Best Recovery From...Love Poems
Makes me furious seeing a woman with a bruise over her eye.
The smeared mascara from the tears she's cried.
Pain he's caused, scarring her inside.
Silent Prayers are whispered into the night.
You're under one helluva spell when you don't tell.
You're not well when you accept being put through hell.
It's been awhile since you've focused rself.
Staying with that man is simply bad for your health.
Because of him there is so much life you've missed.
How could you love a man that mistakes a kiss for a fist?
He's not stable; definitely not mentally okay.
If his idea of "love" is to physically harm you in such a way!
You're under one helluva spell when you don't tell.
You're not well when you accept being put through hell.
Stand up! Free yourself from those emotional chains.
No more scrubing shirts from blood stains.
Your world will be a happier, warmer place.
No more heavy makeup covering your pretty face.
So be strong now and walk away.
Live to love "you" and your children another day.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I've forgotten what this bed is for.
It's going to take a leap of faith.
I jump in bed and here I wait.
I used to just stay up all night
and be surprised by the morning light.
Then one night turned into days.
It's hard to look back through all the haze.
Back then I didn't sleep at all.
I would keep on pushing till I hit the wall.
Putting my body through a stupid test.
A week goes by without any rest.
Insanity comes from lack of sleep.
Nobody else knows the secrets I keep.
There mine to have but not to hold.
I hope they go away before they get told.
Skeletons in the closet they grow like weeds.
How can anyone understand all my dirty deeds.
There not done cheap,in fact,they were expensive.
How can you trust anyone with them, I'm so apprehensive.
I had to tell someone my life was a mess.
So I talked to God and He helped confess.
He washed me clean and He showed me the way.
I told Him I'm a sinner but I'll try not to stray.
I asked Him why He cared,Why He even bothered?
He said because I love you son I am the Father.
Unconditional love was given that day.
He said if I sin again forgiveness was a knee away.
Pain and disappointment were becoming my friends,
My friends were with me constantly, always present, never relenting,
Emotions were quickly giving way to hopelessness.
There would never be joy, happiness would be fleeting,
Hope had been swept away.
The greatest struggle for any living being is survival
Love does not accept demise easily
Without warning Love finds a crack,
There will be hope, there will be joy, dreams come true.
Over the hill of my existence, strolling with refined elegance,
exhibiting no rush, speed is not a concern,
the laziness of beauty lights the fire of intrigue,
dormant for an era, still viable, smoldering not yet extinct.
Like crested curls of the ocean, the caress of desire,
widen the crack to canyon. Love never dies.
The graceful flow of hope initiates a sunrise,
Slowly climbing in my life’s night sky. Love never fails.
Over the mountains of hurt, through the depths of pain,
the warm glow of excitement, searches for reasons to remain.
Excitement wanders over the landscape, leaving meadows of anticipation.
Pressured past persists, but potential prevails.
The melody returns, gliding on rhythm,
slow, sweet, sensual. The flow defines exquisite.
The breathe of intimacy constraints the hearts,
into a fluidity, only known in this moment but reaching for a future.
Every heart beat, two fade, in silence to all, they cry together.
The gentleness of lovers, heals the scars.
The intimacy of soul-mates, ignites the dreams.
The rapport of friends, draws the souls.
The belief of hearts, revives emotions.
Swept Away is us captured.
Swept Away is us.
Swept Away is.
Swept Away.
A Bottled Message of Grace
A successfully affluent lawyer began to wander
Through many years of alcoholism, he fell
Ten years he wandered around in the wilderness
In a drunken state at the bottom of life’s well
Everything he had known in his past life was a blur
Like a dust that slipped through his fingers so quickly
Searching the empty hole in his heart he collapsed
finding himself laying in the street beaten and sickly
Lacking the resources to buy more alcohol he fumbles
Through his pockets looking for change maybe a dollar
His stomach rolls from the lack of nutritious food
His mouth is parched as he loosens his collar
Filthy he heads for the beach to wash in its water
Contemplating suicide, a small bottle tapped on his back
Opening the bottle he saw a note inside with his name on it
Heart racing he opens the note as he looked for a place to sit
Trembling hands , his face washed in tears he slowly read
Dear Joe, This message has followed you for many years
My invitation is to welcome you back home repaired
If you say yes this note will bring you back restored and fed
Leaping to his feet he screams “YES” I accept your invitation
A warmth passed through him like a thousand thundering storms
His body shook as the blinders fell off his eyes he cried, Father
You are my Son, my love breaks with light upon this your new morn
A message in a bottle is all Joe would see
God uses what he needs to reach you and me
It is never to late to reach up for his grace
He will always shine his love upon your face
Carole Cookie Arnold
i tried to love you
and i knew it was a mistake
you do so many things
that i knew i couldn't take
try to change someone
what gave me that ideal
it was when you said you loved me
but that was the way you lived
i never was foolish
and i saw through all the lies
i even saw emotions
that would complicate our lives
real love real love
that is what i had for you
but when payday rolled around
that when you began your abuse
but i wasn't the fool
you thought i was
i had my limit
i knew where to stop love
i knew how to say
this game is over
i'm not going to play
or cross over the boarder
this thing that you are
that you can not stop
it takes away love
all that you've got
it took it from you
it took it from me
it took it from your brother
and sisters i've never seen
and here i am
i tried to help you out
but when you needed me the most
i turned into a louse
sorry, mean ole terrible me
you said "i love you"
and now i've said i love you back
love is a terrible thing when it's just an act
(by john and stephanie) but this is not a collaboration
life sux then u die
y pretend y lie
the b s has been too long
my dreams r long gone
i tryed i prayed
n e more i just cant take
never wanted to b here n way
forced to live, now i forbid
i love my kids just tired of sh
it never ends
and loves just a joke
ur just here til u croak
people just pretend
and im am not who am
life just aint what it seems
and i no longer can
no real love for me here its just a scam,
Am I not Loveable
with cancer
No loving touches, too few hugs
I am a cancer survivor
Yet so alone
Questioning my fellow man
When I needed love the most, at my darkest time
People were hard to find
I begged for help
Most every test, appointment, radiation I sat alone
Oh yes I am stronger, wiser
At what cost
Where are my friends and family
Response from some folks was down right NO’S
My heart breaking and my soul is crushed
I fought so hard
Am still alone
I reached out to relatives
No word of comfort
What is life without touch, love
I need a circle of strength around me
My plea to the world
Care for your sick, fellow man
Do not be scared of illness
You can not catch
See the soul of the sick
Love them all you can
This gift of love is more healing than any cancer pill
Forget your fears.
