Best Confussed Poems
Another tear drops from my eyes
Why do I seem so suprised
Did i expect laughter instead of pain
My head not held high but hangs with shame
How many times am I gonna believe his lies
He ropes me in, time after time
I just want to be more important than the drugs
I want to be the main thing he loves
I don't want to go to bed alone at night
I don't want to have another fight
I want to wake up with a smile on my face
Not waking up wishing all memories erased
I don't want to be confussed
I want to know what i should do
But all's he does is look for another score
And in between he calls me whore's
I want to be able to get on with my life
Happieness i want in sight
Please Lord help with this pain
Help me Lord to walk away
Alone, lost, confussed, broken, lost hope.
That is everything i feel.
i cant help it, its like watching a movie, but watching myself fall apart
it is like torcher,
i am always alone, but that is my choice,
i am broken, ive been broken a couple of times,
i honestly dont believe in love anymore,
i have lost hope in love, it never last,
not true love, because their is no such thing.
im confussed,
where is my life going?
am i going to be emo forever?
will i ever get through this?
will i ever find someone that i really love?
so many questions,
and no answers for them. I think i should just leave the world,
becasue it is no fun watching my life, fall apart.
itslike im breaking my heart more and more everyday,
all the dreams, everything i want to come true,
but deep down i know, it's never gonna happen,
just the thought of it,
breaks me into even more depression and sorrow..
After the smoke clears from this room.
Will question why.
As you push me into the depths.
As I lifted you from your self appointed gloom.
So take his hand cause happiness has another
name.
You can close your eye's.
but it's never the same.
Can we ever forget that which we did
not understand.
you hide the pain.
But secrets dig into your soul
like barbwire in hand.
She ran with what wasnt supposed to be.
Sweet suduction it was in such devlish fun.
To bad it was so very clear to all but me.
Under covers bodies without thought collide
locked in the passion of night.
Taking flustrations out in plessure.
You appear as a vision get your fix then vanish from sight.
Cheating the heart fractrued given to two.
You question with lies.
As I yern to hold the woman I belive is you.
And so I exist in a mystery only you can
solve.
im the dirty secret across the tracks.
The dirt underfoot in which my heart does revolve.
If only the feeling could last.
I question while off to another.
Would you stay it was you fading with the past.
Worn from it's trappings you crawl.
Wash away the truth.
Confession of pillow talk that
seep into the wall.
So is the story of the confussed woamn who
fractured her heart over two.
And the man who only did thirst for the
one he thought he knew
I know who I am, because I talk to myself
I listen to me - I understand what I say
No I am not confussed
I reach down into the depth of my soul
what I fined is what I put there
No I'm not delussional
When I speak its not the first time I hear
for whatever I say comes from me
No you might not know me, but I do
My name is
In Touch With Myself
A brain that seems to analyze it all...
Confussed with thoughts that soon free fall...
When I shake my head I'm not saying no...
It's just a nod that can't find it's go...
I'm trying a new fresh start where I can walk...
A table set for poets who understand my talk...
Where just my eyes can tell you I'm sad...
And a small hand gesture can tell you I'm not so bad...
In this new playground the pen is a sword and the paper a shield...
Poems become conversations that will soon cover our fields...
A fresh start where fashion is written in forms...
And caring and love can never be torn...
by Michael J Falotico
for "Cobwebs & Dust" contest
I chose (c) a fresh start..
Confussed by your actions
Needing your passion
Dreaming of forever
Knowing we will never
Together is not in our future
But you don't see the big picture
I am holding on to what I can
The memory of you holding my hand
I know what we had is nomore
And I know I am the one who closed Loves door
However it still hurts me too
Because I know I will always love you
But it was not meant to be
I loved you but you did not love me
You only wanted what you could not get
And the peaces of the puzzle don't fit
So now you ask me what is the matter
I tell you it is only my heart that got shattered
It will all be okay
I will find my way
I know I am stronger then you think I can be
I have alot left to give someone who is right for me
So go on and find your next contestant in your game
I will move on and not hang my head in shame
I will go on and learn to fly again
I still have family and friends
And I do have love in my life
You go on and find your perfect wife
I won't try and stop you or get in your way
I won't tell her that you are a user and to run away
She will see for herself your ture colors with her own eyes
I won't tell how many times I cried
I feel crowded and lost
trapped in this space.
