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Raeghan Steele Poem
While I think of that night
Try to remember what happened that night
All I remember is feeling pure joy
As I think back I can not think of a single miserable thought
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Crazy how having respect for someone
Gets confused with kissing there butt
I guess I was just raised different form you
I'm sorry
But i'm honestly happy we're not friends anymore
I can’t believe I let you walk all over me
And yet i'm only seeing it once i've taken a good step back
I've always been someone to believe that everything happens for a reason
You might not understand what that reason is
But one day all the pieces will come to you
And you'll understand
I wish more high schoolers understood
That high school is such a small part of your life
So even though i'm having a hard time too
I want all the high school students reading this to remember
You are loved
And things will be hard at times
You'll feel like you can never get to the shore of this horrible ocean
But I believe in you
And I know how it feels to be in that ocean for a long time
With the waves rushing over your head
A million times over and over again
And i'm sorry you feel like this
But you have to remember there is things to live for
I know you didn't ask to be placed on this earth
But youre here for a reason
Trust me
YOU ARE WORTH SOMETHING
YOU ARE LOVED
Please don't forget that
-R.S
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I let you make me believe your treatment of me was okay.
I let you take me away,
Even though you only ever wanted to go halfway.
At that time, I didn’t think anything of it.
Looking back,
It seemed to be okay,
Only because I didn’t realize how badly you would
hurt me.
And when you started slipping away from me,
I tried to hold onto you.
I held on
Until I could feel
the tighter I held you,
The faster you wanted to leave.
So I stopped holding on
And I let you be.
But I didn’t let go only for you to come back
To me
You came back
When you left first
you started it first.
But when you came back,
you didn’t think I was going to move on.
You didn’t think I was able to love someone else.
And to be honest, when you left me, I didn’t think I would ever be able to.
You made me feel like I needed you,
Like I couldn’t live without you.
But when you came back,
Things weren’t quite how you left them.
And when I told you I moved on,
That I was with the love of my life,
You told me it was my fault.
How I should have waited for you.
How even though I found love when I wasn’t looking,
That you believed you would never be able to truly love
. And that made me hurt for you.
But I can’t fix someone, especially someone who doesn’t want to be fixed.
I tried to help you,
I really did.
You shouldn’t have to drown your feelings,
Not the way you do.
But even after everything you’ve done to me,
I will always be there for you,
Only in hopes that one day you’ll need me.
In hopes that one day,
You’ll get better.
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When in that moment in my life
I did not believe it was actually happening to me
That just couldn't be
The longer I sat in that bed
I soon realized I was not dreaming
Nor living in a false reality
This was
MY
Reality
And I was living my worst nightmare
I can picture everything that went down that night
Like it was playing out infront of me
Almost like seeing a movie you've seen 100 times
And even so each time you watch it
Something new
Shows it self
Each time you re-watch it
I remember thinking that these people must really hate their job right now
I remember them taking everything out of the room before I came in
I remember them telling me I need to calm down
I remember them drawing my blood
Each tear a raindrop, torn apart
I remember being so tired I couldn't sleep
I remember feeling like a failure
I remember being so mad at myself
I remember being there for what feels like forever
In the leading up weeks nothing mattered to me
Like a broken mirror, unable to be fixed piece by piece, reflecting nothing more than who I truly was
Like a candle burning itself out, smothered by its our flame, In desperate need to extinguish the pain
Like a fading photo, losing all color, clarity, slipping into oblivion
But of course
That was't the worst part
That was't even the start.
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Have you ever wondered what people are thinking about
What’s playing on repeat in their head
Their-
World
The place where they spend all their time
Thinking a thousand thoughts per minute
Ideas, School, work, worries, Family, thoughts, friends, overthinking,
Thinking
over and over and over again.
All these things pile up rather fast
Soon everything is too fast
Quite too fast to keep track
From the outside
A new, shiny, White , Clean ,House
But what about the inside?
On the outside, everything might seem fine
But in reality, what does the inside
Look like?
Something you'll never
Know
You will never be able to
Never be able to See what someone's head looks like
Never be able to walk in their shoes
Not even for a second
You might think you understand
Understand what someone is going through
Know why they do the things they do
But do you?
Do you really ever even know someone?
Have you ever thought about that?
Have you ever thought about how much you know a person?
We all carry bags
Things we won't let go
Things that we will never forget
Some good
Some bad
Just depends
What does it mean to know someone?
How much do you really know someone?
Everyone carries scars
The things that can’t just be washed
Washed away
Like paint on a canvas
It can be covered up
Yes!
