Mimosa Pudica

Watching People speaking to each other So effortlessly confident Words flow At their first meet Curling my knuckles Under my face Feeling with envy Sometimes with anger Secretly hating Not them The people from my past Who made my heart and mind This way Just not enough For myself to move on How far I go Pulling me back to zero Building up And destroying at the same time From the triggers and experience That embedded in me Hiding back to my inner shell Everytime my heart hits hard Regardless the intention Afraid to be broken Leaving me no hope To rebuild myself again Still making myself think Back in my mind It is over The things I used to see All gone and no longer there At least The humble truth Close to my soul Able to step one forward Own time and space The past is behind me Where I do not face it anymore Now I see Same but different Little but better With that Regaining myself Once again The best © Sue Sanzz 2020