Open your hearts
End others loneliness and tears
by
Barb Derick
Confussed by your actions
Needing your passion
Dreaming of forever
Knowing we will never
Together is not in our future
But you don't see the big picture
I am holding on to what I can
The memory of you holding my hand
I know what we had is nomore
And I know I am the one who closed Loves door
However it still hurts me too
Because I know I will always love you
But it was not meant to be
I loved you but you did not love me
You only wanted what you could not get
And the peaces of the puzzle don't fit
So now you ask me what is the matter
I tell you it is only my heart that got shattered
It will all be okay
I will find my way
I know I am stronger then you think I can be
I have alot left to give someone who is right for me
So go on and find your next contestant in your game
I will move on and not hang my head in shame
I will go on and learn to fly again
I still have family and friends
And I do have love in my life
You go on and find your perfect wife
I won't try and stop you or get in your way
I won't tell her that you are a user and to run away
She will see for herself your ture colors with her own eyes
I won't tell how many times I cried
Bow my head, with pen to book.
Pretend not to see stolen looks.
Writing of dreams I wish I'd had,
Of naughty times when we were bad.
I think of you, I think of them.
But always, I think of you again.
Endless songs, upon blotted ink.
Scrunched up paper, I tried to think.
Love letters sent and love letters not.
Waiting for you to love me,
but I guess you forgot.
The power called love.
Is the strongest power from above.
Love will truly control your mind.
Make you lose your sense of time.
Love can beat you down.
Or your soul will float with out a sound.
It will make you do the strangest things.
It could bring you much, much, pain.
Question is are you willing to take this risk?
To love someone you will have enternel pain in this.
How about when the money, is gone?
Will this love stay strong and not fall apart?
Whispering pills remember
Where people and love fail
Lingering in shots and hits that filter
That leave body and mind deranged and frail
Comes about in random trysts
Posing for love though suddenly betrayed
This fascination one has to forget
To go numb makes them dumb with age
Carries you out on bricks
On knees one crawls for a day
The pain wrenching and hunching back
Leaving knots in stomach and so begins the first stages of pain
Just once more to remember, to feel again in one's purest of states
To feel as if one knows how to feel-
To love beyond the lure of a pill
The sanctuary that only a synthetic lover can create.
I won’t let you break me
I won’t let you win
I won’t let you hurt me
I wont let you crush my soul again
I have let you go
I have released you
I will breathe again
I will know a love that’s true
Not the lies that you told
Not the pain you left me with
A love that’s divine
A love that’s truly a gift
A love I deserve
A love that deserves me
A love that lifts me
A love that sets me free
I will be free again
Love Letter one (that I didn't know was a love letter until later;sent via my illustrator Christopher Hunter that is dang good at drawing, not spelling LOL
hello john. just want to tell you that your in my thoughts and prayers. i do care deeply for.the confusion hasleft me ,and im left with thoughts of you that are sweet and gental. but to difine what it is im feeling... i dont no
i love you cindy
ps."more than words can say" by eric clapton
(clearing my throat. I listened to that song the other night. Thanks Christopher)
This feeling of helplessness
As I lay in a pencil line on the floor
It’s so pitiful…
In a twisted way I’m happy
I’m alive and so are the people I love
And although I’m in pain
Although I am sick
I’m happy…
I can still look up at the sky and say I’m living…
I can still hold my loved ones and tell them
That I do indeed love them…
I can still cry…
I can still feel…
I can still breathe…
And as they ask how long it will last
I sit and listen then say I don’t care…
As long as I am able to live I will live…
As long as I am able to feel I will feel…
As long as I am able to love I will most certainly love…
When love dies, where do you go?
Please tell me, I have to know.
When love dies, you die too
And there's not a thing anyone can do.
The only part that stays alive
Are the memories and good times.
For everything else is gone,
You have to forget him and move on.
But once your heart is broken,
And so many words were spoken,
It's hard just to forget,
And say, "That's it".
Day after day I hold on to him,
Thinking about what could've been.
Still, I know at this time I must confess
That I have to let go, I guess.
It's over, my hands are down
Trying so hard not to frown.
Realizing I've known this for quite some time,
Yet taking this long, cause' love is blind.
I was only hiding from the truth,
That it's over for me and you.
So many things have changed
As my feelings slowly fade away.
I still care for you my dear,
But it just isn't worth anymore tears.
(9/5/87)