Long Untrustworthy Poems

Date:  August 2041

Members of the Damian fraternity 
Were relaxing in the backyard. The
Soon to be 4 year olds conducted 
Themselves in their sandbox.
The older children picniced on
The grass. Amadeus DJ Damali 
And Desharah sat...

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Paradise of passion has dawned upon my mind of my once dusked mindset (desired future of peace that has transformed my mind that was of darkness for the better) 
I'm envious of others' ecstasy for...

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My Mind Heart and Soul 


I seem to laugh yet never entertained
My smile shine bright but my joy is detained 
Cold and sore my heart slowly disintegrates
Falling piece by piece into a dark cage 
A...

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We don´t listen to the same blues, you and I.
You don´t hear the bass or the drum or the sounds
That tell you a bit about me. 
Instead you cross the street,
Wearely and willingly, speeding up.

I...

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Pondering about my existence lying here staring at the ceiling the reality of my presence.
I am dead walking upon the living.
Everyone that has enter my life made promises to love me,
Each promise that was broken...

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One, two, three, 
Then a change of scene. 

Falls were always so calm, 
The winters comfortable. 
Summers were warm,
But the spring was always a little unstable. 

The only constant in my life has been change,...

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Sitting in his kingdom of endless riches
A man amused by material wishes
An infinite need for more and more
With limits on splurging most often ignored
But when one’s mind is ruled by a greed, 
Trust cannot exist,...

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Some guys many skills have mastered,
I blush when I try to tell little lies 
and shaking I reveal my fakeness;
quite a few girls have slapped me hard.

Cindy went on vacation heading South,
she warned me priming...

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I've been gone for a while, off to a lonely place. 
Had to do some thinking, I needed some space. 
   Not sure if it helped make the man I wanted to create....

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Depression overrules my mental during the most blindsided times
Smile on social media but I’m crying inside
Work hard everyday but I really miss Crime
When I was a dealer everyone was around
No more jumping around making music
...

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dark skin closes over my eyes
ringlets darker than wet curls
stay open, i plead with them
my wrists rest on the keyboard
red and sore, covered by lace black gloves
my feet tap the bed, skin brushing against the...

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When I was in an interfaith seminary
I noticed three models
for understanding a faith community's purpose
in a democratic and diverse society.

1. Conservation of SelfRighteous Anger

To compete with,
and thereby degenerate the powers of,
sin and evil and ignorance
in...

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The waters were solid and murky in the deep
But clear toward the top where the two-legged sleep.
No humans were around at this time of night.
They would have been astounded by this incredible sight.

A young dolphin...

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—Oh, it’s a terrible thing to see—

Look; the face,
that ugly face reflected in a broken mirror.

It’s a daffodil, the dream of Narcissus’,
it’s an inevitable arrogance, the karma of Hamlet’s,

yet no way to cast all these...

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I know your deepest fear, what you dread the most,
Still, your own desire you're preserving as a ghost.
You're guided by your arrogance; on your ego you rely.
Haven't you ever heard, the ego's known to lie?

You...

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The cunningness I feel is near:
It tries coming for a stay
Living within a beast, I once lived in
It's a bit dangerous wanting my play.

I have to be careful, now, right:
Staying in the right of my...

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I'm contemplating killing my other me,
The one who fronts for the five figure manager at Ruby Tuesday for a job,
Struggling to tie loose ends, so my ends don't meet.
Strangers they are, Me and I, I...

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Walking on the varied levels of sand
I stood on the edge unthinking of consequence
It gave way
No one more surprised than me
Oh yes, true thing learned:
The edge is unstable
The footing unsure
In my youth what did I...

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Certainly November is lovely  
beyond our intuition and expectation...
as it paves  the empty  roadways
with auburn foilage;
and the gently hissing wind
creates  its own cheerful melody,
because  frickle  imagination
provides the words of...

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Oh, you swamp me with charm - get out of my head.
There’s something about you - a warmth - like the comfort of home - that pulls at me.

I study your landscape of attractive surfaces...

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Life lies so many times 
I have heard them all but still i fall,
into the fantasy my mind races 
my heart pounds with the thought
then its gone as fast as it came
as the lie of...

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For all the children who cross monster’s path
Beware of his cold-heart and his great wrath

Don’t look into his eyes; they’ll draw you in
And once you’re there, you can’t get out, you can’t win

It’ll be a...

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Infatuation 

Your beauty was a façade 
I saw what I wanted and not what I needed
But behold, as I dug deeper I only found
The things that even God might’ve frowned 
As smooth as a snake,...

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Monday Afternoon
October 19, 2015
2:13 p.m.
Kansas City, Mo
Stephen Becker pen name Brian Stoaks


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A silver shawl hangs heavy over the mountain 
sky grey clouds shooting gun barrel smoke hiding sunlight 

Looking out towards the ocean dreaming in wild north Atlantic waves
tides turn a little lamb suffering in the...

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