So far to run
yet no time to race
Confussed mind cluttered
with empty fullfillments
Goals far away in the distance
Everything jumps in the way
To reach them, I strech....(sigh)
I can't..... not this day
Crowded yet empty
my mind fights to produce
I try and I try
yet and still no use
There are stories that rhyme
there are 24 hours in a day
yet still not enough time
If only I could encamp in quiet, a moment
to myself.
All other things done (for now)
placing distractions on their shelf
Opportune day, the right moment all mine
dull thoughts replaced
with a bright vivid shine.
In comes my passion,
a dear sweet friend I find.
Clock winding down
Sun setting on this another day
Closer I approach
Quiets sound
Given another opportunity to rectify
Crowded and Empty's
CONTRADICTION
He came back to me again, only to blind me,
Sweeping my peace away in a hurricane
When it took so long to let myself free,
Only to have it all return; a familiar pain.
It was the day we took our wedding vows,
He was the first to say, "I do".
I became his wife, he my spouse,
It was a dream come true.
But it was over before it began,
Words he spoke not from his heart.
Loving me was not his plan,
He was only playing a part.
Causing my soul to turn to stone,
Leaving his name engraved so deep.
When after only a day, I was alone;
Left alone, only to weep.
An event I've waited for all my life,
Not expecting to only be a pawn.
Just wanting to be the "perfect wife",
But in moments it was all gone.
Allowing myself to never ever forget,
Feeling I was a fool to his charm.
What could he possibly hope to benefit
From causing me so much harm?
I really believed he loved me for real,
But it was just a game in his eyes.
Hurting me was just part of the deal,
As if he were to win a big prize.
So many lies, such deceit thrown in my face,
Asking myself what he really felt.
No words said, just leaving without a trace,
Causing my whole world just to melt.
I was tossed asside like I didn't matter,
Thinking our years together were only a waste.
All at once, like glass I began to shatter.
Leaving my eyes blind, my mouth with no taste.
All my senses have vanished somehow,
My ears can't hear a single sound.
There are no feelings left in my now,
I've buried myself underground.
I just wish that I could understand why,
So I can settle my heart and soul,
To be able to accept it; to say goodbye,
So I can heal and again be whole.
But until then, they'll remain these questions
Going unanswered, leaving me so confussed.
Knowing I've definitely learned my lesson:
I was the one with everything to lose.
(4/3/94)
yet it was something else
something we never knew
we'd hear or understand
conceptions with the sorting's
conceived thru togetherness
her beleifs were that dividing hers from mine
would create a togetherness
from her need of mine and hers
rituals without conception
concepts without realism
confussed from the lies
she alows herself to beleive
concepts of being right
when she's wrong
that her body might remedy from
one night, what havoc she's caused
over months of resistance
sing ye thou bassoon
from the Bass Cleft Essay Session Series,
Ecstasy and Beau-dikka: "rumps of a raging sea"
they Barest Oboe!
