Connie Marcum Wong Poet Free verse

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I am waiting…
Should I take that leap of faith
or push the panic button?
I am pretty sure if I choose the latter
no one will even notice.
Stress has me in a suffocating breathing pattern,
taking shallow breaths in an endless polluted sky.
I am in a pool of people also searching to escape,
arms flapping to keep from going under again.
Drowing, yet not being quite sure 
I want a lifeline tossed my way. 
Darkness doesn’t always show up at night,
it may appear in broad daylight,
in nightmares that seem more real than reality.
What year is it? Somehow it doesn’t seem to matter.
Pain is just another symptom of fear
in a lopsided life that balance eludes.
Check mate.

Connie Marcum Wong

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Constance La France July 7, 2015 at 6:35 PM Connie, I am back to read this haunting poem again, so wonderful and thanks for visiting my spiritual poem, I think nature brings us closer to spiritual enlightenment

Pandita Sietesantos July 6, 2015 at 4:03 PM I can only imagine what you are going through right now with your husband's illness. Connie, I have you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. God will see you through this too! This piece deserves a 7! God bless, my friend! Pandita

Kp Nunez July 5, 2015 at 12:26 PM Connie, just got to read your reply. I'm sorry I'm late with my replies. Sorry too, to hear about your husband's illness and that the poem is based on true events. Hang in there. I see that many are praying for you and your hubby. Add me to that list then. Keep well. hugs!

Kp Nunez July 3, 2015 at 9:22 PM What... you have captured the thoughts of one enveloped and overwhelmed with anxiety and panic. Hope this is fiction. Have a peaceful 4th, Connie. Connie Marcum Wong July 5, 2015 at 4:02 AM I am anxious because of my husband's illness. I am usually very optimistic, but sometimes worry gets me down, and why I wrote this. Thank you Kim. Hugs, Connie

James Peranteau July 3, 2015 at 8:50 AM Well dear poet, thankfully you are the artist ! I've been around artists all of my life, and of all the artists I've known, we have all found the tight squeeeeze through that lil' opening at its end called bright ! I look at that lil' avatar of your's, and I see a huge smile ! Love it I do ! An artist's lopside is just another medium for picture; another share to cause wonder and wander, intriguingly wonderful ! Have a great 4th Connie.....much love, james Connie Marcum Wong July 3, 2015 at 8:59 PM Thank you James. You have a great 4th too. I appreciate your insight into my poem. You are spot on. Aloha, Connie

Paul Callus July 2, 2015 at 5:54 PM Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, Connie. Panic stations do occur when life comes down somewhat hard on us. Pressing a panic button will not save the situation; staying calm and resorting to faith and hope are the right solutions. Watch out for the lifeline...it could be thrown by those who keep you and yours in their prayers. Take care. hugs // paul Connie Marcum Wong July 3, 2015 at 9:02 PM Not a day goes by that there isn't some kindness that comes my way, and I am blessed. Thank you my friend. Blessings, Connie

Poet Destroyer A July 2, 2015 at 12:20 AM enjoyed your write *luv, p.d. Connie Marcum Wong July 3, 2015 at 9:03 PM Thank you P.D. cheers, Connie

Laura Leiser July 1, 2015 at 5:07 PM Forgot to put the rating...here goes, sorry!

Laura Leiser July 1, 2015 at 5:06 PM Excellently written, Connie! You captured the anxiety and panic that can well up within, rather suddenly sometimes, very well. A 7 from me :) Connie Marcum Wong July 3, 2015 at 9:05 PM I appreciate your insight into the meaning of my poem Laura. And thank you for the 7. Aloha, Connie

Emile Pinet July 1, 2015 at 11:13 AM The imagery and shear power of your words are impressively seasoned by the use of strong emotions and a descriptive vocabulary that pierce the heart like daggers. Emile. #7 Connie Marcum Wong July 3, 2015 at 9:07 PM Your comments are always meaningful so I know you understood what I was trying to express. Thank you very much Emile. Blessings, Connie

Nette Onclaud July 1, 2015 at 9:13 AM ohh, i like how you gave a disturbing voice behind a surge of anxiety and pinned it, connie... such an experiential write; wow!.. huggs Connie Marcum Wong July 3, 2015 at 9:10 PM Thank you Nette. It is a bit cathartic. Hugs, Connie

Eve Roper July 1, 2015 at 12:55 AM Connie, this is wonderful, I will throw you a life line. I feel like this sometimes. God's hand always helps me to get out of my need of help. Bless you Eve Connie Marcum Wong July 1, 2015 at 2:34 AM Thank you very much Eve. I have been awakened by my own terrified screams past few weeks and it is disconcerting. My faith is stronger than the fear though. Blessings, Connie

Dr. Upma A. Sharma June 30, 2015 at 10:33 PM Wonderful write Connie! I hv missed reading ur deep poetry for quite sometime! Connie Marcum Wong July 1, 2015 at 12:05 AM It is so nice to hear from you Dr. Sharma. I appreciate your kind comment. hugs, Connie

Eileen Manassian June 30, 2015 at 10:12 PM This is a very sad write, my dear. I feel the despair. I've felt this despair often. I hope that you feel hope break through the darkness. Thank you for your visit to my work. It's always a pleasure to hear from you. Hugs Connie Marcum Wong July 1, 2015 at 12:05 AM My husband's illness is where the stress is coming from and the full moon makes it more difficult. Actually I am doing okay. Thanks Eileen. Hugs, Connie

Andrea Dietrich June 30, 2015 at 10:05 PM Connie, this one feels despairing. I know the feeling this one shows. All to well, but you are like me. We just go on.We are happy women. I hope you are not feeling too much this way. hard to know with us poets when we are going overboard with our poetic license. Anyway, this is well written free verse. Connie Marcum Wong July 1, 2015 at 12:03 AM It is the full moon tugging at my emotions Andrea. I am glad you have the haven of poetry to shelter you while you are away. I hope you will at least have continued good weather. Hugs, Connie XXXOOO

Andrea Dietrich June 30, 2015 at 10:03 PM Yes,I have been very very busy, Connie, I wrote SIX poems while here already. They do absolutely nothing except watch Fox news all day long. I think their brains are turning to mush. I laid out a few times and wrote poems. I can't get to my hotmail but am having fun emailing from Soupmails and getting in lots of comments, especially when everyone goes to bed around 9 p.m even my dopey husband. hahaha. Let me read this now!!

Constance La France June 30, 2015 at 8:26 PM Connie, your write is darkly deep and thought provoking, a wonderful 7 and thanks for visiting my haiku 11 Connie Marcum Wong July 1, 2015 at 2:35 AM Thank you Constance, for your comment and 7 rating. hugs, Connie

Arthur Vaso June 30, 2015 at 7:19 PM Wow, this is one of those poems that in my view has so many levels, loved this! Connie Marcum Wong July 1, 2015 at 12:01 AM Thank you Arthur. Just the emotional full moon getting the best of me, but not the best from me. I am glad you liked this. Blessings, Connie