Eat your heart out I know you see
how I beam when I am in love;
You could have worn me like a glove,
or had the sweetest taste of me;
Your feelings always absentee,
what feeds my soul was disposed of;
Eat your heart out;
I found a man who will not flee
unless he pulls me high above;
Making sure I know I’m enough,
THAT’s what you never did baby;
Eat your heart out.
The Absentee Fathers
(I cry for the children)
You disc your children
As though you don’t care.
You cry you love them- But
don’t give them the time of day.
Your children look to other men
For what you refuse to give
They search for feelings
You obviously can never feel.
They long to take your hand
And walk by your side.
To have long talks that only a father and child
Can share- but you are never there.
They’ve missed those precious
Moments
That only you both can experience
To point you out in a crowd, and say, “That’s my dad,”
You deny them even that.
I cry – knowing that they go to bed at night-
With thoughts of you on their minds.
And as they turn their tear-stained faces toward the wall.
I cry for them-
When in their dreams they see you holding them in your arms
Being the dad, they want and need.
As you beam and smile that proud-to-be-a-dad smile-
But of course, that is only a dream-
Because you choose to be an absentee father!
The feeling of doubt is when you have emptiness in your heart
Your thoughts when your brain won't function the sadness and depression is consuming the darkness from the inside out
It's when that someone who you loved so much just left and you don't know why
The only thought that comes to your mind is it’s my fault
I’m the reason he left cause, I'm such a screw up and a mess that he doesn't want me
His own blood, His own family just like that gone I keep wanting to talk to him but if I let him back in all the memories flow In and disappointment comes
The times he made excuses why he couldn't see you and you want him so bad to be the father you’ve always wanted
For him To be the person to walk you down the isle but he hasn't been there not for achievements, dances, high school experiences, birthdays, and holidays.
You know you have to forgive him for what he has done for gods sake but does he deserve that
A parent who abandoned his only daughter
You have Brokenness because of him the deepness of my pain breaks me every time you try to be happy
You try to forget him but it's hard to forget that your own father is absentee .
They were all briskly heading
For a full member's wedding
With an attached harsh Levy
Only too fittingly heavy
For The Careless Absentee,
Who had stayed back like a tree;
Not The Dying at that time,
For that is Poor Health's own crime
A New Couple for wild cheer
While not skipping pleasing beer;
Charles and Eve watch as they join
And their church leave as one loin!
How convoluted love may be
When you are an absentee
Falling in a pensive state
Only to re-create...
Enchantment from a clear conclusion
Contemplating fiery fusion
Though there they are with love by side
Never really satisfied
Clearly in a pensive mood
Recovering from a feud
Hence my love I do condemn
For I wouldn't wanna be them
ABSENTEE MOTHER
And the kid shaking his head,
side to side he cries with dread,
“Mom, mom, where are you?”
Cursing and boo hoos...
In haste, to fountain she fled!
5/9/2018
A flaming red sun cast purple
Against the foggy morn.
A pale gray sky now awakened
By sunlight and adorned
The symphony in the valley
Rises swiftly 'pon cool air
Unmatched by Mockingbird's singing
Then Crows take up their dare
Back and forth the melodies sound
They entertain one soul
While most run and race about life
Trying to gain control
The bright illuminance shines forth
As the sun tops the trees
Another day has begun its
March, night an absentee
until i was eight
i thought you were another man
raised by him taught by him
but i did not understand
i didnt look like him
nor did i think
that it felt real
then in a quick blink
he was gone too
me and my brother
us with just our mom
to two little kids
they think they did wrong
why did he leave
and is he coming back
later on i found out
i had nothin to do with that
and nothin to do with him
from then on out
i had to figure out
what my real dad was about
then i found out quick
that he wasnt about a thing
only care he had
was where was his next drink
but i tried to make it work
for the next seven years
but when my grandfather past
is the first time you brought me to tears
you told me it was my fault
i couldnt believe my ears
that was the last time
i talked to him for years
then my grandma past
and i seen him again
i tried to give him a hug
a sorry for our loss
but he just ignored me
a line again he crossed
askin me why
my mamma was there
unlike you dude
she's there because she cares
unlike you
your absentee ass
go back to the things you do
dont contact me
and dont ask how ive been
cuz know til you gone
now im absentee til the end
N ow that the Mid-Term Elections are near
O ne of the things that we always hear
N ot one of the candidates will give his agenda
E ach one flings mud that could stick on my fender.
O h, how I wish that our process was different
F or electing those representatives who are significant.
T hough I am not enthralled by the prospect
H ere in my own way I must interject...
E lections are only won when people vote with intellect.
A ccording to most of the talking heads we hear
B oth parties have candidates of which we should have no fear.
O nly the candidates will tell you that they get a bad rap
V ery often, however, the voter is the sap ~ Yet,
E ach one of us must vote his conscience...like I just did!