiting...
I'm...
Stuck with an afterimage of myself.
It does nothing,
For I can't go back.
Someone will one day come.
But do I even know who?
I'm waiting for someone,
I'm waiting so long...
And yet no one comes.
But do I even know who?
Does it even matter now?
I've frozen over,
Waiting for someone who can't even come.
After all, I've given up on myself.
I'm waiting...
Categories:
numbness, anxiety, dark, depression, loneliness,
Form:
Free verse
Racing through the grassland
thorns cutting my soles
while the icy wind pinches
this flesh.
And yet I still persist--
wondering if my heart holds
the key back to spontaneity ?
My lust for life is withering
among the black of time's cinders
a burning in the distance
unkown to me
as I laze around a complacent world
stoic, undefined by apathy--
And then, I reach the border
of a railroad park
to find through a hole
how the sky turns red and alive.
Posted 26 Jan 2019
Slap The Muse And Turn It Loose
John Lawless Contest
Categories:
numbness, angst, recovery from,
Form:
Verse
Numb the pain, throbbing inside me
My faith has crumbled into crumbs of deception
Numb the pain, coursing through my veins
You're keeping me sane and I'd like to thank you for that
In the desert of desolation,
I feel this all-to-familiar frustration...
I yearn for something more
You're the one that I adore
You deserted me long ago
The wind moves to and fro
I'm getting weary
I'm getting teary
Trying to purge sin out of my life
It's easier said than done
I'm still missing California's sun
To obliterate and burn away the strife
Your radiant shine
Makes me wish you were mine
Please don't leave me and let me go tonight
Shine a light my direction with undying might
Despite your flaws,
Your beauty shows
You're my beautiful dove
Up above the world of hatred
Even though the crow caws,
Your dove-like features glow
I'm thinking of your love
Up above my despicable dread
Despite your decisions,
I'm going to love you still
You're my pretty lullaby
Up above the Earth of cursed confusion
Even though I have unaccomplished missions,
You're my thousand thrills
I'm bedshaped in your goodbye
Up above my vision of derision
My imagination is going haywire,
Burning with utmost desire
Churning with passionate fire
And sheer ire that will never tire
In my elegant, eloquent empire
Seek the truth, you little liar
You're the one that I admire
You lift my high spirits higher and higher
Singing joyously in a brilliant choir
Categories:
numbness, deep, desire, emotions, endurance,
Form:
Rhyme