Absentee of a Father

The feeling of doubt is when you have emptiness in your heart Your thoughts when your brain won't function the sadness and depression is consuming the darkness from the inside out It's when that someone who you loved so much just left and you don't know why The only thought that comes to your mind is it’s my fault I’m the reason he left cause, I'm such a screw up and a mess that he doesn't want me His own blood, His own family just like that gone I keep wanting to talk to him but if I let him back in all the memories flow In and disappointment comes The times he made excuses why he couldn't see you and you want him so bad to be the father you’ve always wanted For him To be the person to walk you down the isle but he hasn't been there not for achievements, dances, high school experiences, birthdays, and holidays. You know you have to forgive him for what he has done for gods sake but does he deserve that A parent who abandoned his only daughter You have Brokenness because of him the deepness of my pain breaks me every time you try to be happy You try to forget him but it's hard to forget that your own father is absentee .