Adieu Papa

Didn't know it would hurt this much, 
I wasn't prepared for it. I loved your imperfections and the memories I 
didn't think I had, flown in abundance 
and that is what hurt the most. I'm 
honestly left with the good ones and 
the bad ones make it better. I'm tearing because I hoped to see to see you again. 
The real you and not the lifeless one papa. Your first grandchild will miss you. I'll miss when you scold me for not calling you enough. When you offer me pap in the morning when I visit, even when you know I wouldn't take it. When you jest about giving you a great-grandchild when you had a bunch of grandchildren invading your peace already. I'll miss the vocabulary you use and I have to go search for the meaning. Your wife would miss your little quarrels, how would she stay alone without you now? Your sister. She's the reason I feel more pain, she would be so lonely now. It was just you and her left. This would hurt her so badly and I can't help it because I feel her every pain, she's the closest human I love the most on earth. The young ones will call for you, search for you and knock on your door until they get used to never seeing you again. Rest now, rest well papa. There's no pain anymore.
I hope you have United with my uncles above. Tell them it's been more than a decade and I'm still not over them. I still think about the both of them and it hurts Me like a fresh wound melted in salt. We love you and this is a great loss for us all. I didn't think I would wake up this morning with such news. My eyes are swollen and my head bangs. I really wish I wasn't miles away. Watch over us now Grandpa. Adieu Papa.
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Warlov Avatar
February 1, 2025 at 5:49 PM
Aren't we the most precious jewels in God's hands? It's a mistake, an illusion to think that is lost. Of all the beauty of Earth's expressions we are the pinnacle, His Joy perfected and multiplied beyond the stars.
Jones Avatar
July 7, 2024 at 11:40 AM
Tonye this is so heart wrenching and I am sorry for your loss! Papa is certainly watching over you and his love is still alive and present for love never dies.
La France Avatar
June 27, 2024 at 3:29 AM
Tonye, I am so sorry for the loss of your Papa. I know this grief well, as I lost my dad in a similar way, a phone call, and I arrived too late, he had died. Our dad's are watching us from heaven. You expressed your grief perfectly with loving emotions, A FAV, Constance
George Avatar
June 27, 2024 at 4:37 AM
Thank you, Constance. Sorry for your loss too. I hope they find peace.
George Avatar
June 23, 2024 at 5:42 AM
Being miles away, when you hear the news of your grandpa's demise, I know how shaken you are and how memories crowd your mind. You being his first grandchild, you must have been loved and pampered more than all his other grand children. The death of a dear one will haunt us at least for sometime. This is a lovely tribute you can give to that old man though you may not be able to attend his last rites. I am sorry for your loss dear Tonye.
George Avatar
June 24, 2024 at 10:29 PM
I appreciate your kindness Dear Valsa. Means a lot. It really did hurt and yeah! I was really pampered. Right now adulthood is doing the opposite lol. So I have to work chilly and save the pampering for my kids soon. I'm not in the same city with the family but I'll definitely fly in for the burial by August.
Fowler Avatar
June 16, 2024 at 7:38 AM
An elegy to admire Tonye. Emotional and loving and accepting.
George Avatar
June 24, 2024 at 10:29 PM
Thank you, Dear, Linda.
George Avatar
June 24, 2024 at 10:24 PM
Thank you, Dear, Linda.
One Avatar
June 2, 2024 at 9:50 AM
There is no pain like loss, especially for a loved one so close to you.. This is a touching and deeply emotional reflection on the loss of your beloved grandfather. It effectively conveys the pain of grief, the bittersweet nature of memories, and the enduring bonds of family. The raw honesty and vivid imagery make it a powerful tribute, resonating with anyone who has experienced the loss of a loved one. Everyone will relate and I am so sorry for your loss..
George Avatar
June 2, 2024 at 11:03 AM
Thank you so much. He was a strong hold connecting us. I've seen him everyday. Unlike before I'm turning my hurts into something good. Other times I'll drown in silence. Thank you for making this place feel much like home.
Buhagiar Avatar
May 26, 2024 at 11:27 PM
I could have emulated this wonderful write with that of my wife, now severs gone, still grieving. A magnificent elegy for your dear father. I lost mine a long time ago, along with my dear mother whom I loved too. The loss of a dear one seems to produce great poetry like yours.
George Avatar
May 27, 2024 at 5:53 AM
Thank you so much, Dear Victor.
Ashley Avatar
May 26, 2024 at 6:48 PM
Dear Tonye, your eloquent elegy overflows the brim with the sad beauty of heart and soul baring in these moments of heart-wrenching loss. Such an intimate portrayal of grief and sorrow. Your poignant verse captures and radiates the universal emotion of mourning. I can relate to the loss you've experienced. You express it so soulfully and I am deeply touched. My condolences to you, dear poetess. Warmest wishes and hugs.. ~Susan
George Avatar
May 26, 2024 at 7:08 PM
Thank you dear Susan for your warm words. It's comforting. I appreciate. Cheers.
George Avatar
May 26, 2024 at 6:51 PM
Thank you dear Susan for your warm words. It's comforting. I appreciate. Cheers.
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