I Hate Christmas

I hate Christmas Cuz I never get what I want I feel like scrooge Cuz I’m addicted to bitterness I have these thoughts that haunt Me every year So I drown em In alcohol I always drink too much eggnog Bah humbug Sometimes I like to abuse Myself so I can feel something Other times I rather feel numb Cuz I always feel pain I need an excuse to get drunk Every holiday I get ed up I isolate myself from everyone And get drunk alone In my room I only come out to get more liquor I start drinking on Christmas eve Then I stop after new years The only thing I want to achieve Is to see how ed up I can get I got too many fears The main thing I am Scared of is running Out of liquor I’m always around it So it’s hard not to relapse I get drunk quicker and quicker I’m a ing lightweight I won’t stop drinking Until I collapse I feel like I can’t function Without a drink