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Dry Mascara

DRY MASCARA Nobody sees through the shadow and the color of my eyes The times I've cried are the only time you notice the trace down my face This time, The sorrow at heart is deeper than anything I've ever penned or spoke of, an atmosphere of dark film and Revlon Many times I allowed myself to die, only to return to the living The numbness of my soul, delivers weight nobody can lift Talk of black eyes, the tale of my life reopens every scar On good days, the sun seems to stray from where I lay, Only to reveal the paste that drowns my face At times I blank out the pain, the depression compiles the close quarters of my room Even then, I can't escape every past wound I covered up Hiding was never the problem, the healing process was Institutionalized, no longer able to function as a whole Each cell inside replicates a tight thick wall with no escape The laughter of nothing sinks into a gulf of tears With moods more melancholy than most I press the pain that echoes hard within my head - I weep Deep sadness flows with no mercy, no reason Nothing to cancel out the voices that hush my inner being In a whisper I ask for H E L P, - I bleed Nobody sees me, nobody hears me, NOBODY..... The mascara ruins another fake mask Grief is somber, a constant reminder to my soul that it can't hide forever Silence - callous Until I can't feel anything.... Empty - detached I felt myself become numb Emotions gone I laughed at the end.

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Date: 1/9/2021 11:50:00 AM
Stoping by to read your poem again hope you well xx davidscott
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Date: 12/24/2020 8:12:00 PM
Thanks for sharing this. Meanwhile... Cheering you with blest Christmas spirit, while sharing you "... the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord" (Romans 6:23 of the King James Bible). God bless you.
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Date: 12/17/2020 8:52:00 AM
Deep, emotional magic springs from your pen and your mind. An exceptional write.
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Date: 12/17/2020 12:03:00 AM
Brave of you to write this and nice imagery.
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Date: 12/16/2020 10:08:00 PM
Exlent peace well pened l deal with depression on daily bassis have done since l was bout five not easy writing some kind of vice at times though r you back now not been here for long time my self hope you well davidscottxx
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Date: 12/16/2020 4:00:00 PM
A very deep, emotional poem. Depression is like a thief that would steal your joy, your well-being. All you see is darkness and it numbs your senses. How I wish nobody goes through it because it is a very difficult illness to overcome.
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Date: 12/14/2020 12:12:00 AM
BEAUTIFULLY PRESENTED.....
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Date: 12/4/2020 7:50:00 PM
Nicely penned confessional write.. Very passionate! :)
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Date: 12/2/2020 1:46:00 PM
Enjoyed reading this powerful write. Great job as always PD and congrats On the POTD. Have a great one my friend, Jess
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Date: 11/29/2020 12:17:00 AM
Always the great poet even in the darkness of your present. I miss you!
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Date: 11/25/2020 5:23:00 AM
Stunning portrait of elegant sadness, PD! Lucid words of introspection, a lustrous weave of intense passion. Ty for your blessed muse return. Your quill voice has never sounded calligraphy better. Stillness is always a good move. And this bombshell poem moves w/emotional ticking re-calibration. Stay safe. Love and best wishes for the holiday.
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Freddie Robinson Jr.
Date: 11/25/2020 5:34:00 AM
Btw ... belated kudos for POTD! And also, I've been that bipolar guy. Hanging ten at both ends of the pendulum spectrum. Always been a sky ride-or-die guy ... willing to give a stay alive survival guide, an elevated turbo try. Love and peace forever. Romantic Warrior
Date: 11/17/2020 4:33:00 AM
Very well expressed and heartfelt. well done.
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Date: 11/11/2020 5:40:00 PM
an exciting, scathing and consuming piece . words does a lot and these are compose in a very powerful way. well done.
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Date: 10/23/2020 10:56:00 AM
This is powerful, expressive and emotional, Linda. Despite everything, depression can not only be treated, but also beaten...but that depends mostly on us! ~ A pleasure to see you posting again :) Warm regards // paul
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Date: 10/23/2020 9:36:00 AM
Your writing has a gravitas like few others, Linda. Belated congratulations on your POTD honors for this, it's nice to see you posting and sponsoring contests again. ~ John
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Date: 10/22/2020 2:28:00 PM
Hi PD, You have penned such a deep and heartfelt emotive write.Depression is no joke, a person that hasn’t gone through it may not understand. They may say,get out of your funk, inside I respond, I’m trying to but not it’s not that easy. After a rain storm( whatever it may be) a rainbow is on the horizon. Congratulations on getting the poem the day. It was well deserved! PS. It’s good to see you PD. Have a wonderful day-Alexis
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Date: 10/21/2020 1:46:00 PM
I see you got a poTd on this one, PD. A big belated congrats on your well deserved win.
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Date: 10/21/2020 5:19:00 AM
Beautifully done. Thank you for allowing me into your emotions.
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Date: 10/18/2020 6:20:00 PM
Beautiful write, I internally struggled with the ups and downs for decades. When I was down I had deep profound thoughts, and my highs were wonderful. I would quietly talk to myself to keep sane, and reach out when I was in trouble with prayer. I would cry in the shower so know one would hear me for no reason. I miss some of those feelings at times because I feel a part is missing, but life is not about me, and my wife loves me...the meds make me calm inside all the time. ~ Smiles for you.
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Date: 10/12/2020 11:30:00 PM
Sorry late as always, #36...The poetry as usual from your mighty pen is amazing deep and profound, you never fail to transfer your soul rendering emotions on to the reader, truly a special skill, the poem, again as usual always leaves some aspect of you in one's head. connie pachecho put up a blog the other day, about 'Louise Gluck' she compares her to your poetry, and i agree with that. so you are truly loved Linda, that in exchange for so much of what you give and have done so over the years.
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harry horsman
Date: 10/12/2020 11:30:00 PM
oh forgot, to my fav.
Date: 10/11/2020 5:17:00 PM
A wonderfully powerful and provocative poem that I can certainly relate to as I'm bipolar (medicine has truly helped me SO much though)... in the end, it is the love in your heart that gives life meaning, my friend. May God bless you today and always :)
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Date: 10/11/2020 2:37:00 PM
Mental illness is such a difficult and merciless enemy, You've truly expressed the hopelessness well Linda. So nice to see you posting, you were one of the first to welcome me in the beginning. Hoping this is just a write and not your reality!
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Date: 10/10/2020 10:48:00 AM
Your marvelous poem shares a depth of insight into the dark world of depression that won’t let the light enter. I can relate to the numbness. Exquisitely written and going into my faves! Congratulations on your POTD honor which is very deserving my friend! Blessings xxoo
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Date: 10/10/2020 8:58:00 AM
A very natural write...felt like I was listening to you up close...Congratulations Poet Destroyer A on POTD...
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Date: 10/7/2020 8:59:00 PM
This is such a deep moving poem and nobody really knows what one person is going through. Depression is very hard.
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