Roller Coaster

Every day I ride this never-ending roller coaster. Unpredictable, even to myself, life is one big challenge. The ups and downs take me from high to low in a matter of minutes/hours. The twists and loops send my mind into a whirlwind leaving my body numb. Dark tunnels seem cold and lonely, but I make it through them in no time at all. Just when things start to slow down and I think the ride is over, I speed past the exit and it starts all over again. As each time I pass, the scenery changes and a whole new set of events take place, leaving me choices I least expect.
On occasion, the brakes come to a screeching halt, but only for a second. It's then I find myself no longer moving forward, but riding in reverse and gripping my harness tighter than ever as I close my eyes. My biggest fear being, not the places I've never gone, but the places I've already been.

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Brian Strand Date: 1/25/2008 12:50:00 AM Your writing in this blog provides an answer Lana...a poet or writer's best work often comes from their empirical observations.This blog is a very moving and real... albeit heart rending ...vignette.Keep taking up your pen when you feel this way.Rgds Brian Login to Reply

Margaret Okubo Date: 1/24/2008 1:17:00 PM I know what you mean dear heart but have no fear of the unknown. Just take life as it comes. One day at a time. Love and blessings, Meg. Login to Reply

Laura Mckenzie Date: 1/24/2008 11:34:00 AM Oh Lana we all carry some dark side to us. Perhaps thats why we are poets we can feel everthing ,I too suffer with myself I have an anxiety disorder that I've lived with for about 9 years. Alot I manage it there are times it rides me hard. I guess I'm coming out of the closet here in front of everyone. Know that your amoung friends here. And I'm one of them. Also I have noticed your writing and I look foward to reading it! Kindly Laura :) Login to Reply

Vince Suzadail Jr. Date: 1/24/2008 8:30:00 AM Your description fits it well. I once told a young lady that she was like a formula one race car in a used car parking lot. You can go from zero to lightening faster than the others can start their engines. She laughed and said yes, that's me. Great kid with a tough battle but step by step she was winning. God Bless. Vince Login to Reply