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I Hate Christmas

I hate Christmas
Cuz I never get what I want
I feel like scrooge
Cuz I’m addicted to bitterness

I have these thoughts that haunt
Me every year
So I drown em
In alcohol

I always drink too much eggnog
Bah humbug
Sometimes I like to abuse
Myself so I can feel something

Other times I rather feel numb
Cuz I always feel pain
I need an excuse to get drunk
Every holiday I get ed up

I isolate myself from everyone
And get drunk alone
In my room
I only come out to get more liquor

I start drinking on Christmas eve
Then I stop after new years
The only thing I want to achieve
Is to see how ed up I can get

I got too many fears
The main thing I am
Scared of is running
Out of liquor

I’m always around it
So it’s hard not to relapse
I get drunk quicker and quicker
I’m a ing lightweight

I won’t stop drinking
Until I collapse
I feel like I can’t function
Without a drink

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Deathwish

I’m slowly going
On a downward spiral
I’m making impulsive decisions
I need a revival
I can’t live under these conditions

Everything is making me
Feel worse
This darkness is truly
A curse

It infects every part of my life
It plagues the life of others
I feel this knife
Getting pushed in deeper

This feeling smothering me
I need someone to shelter me
From this storm
I can see the face of the reaper

I feel like it would be
Better if I wasn’t born
The mountain I climb
Gets steeper

I have always had problems
With no one to solve em
Medication only suppresses
The darkness

I’m the black sheep
Of my family
Everyone has their own life
While I’m struggling to

Make the most out of this hell
This pain runs deep
I need to come out of my shell
But I’m too scared

To get out of my comfort zone
You are paired
With the same people your whole life
And everyone expects you to be alright

But families have problems
This house never feels like a home
It feels like a living hell
No one truly cares

Everyone has their own life
While I’m struggling live
I hate it when you yell
I don’t feel like you wanted to give

Me the same amount of love
As everyone else in this
ed up family
I’m not like everyone else

I’m the problem child
I can remember every
Traumatic memory
I never remember the good ones

I don’t feel like there were
Any good memories
My life is not fun
I feel like I got a gun

Pointed at my head
But I’m struggling
To pull the trigger
I already feel dead

This pain is not mild
It’s more severe
Than you think
I’m just a  up

My two brothers started working
When they were still in high school
While I was trying to be a kid
Cuz my childhood was robbed from me

By this darkness and trauma
I can’t find a place to shelter myself
From this storm
But it just keep pouring

I got nothing good going
In my life
I don’t have a job
And I’m not in school

I walked in traffic
Hoping I would get hit
It is like I was riding the
Crazy train

But someone else was
Taking the wheel
I can’t get these ideas out
Of my brain

I don’t know how to feel
Without being high
I can’t deal
With this pain anymore

I don’t know how to heal
Without taking meds
It’s hard to get better
When your suffering in silence

I got a ing deathwish
I have nightmares with
A lot of violence
I dealt with too much trauma

To want to recover
I wish that I could just get cured
But unfortunately I need to suffer
To be a survivor

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Cravings

I need booze to sleep
I’m drowning deep
In misery
My heart has a serious injury

I need pills to feel
I need drugs to heal
My internal pain
I feel like I might relapse again

These pills are slowly killing me
I need to flee
Away from this toxic place
I need to be in a safe space

To make better choices
I’m sick of hearing voices
I feel like I’m going crazy
My vision is going hazy

I love getting ed up
I never want to grow up
I’m addicted to pain
My brain is 

Getting harder to maintain
Addiction is a monster
That I can’t tame

I have no self control
I’m digging myself deeper
In this hole

I need to drink
To cope with my loneliness
I’m nothing more than a drunk
I’m just a stupid punk

Who let’s everyone down
I can’t live without the bottle
I live with risks
Like I’m on full throttle

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Six Feet Under

Fill my body full of toxins 
I’m all out of options
My heart will soften
Throw me in a coffin

Your knife will be the final blow
For me to go
I will die slow
Or maybe I will grow

From this experience
I will be victorious
I will prevail
I will not fail

I’m already six feet under
I am not a jumper
I can’t satisfy my hunger
For the end

I’m staring the devil in his face
I’m in his headspace
Running in place
Playing his bass

I won’t get knocked down
I will not wear a frown
I will be grinning
While I’m winning

This fight with him
Then I will throw his bass
Right in the bin
I will pin

Him to the ground
Then he will be the one
That gets drowned
In gasoline 

I will be keen
I will never die
I won’t cry
I will wave goodbye

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I'M Spreading My Falling Leaves

I'm spreading my falling leaves 
It's time to put my hood up
And wear long sleeves
All my feelings are changing 
My mood is rearranging
It's time to turn a new leaf
I need to find some relief
From this constant stress
Of summer
It was such a bummer
It was too hot
I wanna get caught 
In this cool weather 
And feel brand new forever

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Cursed

I am like a cigarette waiting to be burnt out
My eyes are waiting for a drought 
My heart wants to burst 
But sadly I am cursed 

To not feel any emotional attachment 
Ever since I was a kid those feelings have been absent 
I would love to feel again 
But I can’t find anything to gain 

I am just a man 
With no plan 
To fix my tormented heart 
I would rather for it to be ripped apart 

My whole life I have been plagued 
By these memories that can’t seem to fade 
I could never find a cure 
To make my heart pure 

My heart is pandora's box 
Everyone always gives it a shot 
To get it opened 
But you can’t open what is already broken

You don’t want to love me 
I will not fill your heart with glee
I will only fill it with pain 
My heart is impossible to tame

I feel so cold 
These feelings are getting old 
I am always so sad 
I always feel bad 

I don’t want to care 
Life isn’t fair 
My life is a war 
I’m stuck on the floor 

Crying an ocean
I don’t want to feel emotion 
My heart feels sick
I am always everyone’s last pick 

I'm lost in a forest of doom and gloom oom 
I need to find my way out soon
I am drowning in a sea of tears 
I am consumed by my childhood fears

I never had time to play 
I just wanted to run away 
From the black cloud 
And every big crowd 

I am scared to be alone 
I am scared that I will get kicked out of this fake home 
I need a better place to go 
Let's go on with the show 

I was forced to grow 
I was in more pain than you will ever know 
Ever since I was a kid I was tackling obstacles
Solving my problems back then wasn’t possible 

I still can’t solve em 
Its problem after problem 
They just keep piling up like tear soaked tissues 
And empty bottles of booze 

I would make bad choices to attempt to feel better 
I used to be kind of a beggar 
I used to get abuse a lot of things to feel faded 
I was addicted to getting wasted 

I started out with depression 
I soon got to memory suppression 
Then all of my problems fell into place 
I turned into a basket case

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Darkness

There's a phantom
Following me home
I’m overwhelmed with fear
I’m always alone

This place is so dreary
I feel stuck here
Like I’m forced
To live here with no escape

I want to run
But my legs won’t move
It’s like my feet
Are glued down

He would poke fun
At me
But he didn’t know
His words were like razor blades

Slowly tearing me apart
Every day there
Was killing me
Now I have a bitter heart

I feel like this darkness 
Is swallowing me whole
I feel like it’s goal
Is to kill me

This darkness is turning
Me into something I dread
An insensitive loner
I feel like I’ll end up dead

There is no end
To this pain
It just gets worse
I could never face my fears

I have no friend
To rely on
I am stuck
Crying bloody tears