Cursed

I am like a cigarette waiting to be burnt out My eyes are waiting for a drought My heart wants to burst But sadly I am cursed To not feel any emotional attachment Ever since I was a kid those feelings have been absent I would love to feel again But I can’t find anything to gain I am just a man With no plan To fix my tormented heart I would rather for it to be ripped apart My whole life I have been plagued By these memories that can’t seem to fade I could never find a cure To make my heart pure My heart is pandora's box Everyone always gives it a shot To get it opened But you can’t open what is already broken You don’t want to love me I will not fill your heart with glee I will only fill it with pain My heart is impossible to tame I feel so cold These feelings are getting old I am always so sad I always feel bad I don’t want to care Life isn’t fair My life is a war I’m stuck on the floor Crying an ocean I don’t want to feel emotion My heart feels sick I am always everyone’s last pick I'm lost in a forest of doom and gloom oom I need to find my way out soon I am drowning in a sea of tears I am consumed by my childhood fears I never had time to play I just wanted to run away From the black cloud And every big crowd I am scared to be alone I am scared that I will get kicked out of this fake home I need a better place to go Let's go on with the show I was forced to grow I was in more pain than you will ever know Ever since I was a kid I was tackling obstacles Solving my problems back then wasn’t possible I still can’t solve em Its problem after problem They just keep piling up like tear soaked tissues And empty bottles of booze I would make bad choices to attempt to feel better I used to be kind of a beggar I used to get abuse a lot of things to feel faded I was addicted to getting wasted I started out with depression I soon got to memory suppression Then all of my problems fell into place I turned into a basket case