But never gone
No matter how many times you try and get rid of it
It will always be there
Silent
We all have a time in our lives
Where we realize our words no longer have an impact
Our words no longer mean as much as they once might have
Everything
just one big misunderstanding
And we will never really know someone
Never really know what they're going through
Never really know what they're carrying
Never really know their scars
Never really know what’s playing inside their Head!
Constantly playing.
Day in and day out
Silent from the outside
But on the inside
Always playing
Always on…never really silent.
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Down the road
The long dark road
Heavy with trees on either side
Filled with the unknown sound of reality
Deep in thought
Never really paying much mind to the world around
I know there is things lurking within the trees
Things of the unrecognized
As I continue walking down the road
I start to feel lighter
As if things are becoming brighter
The sounds of the unknown start to dissipate
And when I make it to the end of the road
I soon realize, this wasn't a road at all
Its was nothing less than a high school hallway
And me getting lighter and sounds going silent
I realized that was just me leaving school
Leaving for good
For once things might be quite
But what you think isn't always right
And once I stepped out
Things only got darker
And soon nothing was ever quite
again
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Have you ever noticed?
Noticed when everything changed
When all the sudden
Everyone has something to say
Everyone but you..
We all know everyone has changed
That's a part of growing up
But when did it start
When did we all start caring about what people had to say
Cared about what thought
What they thought on your life
Your decisions
Your choices
Making your path for you
Slowly but surely
Closing all the doors you had open
All the windows
Anyway you could possible get out
It's easy to say just don't listen to them
But it's hard to do
Its hard when they have control on your life
Really you know you can make your own decision
But all you want is to be liked
To be wanted by someone
One day things will change again
Again for the better
Or worst
But we won't know
Know until that time comes
The time when everything changes again.
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Wondering
Up and down
The halls
With each fresh step a new class
Filled with sounds of papers being passed out
Students on their phones
Pencils under too much pressure,
and Groans of laptops
As I continued to walk past each class
I heard them
My head started filling up
Filling up with all the possible things I could have done wrong
Now with each not so fresh step
Being a little heavier
Eyes
All on me
When I walk by they become a lot louder then they were before
Why are there voices weighing me down?
Why do I care?
I know I have done nothing wrong.
So why with each step, did my feet feel heavier and heavier
When I finally made it to where I was going
I turned back
To look into the eyes that were connected to the voice
But when I turned back Nothing
Not a single pair of peering eyes on me
Not even the faintest whispers
Everything just
Gone
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“You live in a false reality”
“That’s not going to make you any smarter”
“I don’t get what you like about it”
“You’re doing that because you like to?”
“That’s so boring”
“You actually enjoy that”
Spending my life wrapped up
Wrapped up in nothing less than an amazingly unrealistic world
I’ve spend my life wrapped up in the pages of book
There's something tranquilizing about reading
Something so indescribable
about getting to paint that sensational picture in your head
When I try to explain reading to someone
I say “it's just like watching a movie, but so much better”
There is something so rewarding about finishing a book
Feeling accomplished, and so proud
With each book a different story
With each book your getting to live a completely different life
And that's what I love most about reading
I’d much rather live between the pages of books
Then live in realty
With each turn of a page something new just around the corner
I would pick a book over people anyday
Only because books don't have to understand you to like you
You only have to understand and like the book to read it
And there just something about reading
I can't quite explain
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Have you ever seen someone with a perfect life?
On social media?
Instagram
Facebook
Twitter
Snapchat
The list goes on and on
As the times go on
The “perfect life” plastered all over your feeds
You sit and scroll for days
Comparing your life
Your body
Your mind
Your friends
Your family
You’re Whole World
To nothing more than a false reality
Nothing these days is real
The pressure to
Say
Do
Act
A perfect way
Is nothing out of the ordinary
Not for today's world
Not a single thing out of place
Every loose thread, sealed up with filters, covered by comments, filled with likes
Every teenager, knows that every person older than them
They have also been a teenager
But they will Never understand
Understand what it's like to grow up in today's world
With the consist pressure
The consist words, hanging, lingering in the air
“You need to stop being so lazy”
“You need to grow up”
“These are the best years of your life”
“Be happy”
“You're never around anymore”
“What happened to my happy little kid?”
“Why can’t you pass any of your classes?”
“Your life is not horrible, stop acting like it is”
All these things they pile up on top of us
And they wonder why we can't do our best
And yes, its their first time living too
There going to make mistakes
But dont let them know they hurt your feeling
Don't start that
“Your such a baby”
“Quit being so emotionally”
You don't want to start that
Not today, Not ever
The world is always changing,
Always growing,
Time will never stop, Time will never wait for you to get ready, Never wait for you to grow up
Grow up a little bit more.
Just a little bit more.
Before it throws you into the ocean
The Ocean you'll
Never escape
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