I carried grief,
an ache deep in my chest,
each breath tight,
each step heavy,
my world closing
around the hurt that stayed.
I held that pain
in my hands,
turning it over and over
as if feeling it
kept me alive.
But time flows on
and even stones soften...
edges worn down
by patient currents.
One morning,
I set the stone aside.
Not because I forgot,
not because I excused,
but because I was tired
of dragging yesterday
into each tomorrow.
Forgiveness is not
a letting go meant only for me:
it is what saved my chest,
the breath that rebounded
the sky opening above.
New release
New song available to listen at Bandcamp
Reggae lovers it's called:
Where there is love, that's where I'll be
Please give it a listen and let me know what you think
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Hi everyone
I'm so excited to announce my new album called INVISIBLE
it took years to write and compile these great songs,
there are 10 in total.
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Thanks for all of your support.
John Derek Hamilton
September 12,2025
the dark cloud ever present
holding a grudge was only hurting me
~ so i let it go
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I have just released my first single called Give all of my love on Bandcamp.
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RELEASE
For loving memory
She must depart
Forever lovely
Forever apart
My lilac of beauty
White satin dream
In solitude and raindrops
Forever it seems
Every day it seems a battle,
finds a way to leave you rattled,
the nonsense you see on TV,
lots of lies from the legacy,
traffic jams, can’t work from home,
boss demands, tell his where to go,
just goes on, the price we must pay,
comes a time you must get away!
I want to go off,
let this thing blow off,
the stress I’ll throw off,
I want to go off.
I want to go off,
let this thing blow off,
the stress I’ll throw off,
let this thing explode.
Find the time, bleed it off slowly,
clear my mind of the unholy,
make a plan, or maybe wing it,
find something that I can sink in.
Get a drink, maybe a woman,
take a trip, get up and go then,
some chaos, can be balancing,
feel alive, that’s what I’m wanting.
I want to go off,
let this thing blow off,
the stress I’ll throw off,
I want to go off.
I want to go off,
let this thing blow off,
the stress I’ll throw off,
let this thing explode.
Let this thing explode,
let this thing explode,
let this thing explode…
every man must unload.
ant quietly sits
under my right foots big toe
I gently release
Tired War,Release the Monkeys
They tried to nail my boot to the floor
No nail puller
My influence won the day
I was the monkey man
Earn the right
I want to ask
Just for a little more time
Growing life growing tree
just to lose it
Can't you see
Life got to be better
Once I lit that cigarette Ocean of tomorrows
Swells
Fasten our belts
There's air escaping This world has a leak
Just before a cats shadow beyond the hill
Against the grayish stucco plastered wall
Fortune of forever
Now its in your face
Fear fear fear
its all coming together
Together
Why I fear completion
Or falling apart
Put your mind in another place
Seeing the sun cut out to shade
I promise to do enough
oxygen enough empty space for you
To have another cigarette
Well I can't say that you suck
Unless I can do better
But even then
I saw monkeys
Hooked up to masks
I wondered who is actually murdering their ass
Well the monkey mysteriously went away
Hope take me away from tragedy
My old friend stayed
Giving death sentences like belonging to some hell bent regime
The trumpets sounded
I let it finish
I faded into forget
We all know that feeling. The one that we don’t want to end. The one that’s so satisfying it’s intoxicating. It starts subtle. Sometimes, it involves thoughts. Thoughts you wouldn’t dare share with anyone. It grows through your entire body, screaming and scratching through every single nerve ending. It spreads slowly, burning down every narrow passage and every inch of your skin. Your entire body is on fire. You feel it growing and growing as you inch towards your finale. It bubbles up, boiling to the top until it overflows. It flows over the edge, violently and satisfyingly. It flows and flows, releasing every tension in your body. The release is the greatest feeling, toxic, infuriating, invigorating, and all so inviting, making you want to feel this feeling all over again… The Release.
After you left, I was angry and sad.
I was alone, and didn’t know what to do.
I was no longer happy, only mad.
My life had no meaning without you.
You’ve made a life for yourself and gone on living
With someone who’s given you what you need.
I know that I must be kind and forgiving.
It’s the only way that I soul can be freed.
I didn’t know why this was part of God’s plan,
So, I closed myself off to everything.
I wanted so badly to understand,
But God was silent and told me nothing.
After what felt like an eternity,
I was allowed to see what I couldn’t before.
It was never you who left, it was me.
In Heaven is where I’ll spend forevermore.
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you are my ex for many reasons
I stayed past my learning season
thanking you for many lessons
hard but true hidden blessings
in a situation that was tainted
horrible picture of me you painted
you were broken in many places
feed off me and my good graces
several years past and u still the same
don't want to heal only want to blame
your sick mind thinking were a couple
I sit back shaking my head and chuckle
I am free of your monstrous bitterness
enjoying my self love and happiness
pray you find a way through the dark
it's hard and not a walk in the park
you're capable just trust and believe
stop face yourself and you will achieve
I always had the heart and courage to move on
decided to heal love my self and now I'm gone
my love energy is pure true and irreplaceable
took it for granted now you're being debatable
too late to act like we together and in true love
ready to receive the love I deserve from above
deceptive love
trickles of respect
traces of truth
inaccessible emotions
shadow of honesty
shady lust
spontaneous lies
unintentional commitment
traitorous loyalty
deficient communication
collection of secrets
Can I love without trusting too much.
Can I touch your heart,
Without u getting to close to mine
Can I love you.. ..
Can I Trust you. ..
Can I count on you
But all I wanna to know is it safe to let my Guard down around you..
Can I trust you with my heart and I want or need to know is it safe enough for me
to let my burden down around u
I write about the day and the night I write about putting
the world to right
I write about happy times I write about the sad
I write about the things that really drive me mad
I write about hate I write about love
I write about the devil and about god above.
I write about family I write about friends
I write about forgiveness and making amends
I don't write about fiction because everything is real
I write my poetry to explain how I feel
I write my poetry as a personal release
I write my poetry to put my mind at peace
I thank you for reading the poetry I write
and understanding that my poetry makes the darkness become light
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