Mocking Boudicca from the
Bassoons in the stream. A story by
Wisswonn Dinner: Dessert Andherlove
let your reed vibrate the beauty
that each tone is heard and song to
listen that she will speak
than sing that she wishes
her bassoon heard
Long I lain on the
couch
of my mind
Battling with left and
right paths
that leads to journey
eternal
Away from the
physical-earth but to
spiritual realms
I'm confussed either
to
run the left
Or to make the right
stand-still
Just to fetch me
out of
eternal trouble
The right for the
Jews
And the left for the
gentiles
I don't know where I
belong
Later, I sat in a cab
of
my thought
I moved from
something to
nothing
From sense to non-
sense
Along the lane of
great
turmoil
And darkness is the
street-light
That leads my way
to
the grave of
indecision
I choose the right
path,
Just to follow the
footprint of my fate
With the hope of not
coming back
Yet stagnant I was,
But it is a crappy
journey within my
mind
Adesitimi Taiwo
I sit unaware in silence completley bare without an ounce of care
waiting for peace impatiently
the peace never comes
I sit there drenched in pain and dissapointment
how long must I wait I'm becoming irrate
betrayed since birth, no self worth
I sit feeling no joy
I tremble and cower in complete distrust, still waiting for my peice
wanting to scream, is this life or just a dream
not varing for once whos ear it hurts
my cries always unanswered leaving me mute no longer any words
I carry them on my face place to place
feeling like such a discrace
always shamed always shunned that is where the guilt begun
I stuff it deeper and deeper
making me uglier as it creeps up begining to kill me
silent rage feeling as if I'm locked in a cage
my soul is confussed and wanting to use
my hate hides my hope and steals my truth
I sit here and wait silently and patiently
all alone
I'M YELLING
I'M YELLING,
OUT FOR YOUR HELP
I'M YELLING ,
FOR SOMEONE TO COME RUNNING
I'M YELLING ,
FOR SOMEONE TO RELIZE I NEED HELP
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I HAVE RELIZE I DO NEED HELP
I'M YELLING ,
FOR MY LIFE BACK
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I WANT EVERYONE TO GET ALONG
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I WANT EVERYONE TO QUIT TELLING ME HOW TO LIVE
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I WANT TO BE NOTICED FOR WHO I AM
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I WANT HELP ,BUT I DONT WANT EVERYONE TO BE THERE
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I AM SO LOST
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I AM SO CONFUSSED ABOUT MY LIFE
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I WANT EVERYONE TO QUIT COMPAREING ME TO OTHERS
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE NOONE BUT MY SELF
I'M YELLING ,
BECOUSE I AM TELL EVERYONE GOD MADE ME THIS WAY
I'M YEALLING ,
BEOCUSE I AM NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELES
Put your best foot forward, turn the other check, be the bigger person, do to
others, for get the past,
You do what is right, step away from what is wrong, you live in peace, humble
your self hard times will pass,
The seven deadly sins you put to rest, lift others as you fall, pride, self
worth,degnaty your brothers keeper gets old fast.
born to clim the endless wall of dispair, hoping, beleaving, thinking, some day
all the pain, worry, grey ski's, and the supporting cast,
All will subside you too will live as you deserve to live, I washed my sins, turned
the next page, turned the black hour glass,
Looked down at the wicked as I climbed higher and higher to reach happiness
only to find I have no grasp,
Every dog will have his day, every cloud has a silver lining, for every good deed
your found in the trash,
I want to do whats right, what is the moral thing to do, the humanitary thing to do,
yet I still have the disrespected rash,
This game of life I played as a player, both evil and blessed only to find the
sinners live and the saints crash,
Look me in the eye look and see I'm confussed, lost for it seems the more
good I do grows the burdens mass,
I've kissed the lips of an angel, listened to the black rivers sass,
Walked on water, rose in fire, divied in lust, and grew from the ash,
And when I look at it all I see no matter what is done, no matter how much you
do nice guys finsh last.
Let me go
release me from your grasp pain.
This hurt you create
attempt to drive me insane.
Free me from reminders obsticles
to difficult to overturn.
Allow freedom and peace
to overpower with stern,
Right now I release all confussed
thoughts to the father above.
Thoughts of your harsh, painful, verble blows
I no longer think of.
Now I let go
I release faith
in efforts to grow.
I make no time for those who just don't know.
Letting go of my pain I feel this is God's will.
Embracing His promise for me.
Peace Be Still
Hands Lifted
I AM FREE!!!!
LEAVE GET OUT ,
LEAVE RIGHT NOW IT IS THE END OF YOU AND ME
LEAVE GET OUT ,
IT IS TO LATE I CANT WAIT FOR YOU TO BE GONE
LEAVE GET OUT ,
I KNOW ABOUT HER I WOUDER HOW SHE IS BETTER
LEAVE GET OUT ,
I WOUNDER HOW SHE CAN BUY ALL THOSES LIES
LEAVE GET OUT ,
YOU SAID THAT YOU WOULD TREAT ME RIGHT
LEAVE GET OUT ,
TELL ME WHY YOU LOOKING SO CONFUSSED
LEAVE GET OUT ,
MY HEART IS BREAKING WITH EVERYTHING I AM SAYING
LEAVE GET OUT ,
I REFUSE TO CRY OR FALL TO MY KNEES
LEAVE GET OUT ,
THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN JUST A WASTE OF TIME
LEAVE GET OUT ,
YOU WAS NEVER IN LOVE WITH ME ALL YOU DID WAS LIE