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Being seen
With poker face
Mistaken
As who does not give a damn
Cool and distant
Unfriendly aura
On the way
With people's stares and whispers
That she is a bad person
That is funny
Why judge
They do not know about her
Alone her name
Little they know
About the experiences and traumas
Mould her this way
No strength to make facial expression
With little energy
Left in her
Only use
This remaining will of hers
To live and face on
It is precious thing
She will keep at all costs
With friends she trusts
And faith she holds to believe
Those who love her
A rare privilege
Seeing her real self
Wild mind
Innocently gives love back
More than she does to herself
Because she feels safe
Knowing there is nothing
That will bring her down
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Making a decision
A step forward
Saying yes or no
Weighing the pros and cons
Knowing the best
What it suits me
Being clear
Of the sacrifices and adjustment
In order to be there
Voices of opinions
Around you
In your ears
Sometimes overwhelming
Away from your conscious
What your heart really wants
The gut feeling
Screaming inside you
Paranoid
With what ifs
Making mistakes
Causing regrets
Boiling anger
Self destruct
Clouding your mind
Losing your way
Almost forgetting
That you are the person
Facing this situation
Not all things
Not all reasons
Not all depth
They know about
Their words
Just guidance
Giving exposure and closure
Not the determinat
Of your life you living
You know the rules
Set sail
Streak it
Till that big break comes
Glorious
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Watching
People speaking to each other
So effortlessly confident
Words flow
At their first meet
Curling my knuckles
Under my face
Feeling with envy
Sometimes with anger
Secretly hating
Not them
The people from my past
Who made my heart and mind
This way
Just not enough
For myself to move on
How far I go
Pulling me back to zero
Building up
And destroying at the same time
From the triggers and experience
That embedded in me
Hiding back to my inner shell
Everytime my heart hits hard
Regardless the intention
Afraid to be broken
Leaving me no hope
To rebuild myself again
Still making myself think
Back in my mind
It is over
The things I used to see
All gone and no longer there
At least
The humble truth
Close to my soul
Able to step one forward
Own time and space
The past is behind me
Where I do not face it anymore
Now I see
Same but different
Little but better
With that
Regaining myself
Once again
The best
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Oh gosh
In a maze
Mess over here
Mess over there
Everywhere
Like zombie apocalypse
Coming to get me
Gonna plan
My action of attack
With plastic bags and boxes
As their coffins
Ain't compromise
Nope
Ain't shedding a tear
Coz this will set me free
Opening up the horizon
Opportunities
Fresh ideas
Productive lifestyle
Making me
Oh My Gosh
Blaming my lazy behind
Thinking
I will need this and that
Reasoning illogically
Been nagged
Till my ears about to fall off
And my eyes shaking up
Long for days, months and years
Gonna bust
Their territory
Making my headquarters
Armed with discipline
Not making this happen again
Throw stuff
Like Michael Jordan
Banana kick like Cristiano Ronaldo
Swift myself like Usain Bolt
Then finale myself
Holding cape
Clearing the mess
Saying "Ole!"
Bull eye!
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We have dreams
Filling our hearts with passion
Making us alive
Blood pumping solid
Wanna get there
To make it true
Making us fulfillingly happy
Do whatever we can
Day and night
Every second
Trying and failing
Flipping and crying
Being mocked
By naysayers
Confused to which one
To listen and have guide
When overwhelmed
Step back
And breathe
We have only ourselves
To win and learn
Gut feeling is our guide
Awareness is the telescope
To our resources
Under our noses
Heart will be the mighty pen
That write out
The destiny
We will belong
Don't worry
How it takes
How much it takes
Don't focus on
What ifs, could haves and should haves
That will be wasting time and energy
Fail before trying
That is a big no no
Mindset
Of whatever life gives us
Any kind of situations we are in
As we do it
Even our life ends
We can proudly say
We did whatever we could
We did have fun
We did feel happy
It is all or nothing at all...
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Been one
For a long time
Never have one
Grown up
Secretly needs one
Not just having it
Opportunity to cherish it
Something special
Despite ignoring it
Bury it deep inside my chest
It gets louder and louder
Every lovebirds come by
I can only dream
Smiling to myself
Imagining that for me
Glancing around
As if it is coming to me
Right now
Foolish me
Just a fantasy
Costly to maintain
Fragile to touch
In this modern world
Wishing time slows down
Actually looking at each other
By the eyes
Intertwining hands
All sorts of good physical embraces
Not running around
Money collecting
Fit schedules to just make time
See and go
Horrible thing to do
For love
Especially after all
That waiting
To make it happen
At least they have one
I have none
I can do is to dream
Building my hopes up
Ignoring my fears
That it does not come true for me
Closing my eyes
Swinging my legs
Waiting for the one to show up
Sweeping me
Off my feet
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It is strange and funny
Like a game
Being the odd one
Among others
Way far from age and stage of life
Within hand's reach
Cannot find a person
Similar to me
In finding dreams
Ways to make it happen
Conversation over
Same problems
Same understanding
Being there
Giving emotional support
Growing old together
Being in arms and smiles
Wandering
If there is one for me
Will it be too late
Will it be too much for me to handle
Does he want to know me
Finding things he loves about me
Open arms to who I really am
Should I risk it all
With a step forward
To get him notice me
Afraid of embarassment
Not able to make it happen
Awkward and maybe uncomfortable
Afterwards
While losing my mind
If I stand there, do nothing
Letting this opportunity goes by
Making me a fool
Only time will tell
Making my heart
Ready to make a move
Towards my prediction
Wish me luck...
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The way your eyes
Tracing me
From head to toe
Memorizing every detail of me
Mesmerizing the uniqueness
You have ever seen
Smiling warmly
Initiating towards
Shorten distance
Between you and I
I cannot believe
It is happening to me
Used to being invisible
Only from afar
To see such sight
Excites heart of mine
Looking at you
Anticipating your next move
But doubts appear
In my mind
Of what you see
The thing brings you near
Finding out
That I am far different
From your desires
Not able to balance out
With our differences
What if
It is a bad mistake?
Putting love on wrong person
It is never love
Just lust with heartbreaking ending
Which should not
Start at the first place
Walking away
Cannot stand any longer
Knowing
It will break my heart
Wanting to happen
Yet be in safe distance
Not wanting to hurt you
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Years ago
I knew
What I want to do
Being excited
Energized by the dream
Fun adventure
Just the mistake
I made
Giving up
Before it started
Mind
Full of non existent excuses
Thoughts of failing
Dream too big
To make it happen
I regret that mistake...
That years gone by
Being in circles
Facing the endless pain
What I want is there
In front of me
Why I give a miss?
Now I am here
Little wiser and calmer
Looking at the same picture
Once I have been given
Again, long ago
Still I have time
It is not over
I am still here
Being in my own world
Looking still
Reflecting my actions
That cause me to this state
Now knowing better
Regardless whether
Getting a shot in this
Learn to have fun
Making exploration
Meaningful and productive at least
One at a time
Put in more than 100 percent
Do whatever the necessary
Rest if need to
Do not stop
A bit goes a long way
Keep my passion
Like a secret
Burning bright in my soul
That keeps me alive
Let actions speaks
Continue to put out there
Will there be smoke
Again and again
Soon there will be fire
That makes my presence sparks
More than I was before...
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Living this far
The years of trials
I face
Amazed
With my two feet
Still standing still
Wondering
How I still be able
To be here, Today
Though
Wishing
Restarting my life again
To certain time
That days
That very moment
Before it falls apart
Should not have
Think so freely
That it will be simple
And worked out fine
Should have done
Things
Preparing for other years
The other me
Later on
Would have
Been happier
Open to fall in love
Striking out
My adventures
From my bucket list
Making use of time
Creating beautiful things
For the people around
For the world
That forever hope
That forever happiness
Living my life
Like a speed of light
Coming back
To my senses
Tears in my eyes
Finally have the answer
To my questions
On later years
Appreciating
Grasping it
This is all I have got
I cannot restart
But I can create one
A brand new page
To the life I seek
With the better me
Time to go
And be on my way
Kissing my past
With goodbye and greatest thanks
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